Chapter 3

"I'll come and get you!"

Allen jumped awake and stared at the darkness. He felt sweat running down his spine and was out of breath. He just had a nightmare but didn't remember what it was about. The only thing he could remember was the powerless and empty feeling that just wouldn't go away no matter how hard he tried. He knew the dream had been about Tyki, the feeling had been just the same it had when he was captured. The memory of Tyki brought new waves of fear to him and he startled when he heard something coming from the bedroom door.

He felt like somebody was standing in the room and sat up, his heart pounding loudly and the fear almost paralyzing him. He stared at the doorway and thought he saw a tall figure, his stomach twisting immediately in uncomfortable way and he gasped, switching the lights quickly on and waiting to see the man he didn't want to. There was no one.

"Beansprout!" came a hoarse voice next to him and Allen watched as Kanda sat up, his long hair shaggy and holding his eyes to protect them from the bright light. "Can't I sleep one night without you waking me up?"

"I'm sorry, Kanda. I… I thought I s-saw somebody", Allen said and pointed at the doorway, his whole body shivering in fear. What if he had rally sawn something there? What if the man was inside the house?

"There isn't anybody there. Like I said a month ago, it's impossible to brake in my apartment", Kanda said but walked to the front door, making sure it was locked and Allen let out a relieved sight. He was safe. At least for now.

When Kanda came back, Allen just stared at his well-built body, his eyes following every curve of muscle and stopping at the end of his waistband, quickly turning his eyes away in embarrassment. He had seen Kanda's body so many times already, but every time he just felt mesmerized by it.

"What are you staring at, beansprout?" Kanda asked and came back under the covers without waiting for a reply. Allen was quite sure the man knew why he had stared. Kanda turned his back towards Allen and sighted. "What time is it?"

"Half past two", Allen said and Kanda growled.

"Shut the lights of", he said, but was asleep before Allen could do anything.

Allen stared at the ceiling in the darkness. It had been a month already since Kanda took him in and he was surprised of how quickly he had gotten used to the man's mood swings and presence. At first it had all felt wrong and strange, but when he got used to the man, he found a strange calmness taking over his mind. Now he could even think about Tyki without immediately having an anxiety attack.

"I'll come and get you", Allen whispered, the last words Tyki said to him the night he was ravished in the park. Something just didn't feel right. Why hadn't Tyki done anything? Did man even plan to carry out his plan? Or was it his plan, to make Allen feel paranoid by doing nothing.

"Why hasn't he done anything?" he whispered again and suddenly Kanda was over him, his face only an inch away from his. His eyes were almost closed from the lack of sleep, his other hand grabbing part of Allen's hair.

Allen stared at the man, holding his breath. Was he going to do something to him? After two minutes nothing had happened and Allen quietly asked: "Kanda? Is everything alright?"

Kanda said nothing. Allen gently touched the man's back and the man tumbled over the smaller boy. Allen took a shallow breath and pushed the man to his side. He winched when Kanda's grip tightened in his hair, but Allen knew he didn't do it on purpose. He shifted to a more comfortable position and tried to fall asleep again. Kanda's touch made him feel better, but for some reason he just couldn't fall asleep. After lying awake for three hours he finally dropped to a dreamless sleep.

Allen was washing the dishes when Kanda arrived from his lecture. The man threw his bag to the couch and slumped next to it, opening the first two buttons of his shirt.

"Welcome back", Allen said and greeted the tired man with a smile. "Can I get anything for you?"

"Give me a massage", Kanda said and lied down. "My back is killing me."

Allen bent next to the man and started to massage him. During the three weeks Kanda had his lectures this had come a part of their daily routine. Allen had found out that the man really liked to be massaged and meditate. He played the piano often and usually it reflected his feeling. Allen loved to hear Kanda play, whether it was angry play or a peaceful one.

"Let's go jogging", Kanda suddenly said and rose off. "I'll give you five minutes."

Allen was already used to Kanda's sudden decisions, he didn't let them bother him anymore. He smiled to the man and changed to his training clothes. Jogging was the one of the things he fell in love with after meeting Kanda. He had never exercised before and at first it had felt very bad, especially with Kanda who didn't bother to wait for the other boy. But now Allen was much quicker and was able to run longer routes each day.

Usually their practice went by without exchanging one word, but today Kanda was unusually talkative. Apparently Lavi and Lenalee had some problems with their relationship. They had been together for only two weeks and this was their fifth fight. Sometimes Allen thought why to be together if anything you do is fight, but then again, it wasn't his problem.

Allen explored his surroundings and felt his eyes stop at a certain spot on the ground.

"Are you coming?" Kanda asked and Allen realized he had stopped moving. At first he hadn't realized why the place gave such a bad feeling, but then it hit him. It was the same park where he had first met Kanda. Kanda tried to pull the boy with him, but it was like his legs were paralyzed. All thoughts vanished from his mind and he just stared at the spot, remembering the smell and feeling of the grass and the voices the action had made. Tyki's laughter filled his mind and Allen covered his ears, trying to make it stop.

"Beansprout!" Kanda yelled and shook the boy. Allen looked at the man, but didn't see him clearly. Then he noticed he was crying. He tried to wipe the tears away, but they just came running down.

"Let's go home", Kanda said and gently touched the boy, but then small boy moved away from him.

Allen started to run as fast as he could, trying to get a hold of his feelings, ignoring Kanda's voice behind him. What was he feeling? Why was he feeling it? Why now? He had been okay for the past month and they had passed the park many times, but why was this day so different? Was he going crazy? Nothing made sense anymore!

Allen ran until he reached their front door and waited for the other man to arrive. Soon Kanda came, out of breath.

"When did you become so fast?" Kanda asked and looked at the boy. He didn't answer and kept his head down. Teardrops fell from his nose to the ground and he was shivering slightly. Kanda was worried. He really was. During the month the boy had never shown such an expression. Sure he did have his bad moments, but it was never this bad.

"Allen?" Kanda asked and touched gently the boy's shoulder, using his first name on purpose. The boy screamed and looked at Kanda with fear filled eyes. Then he ran towards their bathroom, almost tripping to his legs on the way. Kanda knew it would have been a bad idea to let the go by himself, so he followed him, yanking the door open just before the boy could lock it. Allen backed to the shower and tried to be as small as possible, pulling his hands to a protective shield around his body.

"Allen, get out of there", Kanda said and touched the boy again. That was when the boy really panicked. He screamed and struggled, scratching Kanda's arms and face, but the man didn't let go.

"Let go! Let go! Let go!" Allen screamed and it seemed like he didn't know where he was. His eyes looked insane, moving from side to side without seeing anything.

"Allen, calm down! You're safe!" Kanda tried, but the boy struggled even more. Kanda was helpless. Then he did the only thing he could, not knowing if it would help or make things even harder for the boy. He hugged him.

Allen froze. And then he screamed even louder. He swung his hand and accidently turned the shower on, warm water came rushing down, making steam to the room. That was when Allen finally calmed down. He watched over Kanda's shoulder to the wall and felt a bit calmer, not even realizing how he had acted just a second before.

"K-kanda?" he asked, his voice hoarse from the screaming. Kanda hugged him tighter and Allen felt the tears dropping form to his eyes again.

"K-kanda… C-can I c-cry?" Allen asked between sobs.

"I think you already are", Kanda said, smiling, relived for the boys eased state. Allen cried for a long time, letting all the built up pain and sadness melt away. He was safe now, Kanda was there. The man would definitely keep Tyki away from him. He wasn't going to get hurt ever again. For the first time of his life he felt that everything would eventually turn for the best.

Then the whole situation hit him. He was in the shower. With Kanda hugging him! he could feel the muscular body pressing against him and felt something large pressing against his leg. Suddenly he felt very embarrassed and started to push the other away with blushed face. This time Kanda let go of him.

"T-thank you, Kanda", Allen said and felt his face burning. He looked at Kanda and saw the wet shirt that was stuck to his abdomen, revealing the well-built chest and abs. He let his gaze go lower and saw the bulge between the man's legs that had been pressing against him. He had never seen it directly but could already see it was larger than he had ever imagined. And he had imagined it a lot, not that he wanted to admit it.

Allen felt even more embarrassed and looked at the man's eyes, only to notice that the man was also exploring the boy. He could almost feel the way the dark eyes traced over his body and could swear Kanda was imagining something perverted right then. When their eyes met, it felt like the whole world stopped. Neither of them heard the shower anymore, neither felt the heavy clothes on them. It was just the two of them. Kanda bent closer to the boy, staring deeply in his eyes. Allen held his breath, leaning closer. They were only an inch apart and Allen could smell the string scent of sweat coming from the large body. He brushed his hand carefully to the man's chest and noticed him gasping a bit. Allen smiled slightly when he felt the strong hand tracing along his back and rising to his neck to pull him closer.

Allen knew he wanted the man just as much as the man wanted him. Their breath mingled as they leaned closer, both moving as slow as possible to make sure the other didn't scare away. Allen could see the lust sweeping form those dark eyes and closing his own, leaning a bit closer to let their lips touch…

Suddenly a loud bang came from the front door.

"YUU-CHAN!"

I somehow feel like writing, so I might write the 4th chapter today as well.

Oh my god! I'm watching at a children's program with a man dressed as a chicken and laughing my lungs out. How can something this stupid make me laugh? Maybe I'm just too tired, I haven't slept for almost two weeks because of the stress. But I'm not complaining! When I'm tired, it's easier to see funny things around you : D

But yeah, I'll start to write the other chapter now!