Chapter 3 – Tearful Confessions and Disturbing Positions
As we approached the Cullen house my stomach churned. Alice on the other hand was unbelievably giddy. She tried to hide her excitement of seeing Dr Hale but she couldn't fool me.
'Alice, why are you so excited?' She looked at me confused.
'I don't know what you're talking about Bella.' She looked away from me and hastened her pace. I rolled my eyes and caught up with her.
Rose was waiting outside of the house for me. She waved as she saw us approaching.
'Bella!' She smiled. She met me in hug. Alice paid no attention to Rose; she was too busy looking around for Jasper.
'There is no point in looking for him, he is in the house.' I smirked at Rose. Alice glared at us.
'I don't know what you are talking about.' I rolled my eyes.
Rose led us into the house. This wasn't the first time I had been in the Cullen house.
'Hey Bella.' Emmet called as I walked into the sitting room.
'Hey, how's it going?' I asked.
'Things are good. So how come you are going to see Jasper?'
'Because I have a disastrous love life and every guy I go out with can't seem to stay faithful.' Emmet looked at me. I didn't think he was expecting such an honest answer.
'Oh, sorry.' I shrugged.
'It doesn't matter; we can't all be like you and Rose.' I laughed, he smiled.
'Anyway, where is Jasper?'
'He is in his office, go straight through.' Rose called from the kitchen, she was talking to Alice.
'I'll speak to you later then. Alice will you still be here in an hour?' I called. My appointment was only an hour long.
'Yeah.' This wasn't really surprising.
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'Come in.' a deep, intimidating voice called. I opened the door.
'Hello, you must be Bella.' I nodded and he beckoned me towards a seat in front of his desk. Wow, he was remarkably good looking. He shifted through a pile of paper.
'I'm Dr Jasper Hale. Now, I understand that your are having trouble dealing with some of your past love experiences.' I nodded again. This was so uncomfortable.
'You can speak.' He smiled at me. I smiled back.
'Sorry, but I am really nervous.' His expression softened and I relaxed.
'Please don't be nervous. Everything you say to me is confidential; I have dealt with many cases like yours. In order for this to work we need to trust each other ok?'
'Yeah.' His tone had become friendlier now.
'Now, first of all I need you to tell me everything that has happened. I know this may bring back memories you would prefer to forget but the first step in solving this is to lay everything out.' I swallowed heavily.
'Ok.' I whispered. He smiled at me and brought out a tape recorder and clicked play.
'Saturday 7th of March 2009. Isabella Swan.' I looked curiously at the recorder.
'Now, Isabella, who was your first sexual partner?' I stayed silent but then he beckoned towards the recorder.
'Jacob Black, we met at high school.' He placed the recorder on his desk and began writing notes.
'How long were you with Jacob?'
'A few months.' I then began to tell him everything about Jake. I told him how in love I was with him, how we met, how old I was when I lost my virginity to him and then how I caught him with Jessica. Dr Hale nodded a few time and continued to write notes. As I began to explain the night I caught him with Jessica, anger and sadness swept over me.
'Isabella, I know this is hard but please continue, facing the anger and sadness you feel over him will help the situation.' Dr Hale asked when I remained silent for a few moments. Tears leaked down my cheek as I relived the night he betrayed me. I had never cried about Jake, even after he hurt me. But now, finally facing what happened and telling the story made me lose my defences.
'I'm sorry.' I sniffed. 'I don't usually lose it like this.' Dr Hale passed me a tissue.
'It's ok, reliving the past is a traumatic thing especially when you have been hurt.' I nodded a little.
'Now, I think that's enough for today.' Dr Hale switched of the recorder. I dreaded next week, if I cried talking about Jake who happened a few years ago then I had no idea how I would react to talking about Mike.
'Thanks.' Even though the discussion was upsetting, I felt as if a heavy load had been taken off me.
'No problem, same time next week ok?' I nodded and left. I don't know why I thought Jasper was intimidating, he really wasn't.
'How did it go?' Rose asked as I walked into the kitchen.
'I feel much better.' She smiled a little but decided not to pry. Maybe it was because my eyes were a little red and puffy.
'Where's Alice?' I asked.
'She is helping Esme put her new curtains up.' I nodded.
'Do want a cup of coffee?' Rose asked. I shook my head.
'Got any wine?' I smiled weakly. Rose laughed and poured me glass of rosé.
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'Thanks for having us.' I kissed Esme lightly on the cheek.
'Anytime Bella, you're always welcome here, you too Alice.' Alice smiled brightly at Esme. We had been at the Cullen's house all evening. Alice was helping Esme with the house and I was chatting with Emmet and Rose. Jasper came in at about six and chatted with the three of us. It was weird to think Jasper was my therapist but while we drank and talked neither of us mentioned that tiny detail. Out of his office I was a family friend, inside I was a patient. Not long after however, Alice had finished helping Esme and joined us. Too say Alice couldn't keep her eyes of Jasper was an understatement. Then again I noticed he couldn't keep his eyes of her. Carlisle came home just as we were leaving.
'Hi Bella, Alice.' He nodded.
'Hi Carlisle, we were just leaving.' I smiled at him and he smiled back.
'Looks like I missed all the fun.' He chuckled.
'Maybe next time.' I laughed. 'See you tomorrow.'
As we made our way home Alice couldn't get rid of the grin on her face.
'So, Bella how did the session go?' She asked.
'It was ok; I got a lot of things of my chest.' I was beginning to think that this was a really good idea.
'Alice, why don't you just ask him out?' I blurted out.
'Because I am a woman and women don't ask guys out.' She sighed. At least she didn't deny she liked him. I sighed.
'Well it looked as if he was interested in you tonight.' I muttered.
'Bella I hope you don't think I booked an appointment for you with Jasper because I wanted to get to know him. I booked that appointment because I want you to move on. I don't want you to be in pain anymore.' Her voice wobbled at the end. My heart melted.
'Of course I don't think that Alice. You're so stupid.' I laughed. I cut of the engine in front of my house and hugged her tightly.
'Come on, we got tubs of ice cream calling us.' I laughed.
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The sessions were going well. Every Saturday I would go and see Dr Jasper Hale and then every evening I would hang out with the Cullen's. The sessions were really helping me deal with the dicks that broke my heart. I had told Jasper everything. I told him I was afraid of ever feeling something for a guy again. Jasper told me that we would sort that fear out and I trusted him.
It was Friday and I was just finished my shift at the hospital. Alice told me she would make dinner tonight, I loved Alice's cooking. As I shut my car door my phone rang.
'Hey Bella.'
'Hi Rose, what's wrong?' I asked worriedly.
'Oh nothing, I was just ringing to let you know that Emmet and Jasper's brother has come home so I was wondering do you want to come around and meet him?'
'Well Alice is cooking me dinner and I've just finished work. How long is he staying?'
'Oh umm, I think its a few months. He lives in Chicago but he has come home for a while.'
'Don't worry; I'll meet him tomorrow, its Saturday tomorrow so we will be around tomorrow night anyway.'
'Ok sure. He is incredibly handsome Bella.'
'All the Cullen's are handsome.' I laughed. 'I better go Alice will be waiting for me.'
'Bye. Oh and if you happen to come across Jasper can you tell him to come home, Esme only sent him out to grab some groceries and he is taking forever.'
'Yeah sure. Bye.' I laughed as I ended the call.
Another Cullen, that meant another outrageously perfect person.
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When I unlocked the front door I noticed I couldn't smell anything cooking. Strange. The lights were off downstairs. I switched the hall light on. Where was she?
'Alice.' I called. No answer. I hung my bag and coat up and slowly made my way upstairs. Her bedroom light was on.
'Alice?' I called again.
'Oh God, Jasper.' Alice groaned. What the hell? Please tell me she wasn't pleasuring herself pretending it was Jasper. I knocked lightly on her door.
'Unnng Jesus..... Damn!' Alice continued groaning. I gently pressed down on the door handle. As I pushed the door open I gasped. Alice and Jasper were tangled between the sheets with Jasper's head near her womanly part. They didn't notice me standing there at first. I coughed a little and both of their heads snapped up.
'Shit!' Jasper shouted. He tried to get up but he was tangled in the sheets so he fell of the bed. I stiffed a chuckle. Alice looked at me wide eyed but she had a dopey grin plastered on her face.
'No dinner today?' I asked smugly.
'Bella....I'm sorry,' I cut her off.
'Don't worry, I'm not hungry anymore.' I laughed as I left the room.
As I left I couldn't believe what I had just witnessed. How long had this been going on? I smiled to myself as I made my way downstairs.
When they finally came down I was sat in the living room sipping a glass of wine. Jasper followed Alice downstairs. When he saw me he nodded a little, I smirked and he flushed red. He grabbed his coat.
'Oh, by the way Esme wants to know where you are, and you better have the groceries.' The look on his face when he realised that all the shops were now closed and he hadn't yet acquired the groceries was priceless.
'Take what you need from the kitchen.' I laughed. He looked at me with relief.
'You're a life saver, I owe you.' He smiled.
'Don't worry about it but next time please tell me when you are going to be, busy, because then I'll find somewhere else to go.' Jasper nodded curtly and blushed red again.
'I'll see you tomorrow.' Alice kissed Jasper on the lips as he left the house. When he left Alice grinned at me.
'Please, I have seen enough.' I laughed. 'How long has it been going on and why didn't you tell me?'
'About two weeks and I didn't tell you because one he was your therapist and two well, I didn't want to rub it in.' She shrugged. I nodded lightly.
'So how long until you move in with him and Rose?' I asked.
'I'm not leaving you on your own Bella, plus its early days.' I smiled a little at her.
'I'm going to bed now anyway.' I yawned. 'Good night.'
'Oh by the way I'm going to buy you a lock for your bedroom door.' I laughed. Alice threw a cushion at me but missed.
'First I walk in on Rose and now you.' I called as I walked up the stairs. And then there was one I thought sadly.
