As Gibbs heads towards his house he's quiet and so is Jenny. She didn't know how he knew where to find her but she's glad she didn't have to catch him off guard to see her. They travel in silence until he pulls in behind Abby's car and turns off his.

"How did you …?"

"I went to talk to Ducky about something and saw you chasing Contessa around the yard. I figured that there was a reason you were hiding and if I needed to know Duck would tell me."

"I'm dying … I didn't want anyone to see me like that." Gibbs contemplates this as Jenny looks out the window. "I don't want pity or for anyone to feel sorry for me."

"Why do you think anyone would feel that way?"

"I saw the looks you gave me. Even right now when I walked out of Ducky's house, you were just there waiting for me. No idea what I was doing, what if I hadn't known and you were just there." Gibbs knew she was trying to save face.

"Oh … did I interrupt you? I mean did I just take you from whatever errand you were going on?"

"I was going to see you … Ducky told me about Tony. I'm so sorry Jethro, I know he means a lot to you." Gibbs nods with a deep sigh.

"He meant everything to me but thank you. Abby's here, I don't know if Duck mentioned ..."

"I figured, she would want to keep busy and fuss over you at the same time. We might as well go inside before she gets worried about you sitting out here in the car." Inside Abby was cooking a pot of gumbo and had her back to Gibbs and Jenny.

"I'm sure other people will bring food and stuff to you but I thought you might like something homemade. They always bring store bought or restaurant food and that's not good for you."

"It's fine Abby." She went on stirring the pot and not saying anything. Gibbs went to her when he saw her shoulders shaking. "We're going to get through this Abby."

"How? He was sent away and now … how can you stand there and be so calm? He loved you and ..." Abby turns to Gibbs to hug him and spots Jenny standing there watching her and faints.

"Abs ..."

"I don't think she was expecting to see me here." Gibbs puts her on the couch and Jenny gets her a wet wash cloth.

"Abs ..." Abby moans as Gibbs wipes her face down. "Come on unless you want more of your makeup smeared. I'm no good at avoiding the makeup thing."

"What happened?" Abby opens her eyes to see Gibbs looking down at her. "Sorry, I just must be overwhelmed … I thought I saw ..." Gibbs nods at her and motions to Jenny.

"Hi Abby, I didn't mean to startle you."

"How is this possible? Where did you come from? Why am I the only one freaking out about this?"

"I've been staying with Ducky and it's a long story. He came home and told me about Tony so I decided to come see Jethro and you."

"But this isn't my home." Gibbs chuckles kissing her head.

"No but everyone knows this is where you would come. I'm going to check on the gumbo." Abby sits up and Jenny sits on the coffee table.

"I'm sorry if I startled you Abby I just wanted to see how you and Jethro were doing."

"It's fine … I just thought I was seeing things." Abby tentatively reaches out to touch Jenny's arm but snatches her hand back just as quickly. Jenny wished she could just hug Abby but knew she needed to do this at her own pace.

"It's really me Abby, I can explain what's going on but I'd prefer not to have to repeat myself over and over." Abby nods before reaching out again and gently touching Jenny's face before bursting into tears and Jenny pulls her into a hug. "I'm so sorry about Tony. I know you two were close."

"Thank you and he was like another brother." Gibbs joins them after a while. "Are you okay Gibbs?"

"I don't know … I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop so to speak. Vance said he was going to get in touch with Tony's dad … he's going to hit the roof when he finds out Tony didn't leave him anything."

"It's his own fault for not accepting Tony. I'm in charge of the money to go to charity, he left things to others but … has Vance called Ziva?"

"Last I heard he has a call in for her to call him back. I spoke to him before I picked up Jen and came here. I turned off my phone to avoid the others." Abby nods,

"So did I."

"Then they're going to show up to check on you two. Ziva and McGee ..."

"Ziva's overseas and McGee can come over if he wants. I assume he doesn't know you're alive."

"No, just Ducky and the two of you. His mother knows but she doesn't know who I am, just another caretaker." Gibbs nods before fiddling with his phone to turn it back on. "Can I get the two of you anything? Is there anything I can do?"

"No, not right now thanks." Gibbs sighs leaning back on the couch with Abby who yawns. He just soothes her until she falls asleep and then lays her down on the couch. "Let's go talk." Jenny follows him to the basement where Gibbs didn't have any projects out.

"I am truly sorry about Tony, I know you two were close."

"I loved him and I'd like to think he loved me."

"I think he did, he seemed to get closer to you then anyone else. I set the plan in motion for him to go as Agent Afloat so he could one day advance … if I had any idea ..."

"Hundreds or at least dozens go every day, nothing you could've known about Jen. He was afraid to go, said he thought it was punishment for killing you and you're not even dead."

"If I knew ..."

"I told him, he knew. Tony also knew like me that if Ducky was hiding you there had to be a good reason. I found out a week after he left and we've been emailing daily."

"I'm glad … I mean that he at least knew. I didn't think anyone knew but I had to come see you." Gibbs nods,

"We talk about us, he knew you and I were married."

"Does he know you asked me for a divorce?"

"Yes because I asked him to marry me." Jenny chuckles taking a drink of the bourbon.

"That's not legal here … yet. I know there's a push for it and lots of people want it but being a special agent doesn't give you special rules."

"We know but there's a chapel that does commitment ceremonies. Everything that a wedding does but the paperwork. We made a commitment to each other like a husband and wife would but it's just not down on paperwork."

"He was okay with it?"

"It made him happy and let him know I was serious about us. Jimmy and Abby stood up for us and Vance knows. He's the one who convinced Tony the assignment wasn't punishment."

"Vance always had a soft heart for Tony … never said why though." Gibbs smiles as he hears someone arrive. "That sounds like Ziva." Gibbs went upstairs to find Ziva watching Abby sleep.

"My father called me and said Vance needed to speak to me. I was over by the capitol doing something for him and it seemed urgent."

"Did you talk to Vance?" Ziva nods turning to him and Gibbs can tell she's been crying.

"I'm sorry Gibbs, I know the two of you are close. I was going to go by NCIS but Vance said you came home ..." Gibbs hugs her.

"Thank you and yes we were. Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I can't stay long, my friend is in the car but I had to come see you. I just ..." Gibbs hears the basement door creek. "I just … Jenny?"

"Hi Ziva," Ziva rushes to Jenny hugging her tight. "How is this possible? What happened or ..."

"It's a long story but I haven't told anyone yet. I wanted to see you and I heard you couldn't stay but ..." Ziva wipes her eyes.

"I will go call my friend in if you do not mind Gibbs. We are … dating so he accompanied me."

"Yeah, if he wants to. I'm going to call McGee and check on him." Gibbs called McGee asking him to come by and then Ducky to check on him and Jimmy.

"I spoke to Mr. Palmer who is going to take a leave of absence after Anthony's funeral and deal with it."

"Is it that bad?"

"I don't think any of us realized how deep their friendship was." When Ziva returns she is alone.

"Michael will return for me later. I thought if this was a private thing then he should not be here."

"Okay or one of us can give you a lift home." Abby woke up when McGee got there and then they sat around after greeting Ziva so Jenny could tell them what was going on.

"Ever since I was small whenever I'm in pain I can't move. If I hit my arm, if I ran into something if I hurt I just can't move. Jethro, Ducky and you Ziva are the only ones who know."

"But Tony felt for a pulse … usually you blink and we didn't see that."

"I felt frozen and actually thought I might be paralyzed because I was that frozen except I could feel the pain. I just don't know why I couldn't move. I guess I must've passed out or something because I woke up on Ducky's autopsy table and he almost passed out." McGee smiles,

"But your pulse ..." Jenny sighs,

"I have a kidney disease that's slowly killing me. There's no way … I have a rare blood type so to get a donor would almost be a miracle. The medication so I could function and still work left me with a slower heartbeat or at least that's what Ducky and I realized. I still had an undetected heartbeat when I woke up on the autopsy table that's why he was ..." Gibbs closes his eyes.

"Is there anything they can do?"

"If I inform the world I'm alive I can go back on the waiting list but there's a rare chance that I might not make it. The doctor's gave me months to live and since everyone already thought I was dead ..."

"But you came to see us … does that change anything?"

"Actually yes, I was tired of hiding before today but I didn't know how to just show up. I thought you might be mad that I was hiding because I couldn't deal with what's going to happen to me in the long run. I didn't want you guys to deal with it."

"We want to help you and if there is no donor to be found then we'll deal with that too." Ziva, Abby and McGee agree and they were sitting around talking when Vance got there.

"Sorry to barge in Gibbs but Jackie and the kids wanted to ..." Vance stood there staring in shock at Jenny with his hands full. "Jenny,"

"Leon, it's good to see you." Abby and McGee take the packages from him.

"Thanks, it's just some food and other stuff. How is this …?" Jenny smiles,

"How about I go by the office in the morning and tell you then? It's been a long day already and I would like to get some sleep." Vance nods,

"Come by the house when you get a chance. Jackie would love to see you."

"I will." Abby decides to stay at Gibbs' place so McGee drops Ziva off at the hotel and Jenny off at Ducky's. He told Gibbs he was going to take over the team while he took time though they weren't sure why he needed the leave it was suspected that Gibbs was just Tony's surrogate father.