sorry that it's been awhile. XX
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2 years wasn't enough to forget. Wasn't enough to forget that he had left despite my pleading. After our fight, Edward was back at college, clearing up a few loose ends before he left. It did cross my mind, going with him. But then i would get home and see Charlie, helpless. The doctors said he didn't have long.
I found myself researching Australia. Edward would love it. Edward was always meant to be in the sun. And then,too soon, it was the day he left completely. To give him credit he did give me his number. But it felt as if when he said he didn't want anything to hold him down, he meant it. He was cutting me off. When his flight was called i ran a grabbed his shirt.
"You know...i want you to have your dream...i just wanted a bit of mine too." Edward looked around as i said this. The look he gave me killed me, but his words were worse.
"Ever thought i wasn't meant to be in that dream Bells. I now realise you weren't supposed to be in mind...no don't look like that. I didn't mean that. I love you. But you are not coming with me. Bella you are beautiful and smart. There will be someone else."
"And you."
Edward gave me his crooked smile, then whispered in my ear "i have never not loved you. Bella...be the Bella i love in 2 years." He gave me one last kiss. After days of no affection, this was a bittersweet kiss, showing that he did care. He pulled away.
And he left.
I don't know how long i stood there. Stay the same Bella. I laughed. I would cry, for 2 years. But when he comes back i would be the same.
The first year was hardest. Charlie was worse. The look doctors gave me told me things there words never did. Im sorry.
And the number Edward gave me, lets say the only conversation was when he arrived. To tell me i was safe. That was it. I got a postcard. They keep me in my toes. That was it. I think that was a apology. Telling me he was busy.
Mr. Cullen sort of understood. "would you like to have dinner." Yes i would say. He knew how tired i was. College quickly became no-existent for me. Charlie and looking after the house was time consuming, and putting him in a home was not an option.
One day, at the Cullens house, i became nosy. I had received no emails from Edward. Did anyone get them. Yes. His father.
There was a few actually and that hurt because Edward always told me he spoke to me more then to his parents. Obviously that wasn't true now.
I clicked on the most recent, and wanted to cry. It was a tanned Edward beaming at a camera. Surrounded by other tanned, happy people. Men and women. And he was smiley hi smile. I mean my smile, at someone else. In my head i though Bella, 1 year and 5 months. That was enough time for him to forget.
"Hey Dad. You said you wanted a picture so here you go. These are all my close mates. Love it up here."
Love you to Edward.
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sorry it was short. You have to review for another chapter. XX
