Reminisce
"When I'm alone with my bad crazy thoughts, I worry about what you think of me"
"Even though I suppress it in my head I can't do anything about my heart. I don't let you notice it when we meet so it can be normal how I plan to talk to you…"
I didn't take any nap, I was just relaxing. The flavor of chewable strawberry tablet still melts inside my mouth…by the way, it wasn't a medicine it's just a candy. LOL …I know cause he had given me thousand times before!
I laughed and stopped for a moment…
Suddenly, I caught a time to reminisce about a past that made my life change…it was just so long-long time ago why did I ever think of it now? sigh
…it's because the tablet that he gave me?….
Strawberry…
silence
I remember… It's just like yesterday…but…actually…
…3 yrs ago…
…when I was still in freshmen
FLASHBACK:
I and Arthrun were studying in the same school even before but we were not into special connections like what we are now as bestfriends. I see him more than twice or thrice a day but we don't know eachother. He's in another section and I was too.
He was cute, nice, kind, popular and excels in his studies…he always gets the top rank in the school's billboard. Arthrun was a typical average cute boy. These are some possible reasons that pushed me into liking him much… but at first it was just a slight sentiment…
…like 3 yrs ago, it was also a rainy season when I first met him right in the front of the school gates. I was waiting for the rain to stop. I was half wet and dump because I have no umbrella. I didn't brought it because I thought the day was fine. It's almost 5 p.m... I wanted to cry, it was getting dark and freezing…I'm alone everyone was out. Then someone pulled the back of my backpack. It was him. He was giving me his umbrella.
"here, use this."
I was feeling so embarrassed because he looked at me with pity…
just like now I was just as stubborn before and denied to take it from him.
"No thanks, this just take a few minutes" I said
"awww….are you sure?"
"too sure!…"
silence
Oh, come on… you're now wet…"
"it's ok…"
He looked at me with gentle eyes as I continued speaking
"…I don't accept things from strangers". I replied
"but I'm not a strange to you…I'm your schoolmate and we always see each other in the hallways". He smiled
"yeah ,you are my schoolmate but I don't really know you"
His gestures change and it seems that he wasn't happy about my reaction. He grabbed my hand and lend me his umbrella while he was all soaked in the rain…
"here just take this…"
"uh- -"
There's a loud hum of a car Beep-Beep!
"don't be too shy…" he smiled and runs away into the rain
"stop!" I shouted and followed him but he just immediately disappeared
In the next day after classes, I was in the hallway walking; I was waiting for him to pass by and give back his umbrella but I saw him right at that spot!
"Hey! here's your umbrella." I said, and as I was about to go
"…by the way thanks." I said
I looked at the sky and it's turning to dark gray then little drops of water poured and started to rain again and splashed me on the head.
/darn, I hate rainy seasons/
"Oh no!"
"oopps, here it comes again!" He laughed and opened the umbrella and offered me a hand
"my nana won't be picking me up. So come, let's walk home together." He smiled
"no thanks"
"planning to be wet again?..."
silence
"then…?"
"…you don't even know where I live…" I frowned
"yes I do"
"how did you –"
"I just knew about it…" he laughed
"lier" I shouted
"then, I'll show you…"
/how did he knew where I lived? Ummm…it's because the apartment that my family used to live is just half blocks away from their house./
I was a little timid when we were in one umbrella, two kids who didn't know eachother is now going home together. I didn't spoke any word, I just continued walking.
After I arrived at home, he said softly "I have something to give you"
"what is that?"
"you like eating candies?"
"….yes…!"
"then, I'll give you this…strawberry tablet"
"for what? I guess you'll be asking me a favor after this?"
"No! ummm… no…really! "
He handed me one strawberry tablet
"you like it?...if yes I'll give you loads tomorrow!" he laughed
"huh, no need coz I won't be seeing you again"
"nope, we'll see. i'll find you"
"for what reason?"
"coz i'd like to…"
My face turned slightly pink when he was staring at me after then I took my eyes away from him and frowned.
"don't look like that!"
He laughed seeing my expression
"…I have to go now! bye!see ya tomorrow"
"…ummm…bye…" I waved my hand to him
I feel like were so close to talk like that….never in my life I felt different…
By that day and so on, we used to walk together not only during rainy seasons but everyday after classes too. We talked and played together as many times during the day at the playground. Get to know eachother more better…until we became bestfriends…and my feelings for him is gradually changing.
"yes, I like him"
But for the present times, like these past few weeks I and Arthrun barely walk home together now… barely do things like we used to before; it's just that- -there is an instance that I don't want to be with him anymore coz I'm becoming an annoyance.
He walks with his girl now… his always with her… so- -I have to move out…
but felt so alone.
"crazy…I get so emotional thinking about my feelings…".
END OF FLASHBACK
TO BE CONTINUED
sigh sorry if I kept you waiting for the 3rd chapter to come out… I was just to busy with my studies and scheduled practices. There's no time to write and think about it but I'll do my best so that you won't be angry with me… I'll be keeping you updated with the next chapters to come as soon as possible.
P.S. thanks to the people who read and gave a review on my story…I really appreciated all of your comments. Arigatou Gozaimasu
