A/N: I apologize for not updating this until now, life got ahead of me and I just been so busy. I hope their are still some readers and reveiwers out there. :) thanks for the support guys I am so glad you all like it.


Chapter 3

I could feel the panic rising in my chest. what did she mean he was gone, how could my little brother be gone? did she mean he just disappeared, or was he kidnapped? Where could he have gone in the matter of short hours I was away from him? I could tell by her face, this was not good news and there was more she hadn't said yet.

"What do you mean he is gone Bonnie," I screamed at her. Damon came up behind me and put his hands on my shoulders trying to keep me calm, but it Just made me feel worse. I wanted my brother, I wanted to hug him and I wanted someone to tell me everything would be okay. I pushed Damon's hands off my shoulders and gave him a scowl.

"He is dead Elena," Bonnie confessed. Her hands were shaking and she looked like she was about to lose all control. She was barely keeping it together, she was on the verge of tears and she wasn't even trying to be strong. I could see my best friend struggling with this, like it was the weight of the world on the shoulders and she had just dropped it onto mine.

"Your Lying! Jeremy can't be dead, he is not dead! I won't believe it. He has the ring, and he is a hunter. If someone killed him he would get the hunter's curse," I said refusing to believe it. "Who would Kill him? I need him alive, we All do. He is not dead, Bonnie. Where is he!"

Damon walked over to stand in front of me, looking me face to face. He took a deep breathe and grabbed my hand trying to lead me to the couch, but I pushed him away. I didn't want to sit down and I didn't want him touching me. I wanted my brother, I wanted to see Jeremy. This was a living nightmare, there was no way Jeremy was dead, he was all I had left. "Elena, listen you need to sit down, then we can let bonnie explain," Damon said calmly.

"I don't want to sit down! I want my brother, I want to see him. How can you be so calm about this Damon? Bonnie said Jeremy is dead, He is all I have left," I shrieked in terror and grief.

The tears were stinging and falling from my eyes, the pain was unbearable. I could feel my face swelling up from the sadness I felt. This grief, this pain, terrible pain would swallow me whole, it was like a black abyss that I couldn't escape. None of them could possibly understand how I felt, I had lost everyone. Jenna was gone, Alaric was gone, my parents were gone, Stefan left town and now Jeremy was gone. How could they let this happen? How could Stefan leave me behind, I needed him. Maybe if he was here, Jeremy might still be alive! Why didn't Bonnie Protect him, she was witch, a strong and powerful one, she certainly had the strength to do so, why hadn't she?

"Bonnie, why don't you sit down," Damon suggested to her. "I'll take Elena to her room."

Bonnie followed his instructions and sat down on the couch in the living room. She was silently crying, she wasn't saying a word. She just sat on the couch staring into space, I didn't understand why she was so quiet, Jeremy was someone she loved deeply after all.

"I am not going to my room, I want to see Jeremy, take me to Jeremy bonnie," I screamed at her with tears streaming down my face. "he is not dead, I don't believe you."

"Elena, Your just upset, You don't need to see Jeremy, that will just make your more upset. Don't put Bonnie through that pain or yourself. He is dead, why would bonnie lie, I know you don't want to believe it, but its true. I am sorry Elena, I would change it if I could," He said trying to change my mind.

"Upset?! You call this upset Damon. I am devastated, I am lost, and I can't take this pain. it hurts too much, It hurts make it stop, make everything stop, Please Make it stop, I don't want to hurt anymore," I Cried.

Damon looked me in the eye and I could tell he had some sort of plan on his mind. I wasn't quite sure what. "I Should Call Stefan, He will come back for you, Elena," Damon told her.

"No I don't want to do that. It would just mean more pain for all of us, i don't want Stefan, Damon. I want Jeremy! I want this Pain to Stop," I yelled at him in frustration.

Damon knelt down in front of me, and looked at me with empathy in his eyes. I Could tell he had another idea on his mind that was about implement next, but I wasn't sure what it might be. He pulled me down to his level and I was still crying and shrieking in pain. He looked in my eyes and spoke firmly, demanding and clearly: "Turn it off," He started before Bonnie interrupted.

"What are you doing Damon? Don't, You can't, do that," Bonnie said with her eyes full of tears.

"Its the only way Bonnie, i have to help her. This is the only way I can Help her," He replied. Then he looked back at me and said the same thing.

Everything was gone, I didn't feel pain anymore, But I didn't feel love either. I didn't feel hate, happiness, desire, hope, faith, any emotion I had ever had was gone now. I wasn't empty, but i wasn't full either, I was just me. I didn't care anymore, about anyone or anything.


A/N: Yes i did the turn the humanity thing off like the show, guess who gets her to turn it back on ;) you will find out how Jeremy died in later chapters, and you will find out what's happening in New orleans in later chapters as well. R&R Please