Loving in a London Riot
A/N: I may have lied about getting to Anderson's in this chapter. It wasn't originally going to end in smuttimes…but I was writing and it just…kinda went in that direction. Switched to Kaidan's perspective in this chapter as well; it simply seemed…I don't know.
"So how are we moving troops to Scotland?" Nate had asked, and Kaidan had smiled in response to that. There was just something about their leader that made Kaidan feel perpetually safe; even in the battleground hellhole that they were currently in. That determination to get on with the job in hand showed Kaidan that his lover was fine, he was raring to go again. Although if that was a question that he was asking of the other, Kaidan had to admit that he had no advice. Anderson was the only person that would have any idea of how to get their troops to the northern half of the UK.
"We have to get to Anderson," Nate finally spoke again as if he was in Kaidan's mind, although Kaidan knew that it was just because his lover was smart and would have immediately come to the best possible conclusion and that was indeed to get to Anderson. Kaidan nodded once in response, but he wasn't sure that the Commander would be up to fighting through the streets of London to get back to the temporary camp that Anderson had set up – if it was that it hadn't been moved by this point. Anderson had said when Shepard had fainted that he might not be able to stay at the camp.
"Why aren't we with Anderson anyway?" Shepard asked suddenly, drawing Kaidan back from the thoughts that he had been having. Of course, Nate would ask that. It was a fairly obvious question to ask.
"When you….went down, we weren't sure how bad it was, we took you in here to defend you, but then you were unconscious…and Liara and EDI thought it would be better not to move you in case…" Kaidan trailed off, he didn't want to think about what could have happened if they had moved him much beyond that – moving him at all had been a risk, but a building was easier to defend than open ground and Nate had been under a few hours. At least this way, Liara had been able to monitor him – only the basics, what she could use her omni-tool for. She had been able to determine much, but not really what had happened to him. Kaidan worried that it could happen to him again and if it happened again, what if it was worse? What if…what if he lost Nathan again? Losing him the first time had broken his soul apart, and his love had only recently put him back together again.
He looked at Nathan; he was thinking again, most likely determining what he wanted to do next with that information.
"I think, I should be fine now," He said after a few moments, "I don't think Harbinger will try that trick again."
"What?" Kaidan asked; it was reasonable that Harbinger had done something to Shepard when they had been as close as they were to him, but what had the Reaper done to Nathan exactly? Had they been communicating when he was unconscious. There were so many possibilities given the technology that he had seen with his love so far from the Reapers – Dragon's Teeth, the Geth AI upgrades, the Reapers themselves. Their technology was so far advanced beyond every other sapient species' that Kaidan couldn't rule anything out – except indoctrination. He refused with every fibre of his being to believe that Shepard could succumb to that. He was too strong for that.
"They…put me in some kind of dream…tried to trick me…don't know what for, maybe to kill me?" He answered questioningly.
Kaidan put his hand on Nathan's chest feeling the strong heartbeat there, feeling the beat that kept Nathan alive, kept him going.
"Well you didn't let them, you came back to me," Kaidan said assuredly. This was real, Shepard was real and there was no denying of that and he was going to make sure that nothing would change that. Harbinger stood no chance now.
"Yeah, you were what got me through it," Nathan replied, and Kaidan felt a push on the back of his head as his face was drawn to Shepard's and his mouth instinctively opened, Nathan was going to kiss him.
He loved kissing the Vanguard; his tongue was just so demanding that Kaidan had to comply with the demands it presented to him, his tongue being like him – the Sentinel would submit and take orders from the natural warrior. That primal energy came to his focused discipline and tore it apart like Shepard did to any enemy that stood in his path. Shepard was like an infinite force, there was no resistance that couldn't just be swept out of his path. Kaidan admired that about him, nothing stopped Shepard from getting what he wanted; when they had met on Horizon and Shepard had spoken to him for the first time since he had come back from the dead and Kaidan had been ready to stand and not go with him on that crazy crusade against the Collectors, Shepard had managed to convince him and he was glad of that. When they had been going to put Kaidan on trial alongside Shepard for colluding with Cerberus, Shepard had managed to talk them out of it and seemingly managed to talk about him so well that they had promoted the then Staff Commander to Major, although that didn't really matter since the Reapers had hit not a month after that. He surrendered as usual with protest or fight of any kind to the tongue in his mouth. He let himself lean over with more of his body even though he knew he shouldn't. This was dangerous, everyone else was just outside and there were Reaper forces around at all times, Kaidan knew that he shouldn't, but he couldn't stop himself – he needed to kiss Nathan, needed to be with him.
He broke the kiss when he felt his vision starting to blur from his brain's protests about not having oxygen. He was breathing heavy and so was Nathan, unlike their last kiss that had been tender that had been…he wasn't even sure he had the words to describe what that had been beyond wonderful, amazing. Now though, such a kiss presented a problem. Kaidan felt that his trousers had tightened on him. He wouldn't do anything about that, though. Turned on as he was, they had things to do and number one was that he had to get to Anderson. Sex could come after they had saved the galaxy again.
"You should get ready, if we're gonna move…" Kaidan trailed off, there was part of him that didn't want to go just yet, that just wanted to say "fuck it" and take the time they needed to be with each other, and the risks of people seeing, hearing or being killed be damned. He wasn't sure if he wanted Nathan to feel the same.
"Kaidan…" Nathan replied, and Kaidan could tell from the lower pitch and almost pleading tone that Nathan did indeed feel the same as he did.
"If we have time at Anderson's…" Kaidan promised. Anderson's camp had been kind of full of people doing the exact same thing. Sleeping with each other at a moment's notice – they had been all preparing for a mission where they could never come back from so that had made sense. He was sure that in moving the troops they'd have time for a moment with each other to…be intimate again. He did love it when they could do that. Nathan was his first man, and Nathan was…the best man he had ever been with. He was so talented, Kaidan could almost drool thinking about it but he had to keep his composure to stop that little part inside of him from growing.
"Anderson's." Shepard answered with conviction. He was going to hold Kaidan to that, Kaidan knew. "Where's my armour, by the way?" He asked.
Kaidan pointed to a small pile of black and pile that was neatly sitting on a table, waiting for its owner to put it back on again. Kaidan remembered Nathan telling him that the first thing that he had done when he had gotten his armour from Cerberus was to have the colour changed since it wasn't a big deal for them what colours he wore. The Alliance hadn't made him change it back for obvious reasons, by the time he was technically active and able to wear it again, the Reapers had invaded. It wasn't looking its best just now given how close Shepard had been to the blast zone from Harbinger's weapon. When Liara had been in the room, though she had said that she would repair it as best she could with what she had available to her. It hadn't been much but it had made the armour function at least, and Nathan could power the barriers himself – stronger than most people's. He remembered they had sparred and Nate had challenged him to lower his barriers with Kaidan's own biotics. It had taken him a while and the launching of six warps in quick succession and Kaidan was a strong biotic – one of the Alliance's most powerful, he knew.
"You're gonna need it, fighting's fierce out there," Kaidan replied, not knowing really what to say, "I'll bring it across to you." He rose to get it.
"No…not yet," Nathan replied quickly, arm reaching out to grab Kaidan and pull him back to the bed, "…Can't wait for Anderson's."
Kaidan didn't really have time to react, he was pulled onto the bed and looking into Nate's crystalline blue eyes - with the odd tiny speck of crimson from the Cerberus implants that had brought him back from the read – there was pleading in them, pleading for Kaidan not to wait and Kaidan couldn't resist that. He could never have stood up to that pleading expression – the very one that the Commander had used to bring Kaidan back to his side when they had met on Horizon. Kaidan figured that for anyone else, he could have held his nerve but the man he loved could play with his heartstrings like they were a guitar and have Kaidan make any kind of music that he wanted him to. Kaidan slammed his lips to Nate's, climbing onto the bed with him, lying on top of him. Nate was warm – always warm. His eyes fluttered shut as the kiss went on. He wasn't going to resist Shepard…he couldn't wait for Anderson's either.
"Have to…be quick," Kaidan murmured in the quick breaks between kisses where vital oxygen was replenished in their lungs to fuel more kisses. Kisses that were as essential for living at that moment as a beating heart. Kaidan felt that were they pulled apart at that moment, they would both surely expire, not able to take the loss of feeling. Shepard didn't really seem to acknowledge the comment.
Hands were trailing down his back as the kisses deepened further as they passed that point – that point where neither was able to stop anymore, not until the passion had run its course and they had sated their appetite for each other. Nothing would stop them, barring the most extreme of circumstances – Kaidan knew this well; James had interrupted them one night and they hadn't even registered that he was there. He only knew that that had happened after James had been blushing every time he saw them until Nathan forced the reason for that out of him. Then it had been Kaidan's turn to blush. Nathan didn't. He was never embarrassed, he had made open declarations of love to Kaidan when the crew had been around and despite Garrus' teasing, Shepard had no regrets of the action. Those hands massaged skin as they went approaching Kaidan's ass.
"Mine," Shepard spoke, his voice firm. That was the thing about loving Shepard. Once he had you, you were his and he would hold on to you as firmly as he could, letting nothing take you from him. Even his death hadn't broken that for Kaidan. The two years without him, he hadn't stopped being Shepard's.
"Yours," was all Kaidan managed to get out between the moments when Shepard was dominating his mouth.
The few moments that followed were almost a blur as Nathan removed Kaidan's clothing as quickly as he could; getting his lover naked before him and then time seemed to freeze as Nathan looked upon him, those azure eyes filled with an expression that embarrassed Kaidan to no end. Nathan described this action as worshipping Kaidan's body and thanking every deity that he knew that he could have this man as his lover. Nathan's lips touched his body again – not at his lips this time, but just at the hollow of his neck, a spot that could drive Kaidan to insanity when Nathan played with it as expertly as he did.
"Don't tease," Kaidan pleaded with his lover – not that he didn't enjoy it, but if they were going to do this here and now. It really needed to be fast before developments forced them to move. There was only so long they could bunker in inside a building and they were pushing it. Reaper forces converged on any inhabited building within a day or two, and they had been here long enough for that to start happening.
"Can't help myself," Nate replied, the smirk on his lips not having to be visible for Kaidan to know that it was there. He could feel it against his chest as Nathan started licking his way down his lover's body, pushing him to lean back so that he could get access to it from his sitting position "So irresistible, Kaidan." Kaidan could have laughed, that was the same as his thoughts towards Nathan, no one could resist him. Alliance Brass, The Council, hell even Aria T'loak enjoyed his company on the few occasions they had met. Kaidan gasped, in that moment of thought Shepard had reached his goal on his southward travels, and his lips were now on Kaidan's cock. Looking down at that sight made it twitch in Shepard's warm mouth. Shepard had lips made for it, perpetually soft and the inside of his mouth was just so…warm, so tight and Nathan was well trained in pleasing Kaidan – they had been together for three years – since the Original Normandy, since the days of fighting Saren and Nathan had made sure that he could please Kaidan well – taking as much time to practice as he could.
Shepard smiled around Kaidan when he made him make loud gasps. He was trying to be quiet as well, so Kaidan knew that he would think of every sound that he got his love to make to be a victory. Nathan sort of viewed life as a battle, everything could be won by tactics and his skills. Kaidan couldn't disagree with him - what Commander Nathan Shepard wanted, he got no matter the level of protest or people telling him that it couldn't be done and what he wanted right now was for Kaidan to make noise as he was sucked off.
"Na-Nate," Kaidan let out; the warmth was too much and his lover too talented, Kaidan could never last long when Nathan was like this, and he was like this a lot. The specific hitch was almost a code – a warning to Shepard since he let out his name every time he was almost there. Shepard let it out of his mouth and Kaidan whined; the loss of the warmth almost like a blow against him.
Hands pressed at his shoulders, Nathan wanted the favour returned – Kaidan could guess why. It wasn't like they kept lube on them in the middle of the battlefield. They had kept a small container once in Nate's armour but it had proven to be more trouble than it was worth to get it in a bit that wouldn't be easily shot.
"Wan'chur mouth…" Nathan muttered as Kaidan let himself be pushed downwards, his mouth going towards Shepard's lap. He wasn't as talented as sucking as Nathan himself was, but Kaidan liked that he could still make Shepard go a little bit crazy when he was, so he eagerly moved quicker getting humanity's hero inside his mouth. Nathan was bigger than most, being somewhere between nine and ten inches in length, long enough that Kaidan had had to practice for a while to be able to take all of but now he could whenever he wanted and he would use that now. He opened his throat as the cock slipped to the back of his throat so that he could get it all inside of him.
Shepard moaned - a low sound coming from deep in his own throat, the vibrations from it running through his entire body. Kaidan knew that if he moaned around the cock in his mouth that drove Shepard even wilder and so that was exactly what he did, using the deepness of his own voice to make sure that the vibrations went along Nate's length, as he caressed the underside with his tongue. His fingers were also used, to teasingly touch and rub his lover's balls; gentle strokes and caresses to give sensation to them as well. A triple threat to Shepard's control over himself – the noise that was the response to that was louder, almost a yell, muffled Kaidan guessed by Nathan flinging his arm in front of his mouth as quickly as possible – it wouldn't do to bring a teammate in to check if something was the matter – although they all probably could guess what was happening inside the room. They weren't stupid after all.
"…Want to be inside," Nathan whined out, managing to hold off any more moans or screams for a moment.
With those words, Kaidan stopped immediately – the promised feeling too much to resist. Shepard was as talented at topping Kaidan as he was at blowing Kaidan, better than any other lover that he had ever had – although to be fair, that was only a couple of teenage experiments with some of the other Brain Camp kids – no one had really been experienced. He let himself be flipped by Shepard to put them in a better position for what was to follow. Shepard trailing his hands down the front of Kaidan's body stroking quickly over his cock before slipping below his legs to lift them up to balance on Shepard's strong shoulders so that he had access to that area – Kaidan's entrance. Nate had told him once that he was always tempted to skip prepping Kaidan or watching Kaidan prep himself but he couldn't bear the thought of causing Kaidan any kind of pain in this…their joining together.
"You or me?" Kaidan sighed out the question, his fingers close to his mouth in anticipation. He watched Nathan consider it for a moment before he answered "You," which caused the fingers that were close to Kaidan's mouth to slip inside of it, to wet them before he moved them to his entrance, he slipped one in making himself moan harshly. In the couple of days that they hadn't been with each other, he had also not had any time to play with himself and so his ass was a little tighter than it usually was and the finger stretched a little again. Not too much of course, Shepard's impressive size would prevent him from being really tight for a long while.
"So beautiful," Nathan whined, his hands roaming over his own cock – unable to resist stroking it as he watched his lover slowly start moving his finger, before adding in the second. It wouldn't be long now – it never took Kaidan that long to prepare himself if they wanted to get that bit over with quickly and Kaidan definitely wanted it over with quickly, wanting Shepard inside of him, wanting to feel his warmth inside of him, pushing him over the cliff into glorious climax.
"Time…" Kaidan breathed, after a few moments of having a third finger in him, touching his prostate bringing him greater and greater pleasure. He had to slow himself – didn't want to ruin it by finishing before it began – they didn't have the time to bring him back to hardness if he did. Shepard moved immediately, lining himself up, the head just touching Kaidan's stretched entrance. He pushed forward slightly, starting to get inside of him. Kaidan felt it stretching him even further. He could feel Shepard start to move within him, coming inside of his body.
"Ah…tight," Nathan gasped as he pushed in a little quicker, wanting to be in Kaidan as much as Kaidan wanted him to be in him.
"Fuck," Kaidan cursed as Shepard's length hit his prostate. He was always good at getting it on the first thrust, and within a moment of that curse and jolt of pleasure he felt Shepard's hips on him. He was in. He stopped there a moment, knowing that it would take a few seconds to get over the initial pain that Kaidan was feeling from his entry – pain that Kaidan ignored. It didn't hurt that much and he could focus on the pleasure but he was glad that Nathan always waited that few seconds.
A nod to Shepard was the signal that he could start moving, that he could start his thrusting, his cock slamming on Kaidan's prostate. He leaned down to kiss Kaidan as he did so, just to muffle them. They couldn't help the noises that the actions of the other extracted from them. As they kissed they could feel it, the moans passing between them, sharp intakes of breath for the few seconds they were parted. Shepard's hips were colliding with the globes of Kaidan's rear, and each time, he felt Kaidan inhale.
"Harder," Kaidan's tone was begging, pleading with Nathan who did exactly what was asked of him, increasing the ferocity of those thrusts and the intensity of the pleasure that he was bringing to Kaidan.
There was nothing like the movement of Shepard within him, Kaidan had experienced nothing quite like it. He felt so close to the man that so many viewed as a hero – they were one in these moments. Part of each other – with each thrust, he could feel the twitches in Shepard's cock, the twitches of the veins as his heart beat faster. He could feel that pulse in Shepard's mouth that rhythm of his life. They were joined, wholly – completely. Many viewed this man as a hero, but in these moments where they were thrusting against each other, trying to give each other the maximum pleasure – Kaidan saw the man that Nathan wanted to be. He had said that one time – in the moments they were together, Nathan could simply be Nathan. Not Commander Shepard, nothing like that. Just Nathan. Nathan and Kaidan.
"Gonna…" Kaidan's voice was failing him – the word coming out as more of a breath like he had completely lost his voice.
"Me…too," Shepard replied, his own voice mirroring the state of Kaidan's.
The moment of climax came from Shepard first, liquid heat spilling from the hardness moving within Kaidan – coating his insides and that warmth, that feeling and that soft cry of "Kaidan" moved him into his own – he felt it in his hips travelling along, running up the way and then out as he let out his own cry "Na-Nate" as he came, spilling onto his chest and onto Shepard's as Shepard came down to kiss him more breathlessly as the climaxes faded into the moments of afterglow when nothing else mattered – when there was nothing but the two lovers on a bed thoroughly loved by the other and brought to the apex of their pleasure. He wished they had time – time to sleep next to each other, he didn't particularly feel like moving, but he knew that they needed to…but it could wait a couple of moments. Just a few small seconds of peace before returning to that war outside and pressing on to Anderson's.
A/N: Of course the smut ends up being the longest chapter thus far –snort-. I blame my masculine mind – filled with sex and such hahaha. We shall begin the push to Anderson's in the next chapter but for the push I feel like switching view to one of the squad mates and I think I'll let you guys pick which one – drop a line to say which one. I'll hold off a week before writing it to give time to vote.
