Dorian and I had continued to see each other for the last few days, always meeting in secret. It was difficult balancing the time with my family and with him, but the more we spend together it started to become harder and harder to leave him. It had almost become physically painful to be away from him, there was something to be said about it, but I wasn't quite sure what yet. My thoughts were interrupted by Ella coming into the room.
"So I just heard mom talking to grandma and it's going to be another week before her and grandpa come here." Ella said as she threw herself down on the bed that was two feet from mine.
"That might mean we're going to be here longer then, because mom is going to want to make up for lost time." I told her, feeling oddly giddy about that.
"As much as I want to see them and get the family back together, I miss home." She said as her green eyes found mine.
"It's because of the snow, right?" I smiled.
"Yes, being here makes me feel colder if thats possible. I miss the warmth." She laughed.
"So here's where the cool vamps are hiding." Julian said as he walked into the room.
"Hey Jules." I smiled when he sat down on my bed.
"What are you girls talking about?" He asked.
"How Ella misses the warmth." I told him.
"I like it here. It is really pretty, but I don't think I like snow." She said scrunching her nose in distaste.
"When I used to come and visit you, it was weird seeing a place without snow, but I get how you feel. Someday I want to live somewhere warm and then go back somewhere cold." He said.
"Before or after you find your mate?" I asked and somehow that question struck something in me.
"Maybe both, not sure how my mom is going to take it though." He shrugged.
Julian's eye became focused on the wall, almost like he was trying to picture the moment he told her he was leaving. It wasn't the first time I'd heard him talk of leaving, but when we were younger our parents heard us talking about it. I could still picture the look on aunt Luna's face, how hurt and scared she looked at the though of her son, her only child dreamed of leaving her. I suppose its a rational fear for parents, I think my parents hoped Ella and I would never leave.
"If you find your mate, you'll want to start a life with them somewhere. She'll have to understand that. Its what all of our kind does." Ella told him.
With those few words my mind instantly went to Dorian and starting a lasting life with him, but my thoughts confused me. Dorian wasn't my mate or at least I didn't think he was I wasn't sure how it worked exactly and even then I hardly knew him, only after a few days of sneaking off for a couple of hours to meet and I was thinking about houses, places to see and children. I knew I had to go see him again soon. Work out things that were running rapid through my brain.
"There you all are." Mom said from the doorway.
"Hey mom." Ella greeted her.
"We've decided to go out and visit the town a few miles from this one, would you like join us?" She asked.
"Sure aunt Tegan, it'll be nice to get out of here for a while, what do you think?" Julian asked us.
"Count me in." Ella said blurring over to the door to grab her jacket.
"Lydia?" Mom asked.
"I think I'm going to stay in, I'm feeling drained." I told her, which wasn't exactly a lie.
I waited until I couldn't hear their steps anymore before I raced out the back door while throwing on my black sweater. The forest had become so familiar to me from these past few days, I knew exactly where I was going without having to follow my scent. I could tell it snowed while we slept as the fresh powered covered up all traces of the different footprints that I'd noticed over my time here. I could faintly smell Dorian the closer I got to our meeting place which drove me to move faster.
"I'm late, aren't I?" I said when I reached him.
"Just a little." Dorian nodded.
"Well, I can stay longer this time. Everyone went out." I told him.
"Is it wrong to say I missed you?" Dorian asked me.
"I don't think so, I mean I've missed you too." I said quietly.
"It's getting harder to stay away, I wrestled all day with coming to your house to see you or waiting." He whispered and walked up until he was within touching distance.
"I wish it could be that simple." I said looking into his eyes.
The minutes ticked by as I watch him struggle with something internally, but like it had a mind of its own his hand that was balled in a fist at his side, uncurled and moved towards me. I could see my shocked face reflected in his eyes, but his looked decided, that what he tried to fight was pointless as his hand was inches away from my cheek.
The minute his hand touch my cheek of our skin reacted in a way I'd never felt before. I let out a small gasp as I leaned into his hand, relishing in the warm, tingling feeling I felt under my skin. My unblinking eyes were locked on his, the beautiful mixture of brown and green blending together as he ran his thumb over the skin on my cheekbone, all the while smiling down at me. Without realizing it I placed my hand over his and stepped closer into him.
I breathed in his scent as I rested the side of my face he wasn't touching again his chest. His other hand was gentle as it touched the middle of my back and came up around the back of my neck, shivers wracked my spine as I felt the strange sensation through the fabric of my sweater as I stood there in his arms, where I realized I belonged. My eyelids fluttered as I looked at his lips and with that our heads seemed to be pulled together like magnets. The soft touch was enough to start a frenzy, as I pulled him in closer. I'd never been kissed before and I was certain I would only want Dorian's kiss, as it became frantic yet passionate as our tongues met and I melted from the taste of him.
My hands griped his shirt as I pulled him closer, but still feeling like it wasn't close enough. His hand became tangled in my hair angling my head in a way that was easier for him. My lungs felt painfully empty as I pulled away, breathing in some much needed air. Dorian chest heaved noticeably, his eyes were wild with hunger, but not for blood. This was entirely different and it made me feel something I'd never felt before.
"Who knew a kiss could feel like that." Dorian said as his breathing came easier.
"It was definitely something." I confirmed.
"Was that your first kiss?" He asked with a blonde eyebrow raised.
"Yes." I answered.
I narrowed my eyes at him as he rolled over what I'd said, the look on his face that made me curious. I could nearly feel the joy coming off of him as he once again looked at me with hungry, wild eyes. It was then that I realized I had seen that look before, once and awhile I wold catch that look on my parents faces and thats when it all crashed down on me. The need to be with him, how he made me feel and the way he made my skin warm from the inside out. Dorian could possibly be my mate. It all overwhelmed me, as I back out of his arms and instantly missing them around me.
"Lydia? Are you all right?" He asked with true concern on his face.
"We should go." I said, my voice wavering strangely.
"What?" He looked at me confused.
"I'll see you tomorrow." I said before taking off back to my uncles house, hoping my mom was home.
