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Year of the Animal

(Jacob's New Moon)

Who We Are…From Now On

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Third Person POV

This was who she was now and it was their fault. The pains had subsided but new feelings had taken over and they were harder to fight. But as she approached the mirror, covered with a sheet, her mother stood by chewing away what was left of her nails. Anger coursing through her veins she yanked the sheet away and immediately despised what she saw.

"Sweetie, if you don't want to do it for us. Please, do it for yourself…to live," she whispered.

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Bella's POV

I have left approximately twenty voice messages and filled Joss in on everything that had happened. Though Joss had yet to respond, I was still worried and Jake said he would call her himself and bug her until she picked up but meanwhile he would be helping train Leah and Seth in the forest. It was the side conversation I'd mustered with Jake through the window (uncomfortably I might add) of his rabbit before tripping on my boots and entering the house.

But as my throbbing muscles slid into the steaming hot liquid that was the bath water, the relief that claimed my body almost made me pass out and go to sleep.

What a nice end to a…interesting day, it'll get better when I get my hands on that garden burger.

Jacob's POV

This has to be the worst day of Sam's life.

Leah was being stubborn only following rules she felt like following but everyone could feel her concern for her father and anger for this situation. Seth was as upbeat as he could be but his thoughts kept bouncing back to Harry so Sam let them go home early. And I followed behind the pups and made sure they got home safe.

Sam's POV

It was too soon to try and train them. Their thoughts are elsewhere.

There going to go see Harry now, that's all that matters, thought Paul.

Thanks Paul, I thought as we trotted away.

You're worried about Le aren't you?

She's an important part of my life. I'll always love her.

I know you were scared, man. She'll be okay.

I'll see you later Paul.

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"What do you want?"

"I thought you'd be here. Why aren't you at the hospital?"

"Do not act like were honky dory, we've haven't held a conversation in years."

"Leah, I just came to see if you're-"

"I'm fine Sam."

"Then why aren't you at the hospital?"

"I don't want to see my father lying there in a coma! Do you have a problem with that?"

"Leah what if he wakes up and your not there?"

"You're the last person I want to see right now."

"What about Emily? She's worried sick about you," asked Sam.

"Tell her I'm fine," replied Leah bluntly.

"Leah," whispered Sam.

"Go away," said Leah before shutting the door.

Bella's POV

The fat, gray skies teasing you with the thought of a downpour on a summer day were really beginning to ruin my perky mood. I'm going to cliff-dive and that was the end of it. And as my clunker crossed into La Push territory, my excitement only heightened but as the clunker sputtered along the curb all my hopes dropped.

The black home was dark, no lights seemed to be on in the whole house and Billy's SUV wasn't parked in front of the garage.

"Oh what the crap!" I exclaimed.

And its not like I can call Jake on his cell, he's probably patrolling…Well it's worth a try.

But as I thought, it just kept ringing. Without much thought I flung from my truck and began trudging down the road. The clunker was locked so how much damage could a walk do?

My black Keds sinking into the shallow dips in the nearly white sand as the water welled in humble bumps. I admired the earth brown, rocky cliff hanging over the dark gray water.

Where is Jake?

But as the swells died my anxiety grew and I was climbing onto the cliff top. My sneakers making a rubbery, slapping sound against the damp rock I reached the peak and heard his heavenly tone.

"Bella no!" warned Edward, his lean frame in a black pea coat, a black v-neck t-shirt, black jeans and black boots.

"Why do you care?" I asked teasingly dangling a foot above the open water.

Remember what you promised?

"I also remember a promise you made never to hurt me," I replied.

The wind slapping me in the face as my body burst into the gray body of water. The surface was in grasp and my face peaked through the surface of water but as I sought air I was shunned by a monster swell clogging my breathing. My mouth filled with salt water, coughs came instantly behind one another as I attempted to scratch the surface. But as my eyes glanced above the wavy water another swell was rolling my way so before I choked on more salt water I inhaled and sunk into the mouth of the ocean.

So this is it. I won't die by vampires but water.

My lungs burning and starving for air my mind shut down and my eyes closed.

DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP! ordered the voice as soft as silk.

Goodbye, I love you, I thought as my body sunk deeper into the gray.


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