Chapter Three

Do you know what it feels like to be ignored?

It feels like you can't get a word out. It's as if your mouth is being held shut. It's as if you're shouting at the top of your lungs, and it's already such a deafening scream, but no one can hear you call for their help. It's like you've been pushed into water, when they know you can't swim. What's worse is being ignored by your best friends. They're the very people you idolized. The people you care for, and are willing to give your life for.

But all your efforts are in vain.

It's like that.

But this time the anguish is worse.

It's like talking to yourself. It's like when they leave you alone, your world will stop turning. But when they're alone, their worlds will still turn, regardless of what happened to you.

But you don't mind. In your heart you have so much hope. Too much hope, that it's dangerous. Just knowing that on some level they care is enough for you.

As each day continues you'll endure more an more pain. The pain that cuts right to your heart. But you don't want to say anything because you'll just be called too sensitive, or overly sensitive. It's not my fault that I care about people and their feelings so much. It's just obvious that they don't feel the same way. Nobody realizes how much it hurts when they say those things, because you're still you. But it's only on the outside.

Inside you're calling for help.

You're crying an ocean of tears...for them.

You'll sacrifice everything for them.

But they won't do anything - and not even a single thing - for you.

Will they?

No, they won't.

Not ever.

Never.


A/N: Wow, this is probably one of the shortest chapters I have ever written. But I didn't want you guys to wait so long for an update, so I did teh best that I could with it. I hope you don't mind too much. So, for those of you wondering, there IS an actual moment where Carlos starts to feel ignored and slighted. There will be a fully chapter explaining what happened there, but most of the time you'll just see what happened through a series of flashbacks. I hope you liked the chapter and I'll update again soon.

Cheers,

-Riles

PS – Rhubes' and my 19th birthday is this Friday. I can't believe it's so close and I can't believe that we're turning 19 already. Scary to think that we'll be 20 next year.