Drunken Nights Lead To Broken Hearts
Chapter 2
Disclaimer:I do NOT own Durarara! or any of their characters.(._.)
Warning(s): This is yaoi (boy/boy). Contains rape and mature language. If you don't like don't read. Others enjoy.
Shizuo woke up to the sound of running water. He groaned as he moved into a sitting position throwing his legs over the side of the bed . Feeling a breeze he noticed he was naked. After grabbing his boxers and pants from the floor he looked around trying to get his eyes to focus. The room was dark except for the light that came from the bathroom.
"What the hell happened last night?" Shizuo said quietly to no one in particular.
"Hmpfh..Wouldn't you like to know." A voice quickly cut through Shizuo's foggy thoughts. He groaned when the lights in the room came on. When his eyes finally adjusted he looked over to his raven haired lover that glared angrily in his direction. Izaya had his arms crossed over his chest with a towel hanging loosely around his waist.
Shizuo knew that look. It's the look the raven gave him when he'd forgotten something or did something his lover hated. In this case unbeknownst to the blonde it was both. He couldn't remember to much of what happened the night before. Looking over his lover's damp form he noticed the many bruises and bite marks on his pale skin. Confusion was clear on Shizuo's face.
Izaya never looked like that after their love making sessions, but it was apparent that he and Izaya had sex. The thing is he couldn't remember any of it. His last memory was walking back from the bar with Tom-san. Tom wanted to congratulate on his anniversary.
Anniversary? Anniversary of what?
Shizuo thought for a moment and glanced at the calendar on the nightstand. July 15th had a huge circle around it. The memory of Izaya telling him to come straight home after work replayed in his mind.
~~~/FLASHBACK/~~~
"Shizuo I'm not kidding. Come home right after work so we can celebrate." The raven says following his blonde lover out of their bedroom. Izaya had been fussing over their anniversary for weeks. He claimed he wanted every little thing to be close to perfect since this was the mark of their five years together.
"Yes mom I'll try to be home before curfew." Shizuo said jokingly. "I may be a bit late since I have to pick up your gift on the way home."
"Gift? I thought we agreed we weren't doing gifts this year." Izaya said with a confused look crossing his arms over his chest. He pouted a bit at his lover. Shizuo smiled softly at him finding the action quite cute.
~~~/FLASHBACK END/~~~
"Shit Shizuo. You've really fucked up this time." He said to himself.
Izaya's glare hadn't soften at all. He watched as the blonde tried desperately to remember the nights events. Izaya sighed knowing he'd have to relive the unfortunate events from the previous night seeing as his lover seemed oblivious to the pain he'd inflicted on the former. He disappeared into his closet finding something to wear.
Once fully clothed he left the room and his confused lover with another word. Heading into his living room he remembered the table full of food and decided he may as well take care of it. Izaya put want could be saved away and threw the rest in the trash. By the time he'd finished that, Shizuo had made his way out of bed and to the kitchen. He watched as the raven cleaned.
"Do you need some help?" He asked hopeful that his lover would meet his gaze.
"No. I can manage on my own." Izaya said back trying to hold back his complete malice.
"Are you su-"
"Yes. Now if you please I'd like you to leave me be." Izaya said finally looking over to Shizuo who flinched slightly at the angry look he had received.
"Izaya...about last night..I-" Shizuo began to speak before being abruptly cut off by the other.
"Not now Shizuo." Izaya said and continued the task at hand. That response caught said blonde by surprise. Izaya hardly ever said his actual name. It was always Shizu-chan this an Shizu-chan that. It was rare for the name Shizuo to ever pass his lover's lips.
Silence hovered between the two for awhile. The clanking of dishes and running water were only sound in the room. Shizuo had stood quietly in the doorway watching Izaya. He huffed a sigh as he came to a complete halt. His lovers gaze could clearly be felt burning holes in the back of his head. Izaya moved away from the sink drying his hands, and took a seat at the kitchen table.
"Okay. What is it Shizu-chan?" Izaya asked halfheartedly. He knew what Shizuo going to ask him. He just wasn't sure if he was ready to relive the events.
"I forgot our anniversary." The blonde stated plainly. Izaya couldn't help but stifle his laugh. He looked Shizuo in the eye as he wore his ever so infamous smirk. With that look Shizuo would've never guessed that anything was wrong.
"You forgot our anniversary. That's not even the half of what you did. Think a bit harder." Shizuo winced at the anger in the raven's voice.
Shizuo thought for a moment. Memories still foggy as his forgotten hangover resurfaced. He remember leaving that morning for work. He also remembered going to work, and from work to the bar. Then was the long walk back to the apartment.
"I went to a bar with Tom...We had drinks. It was late and I told him I should head home." Shizuo paused for a moment. "I might have drank too much ..." He trialed off speaking the last part to himself mostly. "Everything after leaving the bar and making it here..is rather fuzzy. I don't remember much else before waking up this morning." Shizuo said in defeat.
"I fucked up Izaya..I'm sorry." Another wave of silence came over them. Izaya breathed a heavy sigh and raked a hand through his hair.
"You forgot our anniversary. Went out drinking which lead to you coming home drunk...but the mistakes don't end there." Shizuo had a look of confusion on his face as those words left his lovers lips. What else could he have possibly done. He racked his brain for a few minutes thinking back to when he first saw the raven that morning.
He remembered the bruises and bite marks. Looking at his lover now the blonde could see bruises along the former's neck and jawline.
"Did..Did we have sex last night? I honestly don't remember much of what happened after get here last night." He says in a hushed tone. When he looked to his lover Izaya wouldn't meet his gaze. That was an answer enough for the blonde. Shizuo could see how tense the raven was. Izaya's eyes glistened. Tears were mere moments away from falling.
Shizuo was taken back by this. He had never seen Izaya in this state before.
Meanwhile Izaya's thoughts were all over the place. He thought he was ready to talk, but he wasn't . The wounds physically,mentally,and psychologically were still so very fresh. He should have waited. He knew it was to soon. Why didn't he just fucking wait? In that moment everything around him faded.
He felt numb...but he wasn't complaining.
"Did we have sex last night?"
Once those words left his lovers lips he froze. His mind blanked before replaying every horrible second from last night. Izaya couldn't breathe. Or maybe that's just because he literally just forgot how to. He could fell the tears as they began pooling in his eyes. The world seemed to still momentarily. What the hell was happening to him? His thoughts were jumbled and incoherent. Izaya gasped softly feeling a hand on his shoulder, so without a second thought he jerks away.
A pained expression briefly graced the blonde's face which didn't go unnoticed by Izaya. He looked down at his hands for a moment. After taking a deep breath to calm down, he hesitantly looked at Shizuo.
"We..didn't have sex..." Izaya said quietly to himself. How was he just supposed to come out and tell the blonde about the heinous events that occurred only hours ago? Shizuo's look of confusion came back when those words were spoken.
"What do you mean we didn't? Where did all those marks come from if we didn't?" His confusion came out sounding as if he were upset with the raven. If Izaya is saying they didn't sleep together then he had to have gotten all those marks from somewhere. Shizuo doubted his lover had slept with another person. He may be a nuisance but never would he be a cheater. Izaya met the blonde's confused gaze.
"What I mean is..Short answer..yes we had sex, but it wasn't consensual.." Izaya spoke softly looking away from Shizuo once more. The words may have been spoken in a hushed tone, but they were heard clearly by Shizuo. He was at a loss for words. He couldn't believe that he had caused Izaya this amount of pain. He felt like he really was the monster everyone made him out to be.
"Izaya...I.." Shizuo felt psychically sick after receiving this information. "Izaya..I'm-" Shizuo started again though his apology was cut short by the raven.
"Sorry. You're sorry. Yea I can tell. I can forgive some things. But this...I think no I know I'll need some time to forgive this. Shizuo...you're a rapist."
