"Emily please stop fucking filming me I look like shit" Naomi moaned hiding her face with a cushion.

"Don't be a twat" Emily replied snatching the cushion from her girlfriend. "Don't you wanna look back in a few years and be able to watch this? It will be a memory of our summer" the redhead grinned happily, she pressed the zoom button to capture the blonde's beauty.

Naomi was sure her heart skipped a few beats. Emily was so sure of them being together forever, its not that Naomi didn't think they would be, she just wasn't as sure as she was. "Our summer of doing nothing but being in bed, occasionally getting up for food and a fag, then back to bed..naked" the blonde raised a cheeky eyebrow.

Emily nodded, she had so much love for Naomi that sometimes she had no idea what to do with it. A mixture of complete lust and love all bundled together, she knew she never wanted anybody else, nobody could come close to the blonde. "So Campbell, what do you love about me?" Emily asked licking her lips.

Naomi fiddled with her rings for a few seconds then looked towards Emily and the camera. "I feel stupid with that thing looking at me" she whined, she hated how her voice sounded on tape, and knowing Emily she would want to watch it more than a few times.

"Please?" Emily begged tilting her head to the side, the blonde always gave in.

Naomi sighed and crossed her legs, it was nice having the house to themselves, peace and quiet was all the pair wanted. "I love.." Naomi bit her lip whilst she thought. There were so many reasons why she loved the redhead, she could list them off for hours. "I love how you always make everything okay, like you always make it right you know?" she glanced towards Emily.

Emily nodded encouraging her girlfriend to go on.

"And no matter how much of a twat I can be, you still love me" Naomi could feel the lump in her throat as she spoke, she never knew what a soppy wreck she really was when it came to Emily. Fucking pathetic really, that someone can make you so emotional. "Your so brave Ems, braver then I could ever be. I sometimes look at you and wonder why fuck your with me you know?" she tried to hold the tears that threatened to spill from her eyes.

Emily wiped her face with her sleeve, she was the lucky one. Lucky that Naomi felt the same way, that she wanted to be with her as much as she did. Sure Emily chased her, but never in her wildest dreams did she think they would end up together, that they would be planning stuff together and spending every waking moment together.

"I love you, alot" Naomi's voice wobbled as the tears fell from her sparkling blue eyes.

Emily grinned, she felt her heart swell with love and adoration. "I love you too, forever" she replied finally turning the camera off and sitting next to the blonde.

Naomi wrapped the redhead up in her arms and kissed the top of her head. Contentment washed over the pair of them as they cuddled on the sofa, this was their summer. Nothing was going to fuck it up..nothing.

Emily sat on her bed in a daydream as she waited for Katie to finish her make up. No one else knew about Naomi, only her dad, she told him to not tell anyone else. The thought of everyone knowing, smiling at her sympathetically, she just didn't need it. The rest of the weekend had gone by pretty quickly, Naomi had left so many text messages but Emily had hardly replied to any of them. She could still feel the gaping hole in her chest causing her pain, pain that could not be taken away or fixed. Although she hated Naomi for what she had done, the nights were long and lonely without warm arms around her, she longed to be held by the blonde.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? You've been mopping around all weekend, you haven't gone out, your usually lezzing it up with Naomi and you haven't even seen her" Katie threw a lip gloss and eye-liner into her bag. Something was up with her twin and she wanted to know, it was hard to hide anything when they shared a room but Katie knew something wasn't quite right.

Emily ignored the crude comment from her sister, she knew she had kinda accepted her and Naomi now, she didn't want to see the satisfaction on her sisters face if she told her the real truth. "Nothing..im fine" Emily smiled grabbing her bag. "Really im fine, can we just go?" she snapped, it had been hard trying to hide the heartache, only her dad understood.

Katie followed her twin down the stairs, just by the way Emily was walking she knew something wasn't right. "We're walking today, you need the fresh air, you've been sitting up there for days" she informed running a hand through her hair.

Emily forced a polite smile and nodded, she felt her stomach knot at the thought of facing Naomi. She wasn't sure if she could pretend, pretend that everything was perfect when really it had all fallen apart. Katie droned on and on about some fella trying to fuck her in the back of his car, her voice became distant when they approached Roundview.

"He was fit though, not that I let him" Katie finished her explicit story and nudged Emily's arm. "Do you think I should call him Em?" she asked.

Emily stared at the entrance, she had no idea if Naomi was coming in today. The thought of just turning around and going home was far more appealing then college. No. She had to show her face, she hadn't done anything wrong, she was the victim in all of this.

"Emily!" Katie snapped, unable to contain her anger at her twin not listening. "Fucksake, snap out of this weird mood!" she shook her head and walked off. If Emily wasn't going to listen, she was sure she could find someone else who would.

* * *

Naomi had spent the weekend worrying about Monday morning and sending countless text messages to Emily. None were returned except an extremely short and brutal 'k'. Yep she deserved it, she deserved for the redhead to be totally off with her after what she done, she even expected Katie to run her mouth at some point during the day. Closing her locker she sucked in a breath, this was a lot harder then she thought it would be, she felt like she had nobody.

"Good weekend was it? Effy asked leaning against the lockers watching people walk past.

Naomi frowned, she looked tired and drained. Effy obviously thought her and Emily had been busy tending to each other. "Total opposite actually" Naomi replied smoothing her hair down. At least someone wanted to speak to her, even If it was the most fucked up person she knew, Effy was more fucked up then Cook.

Effy nodded, she liked Naomi. The two had become quite good friends, they were alike in many ways even if they didn't know so. "Want to talk about it?" she asked tilting her head to the side.

The blonde threw her bag over her left shoulder, she wasn't sure if she could tell anybody what happened, what she had done, how she had hurt Emily. "I fucked up" she admitted staring at the floor, it was better then having to look at Effy whilst she spoke.

"You...fucked up?" Effy repeated slowly, she smiled as Freddie stood with JJ near the vending machines.

Naomi sighed, "Me and Emily, its..we're not really together any more, I made a mistake" she confessed feeling a strange relief suddenly lift off her shoulder. The fact that somebody else knew, somebody she knew wasn't going to judge her, somebody that had done far worse things then her.

"You cheated?" Effy asked simply, she already knew this. She knew by the way the blonde spoke, the way her tears instantly built in her eyes when she said the redheads name.

Naomi said nothing, she let out a shaky puff of air.

"You cheated on Emily? Bummer." Pandora stood with her mouth slightly open, her pink rucksack looked massive on her shoulders. Her thoughts instantly went out to Emily, Pandora knew what it felt like to have your heart ripped out and shoved in a blender. Thomas had fucked her over big time, she still loved him dearly, though she knew she shouldn't.

Naomi felt her heart beat rapidly in her chest, she was sure the whole corridor could sense her panic.

"Its a secret Panda" Effy explained. "See you at lunch? We'll go for a smoke" she smiled slightly, walking past Naomi.

Naomi turned and watched the pair walk off to morning class, she held onto hope that Effy meant they would see each other later, she needed a friend, somebody to talk to. "Christ pull yourself together" she told herself, she could feel a headache building, all she wanted to do was see Emily.

"Aren't you gonna be late?"

Naomi turned around. Emily. Emily looked tired, she looked like shit actually.

"Em..can we.."

Emily said nothing as she walked past the blonde, her dads words rung in her ears about time, it was going to take time.

"Just talk" Naomi whispered, she knew Emily hadn't heard it. Fucking hell why would she want to hear anything she said ever again? She watched as the redhead pushed the door open and walked inside, she realised that Emily was far stronger and braver then she was.

Naomi felt weak as she made her way towards the exit of Roundview, pulling out a cigarette she sat down on the stone steps and rummaged through her bag for a lighter.

"Alright blondie? Never knew you were such a rebel,missing class" Cook grinned. "Here" he handed Naomi his lighter and took a seat beside her.

Silence. All that was heard were the sharp intakes of breath whenever the two brought the cigarette to their lips. No words were needed, they both understood fear and that horrible insecure feeling of needing someone. Someone you love.

Thanks to everyone that's reviewed so far it means loads to me. I'm moving this weekend so im not sure when my internet will be up and running, but as soon as it is I will be updating! Please please read/review and of course enjoy :) x