Okay, so I have many excuses for not updating for awhile, however I will just cut it short.
Life is crazy, strange, weird, and straight up insane! However, I still have to live no matter if everyone around me is insane!
So that is it, I'm not going to give you guys my pity story, I'm just going to leave it at that. ^-^
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Nami Kuromajo is owned by Shiranai Atsune
Hope you enjoy ^^
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Chapter 3: The Line Between the Insane and Sane
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(Okay so that just happened...)
I felt sick to my stomach, like it was in a big knot of emotions and my heart pounding in my chest so loudly that it was the only thing I really heard, the teacher's voice sounding far away in the background.
I didn't really know how to take seeing a vision or whatever you may call it. Whatever it was left me feeling like I stepped into a limbo-like state, slightly disorientated about my surroundings and confused as to what happened, trembling in my skin like I was freezing cold but really only feeling empty and drained.
(Is something wrong with me?) I questioned as I stared down at the wooden desk like it might have the answers written on it, instead it had some names and drawing on it, very helpful. Not!
I shook my head going blank as to how to think or feel, like I had gone numb from head to toe in shock even though I could feel my heart rapidly beating, it felt almost like I was detached and experiencing it all from the outside of my body.
I glanced from the corner of my eye at the white haired vampire on my left as he seemed to stare out the window lost in his own thoughts.
(What's going on with me?) I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing to which I forgot to do in my shocked state. (Maybe it's nothing, maybe I….) My thoughts drifted off into silence, and I shook my head once again as the feeling of being sick settled in my stomach when I thought of the vampire sitting next to me.
(Something is really wrong with me.) Whatever that vision or hallucination was; there would be no point in worrying about it now, because I had things that needed my utmost attention, and that was…Vampires. I couldn't lose track of what I needed to do, and that was get the hell away from the nightmare that I somehow walked straight into.
A loud bell rang out, the sound ringing through the classroom and making me almost jump out of my skin and I bashed my knees up against the desk in my startled state, letting out an unintentional hiss of pain as it flashed up and down my legs. Rubbing my right knee that seemed to have taken on most of the assault from the under desk attack, I looked up as students closed their books, gathered their bags, before walking out the door talking to one another.
I noticed a few girls glancing at me, whispering to each other and sending me a few more looks before leaving. (What is that about?) I wondered, furrowing my brows at their secretive behaviour.
"Get moving!" A growl beside me had me jumping and groaning in frustration as I hit my right knee against the desk once again. I sent a glare up to the left of me only to flinch back at the person who growled. His red eyes stared down at me with an even angrier glare that dared to be challenged. I cringed and weakly smiled up at him.
"Are you deaf? Get moving!"
I stared up at him in a slight daze when he snarled loudly and I was jumping back and out my seat, knocking the desk slightly with the side of my hip and a few things fell to the floor.
I sighed in annoyance and pain as another twinge went down the right side of my hip.
I heard him huff out in irritation and I quickly kneeled down to collect the things and as I reached to pick up a pen with a cat symbol on it, vaguely aware that I didn't have one - it must have been part of the items that I picked up at the beginning of class - a hand reached out at the same time. I stopped just short of touching whoever it was, and looked up; expecting to meet furious red eyes instead met soft brown ones. I instinctively flinched back, a hurt looked flashing through her eyes before regaining their soft state. "Um….you…um…picked up….some…of my things…." She mumbled, her face going a slight shade of pink.
I felt mine also heating up. (Come on! This is not the time to be socially awkward!) "Uh, yeah." I managed to squeak out sheepishly, grimacing at the sound. (Come on Nami! She's not a vampire; she's not going to bite.)
I wasn't really good at social interactions with people or making friends for that matter. I'm normally shy around people and also make a fool of myself when put into situations that desires actual communications or body movement.
At my last school, I didn't really have much of a social life and spent most of my time in the library reading away. Don't get me wrong, I loved reading, to be able to be transported to a different world through words is amazing, but my Dad on the other hand insists I socialize, as in his words 'finds it weird to have a daughter that spends most of her time hiding away' although he wasn't much better than me, he didn't have much friends, was always worrying and complaining if I got home too late and spent more time hidden away from people than I did.
I sighed as I picked up the last of the items from the floor and stood up carefully as the pain still pounded at my hip, realizing that Subaru was no longer around, suddenly feeling a tight sensation in the pit of my stomach forming. (What if one of them appears now that he's gone?) I swallowed hard, my mouth suddenly feeling dry at the thought and quickly turned my attention back to the girl in front of me.
She smiled weakly, holding out her hand. "Um…can I have my pen back?" She mumbled her eyes trained on the floor.
I quickly realized that I still held one of her things in my grasp. "Uh….yeah, sure." I looked through the objects coming across the pen with the cat symbol printed on it. I handed the pen to her quickly, slightly making skin contact with her warm and soft hand as I laid the pen in the palm of her hand.
"Thank you." She mumbled again, her eyes flickering back and forth before turning on her heels and hurriedly walked out the class, rushing off to her next class and leaving me alone, well not alone since the teacher was still here, looking through the papers on his table like they were the most important thing in the world.
I sighed as I had no choice left and went up to his desk. He didn't acknowledged me at first, keeping his head down and eyes fixed on the papers until I cough softly, letting him know of my presence if he didn't know before.
He sighed and muttered under his breath, however it was too soft that I couldn't hear anything and glanced up at me with what looked to be an impatience look on his face. "Yes." He snapped. "What do you want?!"
I flinched, taken aback from his sudden change of personality. One minute shaking in his pants looking like he's going to pee himself and now, being an arrogant and self important jerk.
"Ah…sorry, I don't know where my next class is." I mumbled, my eyes trailing down to the papers since they held a less intimidating look to them.
A sigh was heard before a mutter of words under his breath, but this time I could catch a few words of what he said. "Why me…today…..I hate….these rich kids...pain…." I flinched back when his voice jumped an octave higher and louder. "Shouldn't you have someone showing you around or something? I'm sorry, but I have another class starting so I can't help you. Please leave and go look for someone else to assist you."
I stared at him for a few seconds, slightly shocked and surprised by his bluntness. "Yeah….okay." I trailed turning and escaping the classroom from the hostility of the teacher.
Once outside the room I released a breath of air that I didn't know I held and glanced around, questioning what I should do next when a bell went off in my head. (WAIT! What the hell am I even doing?!) I had totally gotten into the role of being the new student that I forgotten the real reason that I should be worried about. (Damn it, why do I keep forgetting?!) Maybe the reason I kept forgetting was because I was in denial, denial about the whole situation of being held captive by vampires. Vampires! Seriously?!
An insane laugh threatened to take control again, bubbling up; I bit my lower lip, fighting it back. Now wasn't the time to lose control. Laughing about my situation isn't going to save me.
I shook my head from my thoughts and blocked out my emotions, deciding for a split second to turn back to confront the teacher and ask for his help but immediately thought differently. I couldn't go around telling people that I was being held captive by vampires, they would think I was crazy! No, I needed to think clearly and logically about my next step.
I needed to get away, simply and easy right. Just get in a car and drive away from the insanity of this world that I stepped into. But what was that saying again? Easier said than done? Yup, that was totally true. For that matter, I needed to know where the hell the exit of Ryoutei Academy was first to get to a car! That was a mission to its self!
I started walking, in hope that I would somehow find my way out, and get away, and as much as it sounded lovely to wonder the empty halls in the middle of the night for ten minutes, I couldn't shake the feeling of being watched and any minute caged by someone. The voice in the back of my head screaming that I was playing with fire and was going to get burnt if I kept on with my path of action.
The tingling feeling had once again appeared and was travelling all over my body, giving me this coldness that crept on my skin leaving behind goose bumps and my heart racing as if it was telling me to start running as it was too late and I was going to get caught.
I glance over my shoulder a couple of times, rubbing my hands up and down my arms in hope of getting rid of the goose bumps, and almost jumping out my skin when I heard a loud voice from one of the classrooms as a teacher seemed to be yelling at them about something.
The anxious feeling sitting in the pit of my stomach again.
This plan sounded so easy and less dangerous in my head than it seemed to be in action, like any second one of the brothers would step out of the shadows and punish me for trying to escape.
I tried to distract myself from the absence of human presence in the hall by looking out the windows, however because of it being pitch black outside all I saw was my reflection that had me almost tripping over my own feet and my heart skipping a beat.
My eyes were glowing bright green, my breath catching in my throat in horror and surprise. (What the hell!) I leaned further to the window, hands touching the cold glass as I questioned if I was seeing correctly. (I look like something out of a horror movie!) I peeled my eyelids further open with my fingertips. (Yup, they are really glowing…..)
A chill ran down my spine at the thought, and I took cautious steps back from the glass, my eyes stuck on the sight in front of me. I clenched my hands together when I noticed that they had started to tremble and the feeling of the coldness enveloping me. (What's happening to me?)
"Meow." The sounded echoed down the hall, my eyes snapping away from the image and spinning around quickly to confront the sound.
There a few meters in front of me sat a black cat with a white dot on its chest, its tail flicking from side to side as its green eyes met mine.
I gasped in shock, my brows rising. "Midnight?!" I blinked repeatedly, my heart racing in my ears making it hard to even hear my breathing. "Wha-What-What are you doing here? No, it can't be." I shook my head. (Is this another thingamajig? Vision? Hallucination? Whatever!)
"Meow." The cat stood up, turning to walk off down the corridor, sending a glance back at me and with the flick of its tail ran off.
"Mid-Midnight?!" I cried, quickly gaining my bearings and chasing after the cat.
(It can't be. It can't be.) I kept repeating the thoughts over in my head as I raced after the cat that always seemed to disappear just as I saw it tail rounding the corners of the hallway. (She should still be back at home!) "Midnight!" I called out, growing frustrated with the chase. "Wait!"
I ran down the halls, down stairs, more hallways, and more stairs, before I pushed open a door, stepping outside, and the cold air burning as it slapped me across the face as it rushed over me.
Panting badly I choked out. "Mid-" The name dying on my lips as my lungs burnt in the need of air. I hunched over, gasping. "Uh! I really need to start exercising more." (Especially if running is going to become my daily routine.)
Straightening up a bit, as the burning in my lungs seemed to subside I glanced around, noting a few things. One, although I was outside, it wasn't the outside I was hoping for. Two, it seemed that I had come to a garden-like area with trees, flowers and benches with the lights from the building illuminating the place. And three, the cat was nowhere to be seen.
Letting out a loud sigh of frustration, I walked over to a bench and sat down in the intention of letting my body relax. Although that was short lived as I face palm at how stupid I was for running after a cat that I knew for sure wouldn't actually be here. "Uh….maybe I am losing my mind…."
I leaned back into the bench, hanging my head back, covered my face with my arm and breathing out a puff of warm air into the cold night sky. My mind went blank and I liked it that way. No worrying, no thoughts, no problems. Just like my Dad once told me 'As soon as you start looking for a solution that's when you create a problem.'
Okay, maybe in this instance he isn't really a good role model….
Closing my eyes, while my arm still covered half of my face I listened to the beating of my heart that was now almost back to normal and the wind that blew through my hair almost playfully. I smiled at the nice feeling of my hair being played with. I still felt drained after that vision-thingy, my eyes feeling very heavy and I was sure if I closed my eyes now that I would go straight to sleep.
A soft chuckled echoed in my ears. "You know….if Reiji found out that you were skipping your classes….he will punish you." The male voice mumbled very softly from my left.
My eyes snapped open, my heart skipping another beat, however I didn't move or flinch, only when I heard a sigh did I slowly move my arm away, sending a glance to the male. It was the eldest son, Shu aka the pervert.
He was under one of the trees, leaning his upper body up against it well his legs were stretched out on the grass. He opened one eyes to address me before closing it again and released another sigh.
He didn't move, so neither did I.
I just sat there watching him for a few moments, watching as his chest raised and lowered with his breathing. He didn't seem very intimidating compared to the rest of the brothers now that I watched him carefully. (Wait? Do vampires need to breathe? Aren't they, like, immortal and have….no heart? They are undead, right?) It was then that I realized that I didn't even know that much about vampires and if any of the stories about them were even close to the truth.
"What are you looking at, lewd woman? …..Thinking of shoving your chest into my face again while I sleep?" He smirked and I wrinkled my nose in disgust.
"No!" I snapped back, standing to my feet with the intentions of getting away from him. "I didn't shove my chest into your face! I was trying to climb out of the window and not to wake you up…..so…I…..kind of….climb over you….." I trailed off, remembering that I accidently… kind of did, have my upper body pushed up into his face. I felt my face heat up in embarrassment at the thought.
Shu chuckled softly as if he could see my red face full of shame with his eyes closed.
I poked out my tongue at him in anger and glared at him. "Well, I wouldn't have done that if you weren't in the way!" A thought flashed in my head, wondering if I could act this way towards him, what if I angered him. (Maybe I shouldn't push the boundaries with him.)
But that thought went out the window when he chuckled quietly again. "Then I would have missed all the fun."
I felt my face get even hotter. (Uh, I hate boys, they really are like dogs.) I tried to come up with another come back when he sighed all of the sudden and mumbled "How bothersome."
I frowned at his words, when suddenly I felt the prickling down my back. I froze over at the realization of the cold presence behind me, my heart starting to beat faster again. "Nami-san." My name on his tongue was as cold as a knife and hid a dangerous undertone
I flinched, and jumped forward, spinning on my feet to quickly face him only to be met with red eyes that pierced me in half. "I believe you should be in class. Why are you not?" His eyes held me in place like a doll on a string as the words echoed in my head. "You will be with Subaru. Unless you want a whipping, don't try anything reckless. Understood?"
I felt the uneasy sickness coming back again. "Um…Uh…" My mouth went dry and my tongue felt like sandpaper as I tried to come up with a reasonable excuse. "Subaru left me." The words rushed out and dripping in fear.
Finally, his cold eyes left mine to look over at Shu. "How appalling." His eyes narrowing at his older brother. "You truly are a disgrace to the family name." His tone held a hidden anger to it. I shivered uncontrollably as the air around us seemed to drop a few degrees.
Shu didn't say anything, it actually seemed like he had fallen back asleep. Turning his attention back to me, his once again held me in place and carrying on with our conversation. "Is that so? Then I will see to it that Subaru gets his punishment-
"Wait, Subaru didn't do anything wrong!" I interrupted as Reiji finished his sentence seeming to completely ignore me however his eyes sharpening in a warning.
"As so will you for not finding another way to get to your class and socializing with this good-for-nothing." He said, sending a glance in Shu's way as he finished.
I froze again. (Punishment…..) My eyes grew at the thought of being whipped for missing one class. (Seriously, isn't that I bit much!)
But his eyes told me it all. He seemed almost pleased with the idea of torturing me for one little mistake. Like he actually wanted me to make a mistake just so he could.
(He's a sadistic!) I unintentionally gulped loudly, his eyes hardening at the sound like I had displeased him once again. I cringed, the words to apologize right on the edge of my tongue for displeasing him when he held up his hand to silence me.
"I don't need your pathetic human begging and pleading; you will oblige and not cause a scene. Do you understand?"
"Yes!" I almost shouted my voice cracking.
"Good, I will now show you to your next class, and I will see to it that if the next time you do not fulfil your duties as student, you will be severely punished." He said turning to the door and pulling it open and not even waiting for me as he walked on, me quickly following after him.
I nodded at his words; passing through the doors and as I slowly closed them, sent a glance in Shu's direction to see he was no longer there. For some odd reason, I felt abandoned, but shook that feeling away and quickly hurried after Reiji making sure to keep a few steps behind him.
(I should have gotten away well I could.) I thought, feeling like a failure as I stared at the back of Reiji's head, his black hair at the end swing back and forth as he walked. (Who knows when I will get another opportunity like that again?)
As I watched him walking in front of me, I couldn't help but question how he knew I was there with Shu. I thought back to the prickling feeling I got as I walked down the hall in my escape, and wondered what it meant.
Reiji stopped and me slowly down to his side as he knocked on the door of the classroom, my gaze on the ground.
The door opened to reveal a woman with a huge chest standing before us with a bright smile on her face. "Ah! Reiji-san, how may I help you?" Her voice squeaky and loud as she threw a piece of her bleach blonde hair behind her
I closed my eyes as my ears cried out in pain.
"I'm terribly sorry for interrupting your class-" Reiji started sounding actually sincere.
"Oh! Don't worry about it my dear." She giggled, swinging her hair around and pushing playfully on him chest.
I crocked a brow, watching this with bewilderment and amusement, a part of me wanted to laugh at her failed attempt of flirtation with Reiji, just managing hold back a snort at the scene before me. Clearly this woman had worse taste in men than her fashion sense. Reiji sent a cold glare down at me to end my amusement with the situation.
The woman regarded me with curious eyes. "Oh my, is this your girl-"
"She is a relative of mine that is staying with us for a while." He added quickly before she could get any ideas about our relationship….which we didn't have, unless you called being a blood bag for vampires a relationship or as they seem to like to call me, prey.
(Stay for a while?) I swallow at the thought. The way he said it made me feel anxious and not at all excited of the probability of leaving. After all, nothing that happened or had been said recently has shown my leaving of the vampires – whole and heart still beating – a possibility.
"Oh….Alright!" She smiled brightly at us or more at Reiji than me.
"I believe she is one of your students." Reiji informed, pushing up his glasses with his middle finger. I wondered if it was in a way for him to say to the woman to F off without actually verbalising it.
"She is? Ah! Yes! I was getting a new student in my class today! I totally forgot!" Her voice somehow getting louder and squeaker by the second.
I used all my will power not to cover my hands over my ears and stood there grimacing in pain.
"Please, come, come, come, come!" She ushered me into the class and away from Reiji's cold aura. "There is a seat open over there by Sakamaki Subaru, please take a seat! He's the one with that looks like an albino." She smiled even brighter, her mouth somehow going from ear to ear in the big smile, like in some horror show.
I nodded and quickly made my way over to Subaru. As I pasted to take a seat I heard him grumble something under his breath something about me 'stinking of the lazy bastard' but didn't think too much about it. I had more important things to worry about, and that was punishment that I was sure waiting for me when Reiji gets a hold of me again. It seemed like today was those days where I was going to be late and in trouble no matter how hard I may try.
I cringed at the thought however my thoughts were distracted by the squealing of the teacher as she started the lesson once more, most of the boys' heads bouncing up and down with her chest as she skipped over to the board.
(Ahhhh….my life.) I thought shaking my head and burying my face in my hands, feeling like going to sleep right then and there. (It used to be so simply….how the hell did I end up in such a bizarre and supernatural situation?)
"Alright!" The teacher squealed earning a huff from Subaru as his face warped like he was in pain.
I turned to look him over when I remembered something. (He has strong hearing, right?) I thought back to the first time I met him and he was yelling about me being too loud. I giggled at his face, earning soft growl from him as he sent me a death glare, but that didn't stop the grin that formed and a few more giggled to escape. A few more giggles parted from my lips as I smugly smiled about his pain, the sleepy feeling coming and going. (Yeah…karma is a bitch, and oh how I'm loving it right now.)
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I sat there through the class, giggling and wincing, each time the teacher's voice reached new impossible heights and Subaru's face twisted and twitching in pain until he seemed like he couldn't take anymore, standing abruptly and slamming his hands on the desk.
I quickly covered my hands over my mouth, questioning if he was going to take out his anger on me for laughing at him.
"Now, Subaru-kun." The woman placed her hands on the side of her hips, looking at him like a mother would, scolding their child for doing something wrong. "You know if you storm out this class one more time-"
"Your fucking voice is like nails to a board!" He yelled kicking the chair back. "I'm can't take one fucking more second! I rather be tortured by that man than listen to you!"
The woman quickly jumped into his way as he stormed to the door, placing her hands on his chest. "Subaru! I promised your brother that I wouldn't let you get a bad reputation, for your sake and the family's."
"Screw Reiji! Screw them all!"
"Now that's no way to speak about your beloved brother." Her face stern and worried as she looked up at Subaru as he towered over her.
"I don't fucking care!" His voice dropped to a growl as he said the next words. "If you don't fucking move right now, I promise you that I will kill you and your fucking squeaky voice, do you hear me woman."
And just like that, she stepped to the side and Subaru stormed out the door, slamming it shut behind him.
I couldn't hold back any more of my laughter at the scene; the whole thing was hilarious to watch. This thirty-something old blonde-bimbo that I'm sure even with her high heels on stood around 5'2 with a her squeaky voice trying to calm down a 5'10 vampire with serious anger issues. And it seemed like I wasn't the only one that thought that as a few giggles started appearing through the class and some boys quickly jumping up from their seats to comfort the distraught teacher as she cried about her voice.
"Ya know that's not the first time he's done that."
I wiped away a few tears that ran down my cheeks looking over to the person that spoke to me. It seemed to be a girl, her clothes not tidy at all and her hair sticking up like she had just gotten out of bed.
"You don't say." I giggled, smiling sleepily at her.
"Yeah, actually this was the longest I've ever seen him in class for." The girl chuckled, sitting back and kicking her legs up on the desk. "Guess I lost the bet."
"Bet?" I asked, a yawn escaping my lips.
"Yeah, we have a bet in this class to see how long he will stay or even pitch up at all. I betted that he wouldn't even last five minutes this time. I guess he really wanted to put up a front for ya." She smirked.
My smiled dropped. "For me?"
"Yeah, that seat where ya sitting. That boy over there, he used to sit there. As soon as Subaru came in he kicked him out of his seat and told him to sit somewhere else." The girl chuckled looking forward to the teacher that now had snort trailing down and saying how she was just trying to help Reiji-san.
(It was just like what happened in the first class.) I frowned wondering what was going on with Subaru. Was this normal for him? I yawned again, rubbing my eyes with me hand as they seemed to have grown harder to keep open and my body feeling overly heavy.
"So are ya really a relative of theirs?" The girl brought me back from my thoughts.
"Ah….yeah….I guess." I mumbled looking down at the desk; I didn't really like lying to people.
"Hmmmm." She hummed. "Ya not the first ta say that."
I glanced up at her as she swung back and forth on the chair legs. "The first?"
"Yeah, there've been quite a few girls that have lived with the Sakamaki's" She tilted her to the side and then back as if regarding the topic and then dismissing it. "Some say they are close relatives, others not but they all have their time before leaving again."
I hunched forward, my body too heavy to hold up anymore.
"So when ya leaving?" The girl's voice disappearing into nothingness as I stared down at the desk in front of me, zoning out into my thoughts.
There were others, I knew that, the first day I arrived they mentioned something along those lines of brides and try not to kill this one.
(Uh, my head…..) I grasped my head, everything going hazy. I tried to stay awake and think everything through.
Was this really my life, was I really going to die by their hands. No, I already made that decision. I was going to get away from them. My life, my decisions, my choice, and I choose to live away from them.
However, the words that Reiji spoke just a couple of moments age swirled around in my head. "She is a relative of mine that is staying with us for a while."
He didn't think I was going to be here for long.
How many times has he said that? How many others were before me? How many died by their hands? They were murderers, murderers that were also monsters. Monsters that shouldn't exist!
And yet, I was living with them, living in a world that was supposed to be just in the world on the mind.
"Hey, ya okay? Wow, what's wrong with ya eyes?! Hey, can ya hear me?! Hey! Teacher! Something's wrong with the new chick! I think we should get her ta the nurse!" I heard a voice sounding very far away calling out to me.
Everything seemed to get darker and hazer, almost like I was drifting off into the darkness of the world.
Maybe I had become insane, maybe all of this was just in my mind…..however if this wasn't just a figment of my imagination, and then how sane was everyone else to believe these monsters didn't exist.
If I was the sane one, then how insane was everyone else, to live in the realm that they called reality, if that…. was just a figment of their imagination…..
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