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"It's Robin, open up."
"Go away!" She cried, she couldn't deal with this, not now. She ran her hands over her face, why did he do this to her? She felt like she was a terrible person for breaking his heart, but she knew that should they carry on their relationship she would feel worse, so much worse. She couldn't do it, couldn't live with the constant fear that something was going to happen, or that someone might find out, resulting in them getting into so much trouble, her especially.
"Gina, I am not leaving, so you might as well open this door and let me in."
"Why can't you just leave me alone? Please, I just want to be left alone." She sniffled, moving over to lean against the table that sat in her entrance hall.
"Regina, I didn't want to have to do this." He sighed. This caused her to look up at the door wide eyed, do what? What was he going to do? She felt her breath catch; there was silence, he had gone quiet and she half thought that he was just suddenly going to break the door down. She shook her head and turned around, beginning to walk back to the bathroom.
She heard the door click and she turned around to see the door open with Robin stood there, his eyes red and a determined look on his face. "Get out," she snapped.
"I just want to talk to you," he sighed, walking in and closing the door behind him.
"I told you to leave," she whispered weakly, looking down and realising that she was only wearing her light robe wrapped around her body. "Robin, don't make this any harder than it already is? Please."
"I don't understand how you can go from loving someone one minute, to being like this the next, I really don't." He stepped closer to her and she shook her head.
"Stay where you are, Robin I'm warning you."
"I just want to talk Regina, I want something, some explanation, anything, just talk to me."
She could feel her bottom lip tremble as she listened to him, she could see the hurt on his face, she had really caused him pain. She wiped her eyes and met his for the first time that night, "it's not fair," she whispered, allowing the tears to fall down her cheeks.
That was it, Robin closed the gap and pulled her into his arms, "I know, I know it isn't," he kissed her hair as she clung to him, burying her head into his sweatshirt. He held her tight, as if he were never going to let her go again; where this hug would have filled her with love and joy before, it now filled her with loss and sadness, because she knew she couldn't have it, have him.
She held him tight, she honestly didn't know if she had the strength, didn't know if she had it in her, "Robin, this can't happen," she cried, pulling back from him and wiping her eyes, "we can't do this, it's wrong, on so many levels."
"Tell me something Regina."
"What?" She sniffed, moving her hair behind her ear as she looked up at him; he was such a beautiful person, inside and out, he was just generally a nice guy.
"The truth, promise me that the answer you give will be the truth."
"Okay," she nodded, she didn't know what the question was, but one thing she did know was that it would probably have no effect on her decision not to see him, so what difference did it make if she answered it or not?
"Do you love me?"
Oh why did he have to ask her that? It was only going to serve to provide them with more heartbreak, "I, well…"
"The truth Regina, you promised." she nodded, playing nervously with the edge of her robe that met between her breasts. "Do you love me?"
"Yes, yes I do," she admitted, knowing that she had to tell him the truth, she had tried to break his heart earlier by telling him that she didn't love him, but that had hardly worked.
"I knew it," he grinned, moving closer once more, his hand coming to hers over the edge of the robe. He dropped her hands and threaded his arms around her waist, she knew this was dangerous territory, she had never been able to resist him. Before she even had chance to think about pushing him away, Robin stole a kiss from her, attaching his lips to hers. She moaned against his mouth, why did he have to be so, so good at that? Her hands came around his neck as he moved her backwards, until her back hit the wall behind her; Robin's arms dropped below her ass and he picked her up, pressing her against the wall.
Then she was hit by reality and stopped him, "no Robin, stop, stop!" She pushed him slightly. He did stop, she knew he would if she told him to, because he would never force her to do something, even when he probably knew that deep down she wanted it. "I'm sorry, we can't, you're my student. You should just forget about me, find someone else to love you."
He lowered her to the ground and took a step back from her, "I will wait for you Regina, as long as it takes."
"Why?" She asked, tilting her head at him. "You could have any woman you wanted…"
"Apart from the one I really want," he huffed, his hand coming to her wrist as he caressed her skin gently.
"Why, why do you want me?" She asked, tears coming to her eyes.
"Because I love you," he whispered, leaning his forehead against hers, "and I don't want anyone else, only you; I can't bare the idea that I won't be the one to be with you always, that you'd find someone else, that you'd leave me."
"Oh Robin," she sighed, hugging him tight, "I can't believe you'd wait for me."
"I would wait for you forever, the question is, will you wait too?" he asked, pulling back and looking into her eyes.
Of course she'd wait, she loved him, so, so much, she didn't want anyone else either, she only wanted him. She didn't know how they were going to wait that long to be with one another again, it was the very beginning of semester, somehow they were going to have to get through a whole academic year without touching each other, without kissing, or telling each other how much they loved each other; it was going to be hard, but at the same time, it would be worth it, Robin would be worth it. "Yes," she swallowed heavily.
He smiled and rubbed his nose against hers lovingly, "this is going to be difficult, being so close to each other."
"I know," she nodded, "but it has to be like this Robin, I can't risk my job. If you find someone else, then I completely understand, but I will wait." She was lying when she said she would understand, sure she wouldn't blame him, but it would break her heart to see him with someone else, it would kill her to know that he was happy with someone other than her and if that was selfish, then so be it.
"I already told you, I don't want anyone else, and I know that you can't risk your job Regina and I won't make you do that. I'm sorry for making you feel the way I did earlier, I was just angry that you were lying to me, telling me that you didn't love me."
"Oh Robin, I'm sorry, I hated myself for doing that." She cried.
"I heard you crying," he sighed, running his hand across her cheek. "I just wanted to force the door open and pull you into my arms."
She wondered if they could have one last night together, one last night before they had to remain celibate for a whole year; but she knew that wouldn't be a good idea and that it most likely wouldn't stop there, she didn't know if she'd be able to make it stop there. "We shouldn't even be doing this, I love you so much, remember that," she sighed, kissing his cheek, before traveling to the corner of his lips and then fully kissing him, this kiss had to last her for what she knew would feel like a lifetime. Then she broke the kiss she pulled back to look at him, "Robin, how old are you, be truthful with me, because I can find out," she laughed lightly.
"Twenty-four, I didn't go straight to college."
"Oh," she smiled, it made her feel much better knowing how old he was, it meant that there weren't as many years between them, only six years, which she didn't think was too bad really. "As much as I don't want you to, I think you have to go now." She sighed, brushing her fingers through his stubble and reaching the back of his neck where she stroked his hair.
"I…"
"I know," she whispered, brushing her lips over his.
"I love you."
"I love you too." She nodded, kissing him again, this time with more passion, his fingertips brushed across her cheek and he opened his eyes to look directly into hers. "Goodbye Robin."
"Bye Regina."
Two weeks had passed, which meant that Regina had had to see Robin multiple times, every time she did it made her heart flutter, made it beat that much faster, but she was also hit by the reminder that she was going to have to wait for him; it was a better alternative to losing him, but it wasn't great, it was hard. The hardest part of it was that he was right there, within touching distance and they couldn't do anything about it, couldn't reach out to one another, she had to stand and give her lectures whilst his beautifully distracting blue eyes were staring at her from the crowd.
At that precise moment Regina was sat alone in the staff room drowning herself in coffee and even stealing a couple of Zelena's biscuits, Zelena was one of the other three history lectures within the university and it was safe to say that she and Regina didn't exactly see eye to eye, ever, which was why Regina didn't feel one ounce of guilt about eating some of her biscuits, she needed the chocolate.
Archie walked in and glanced at her, letting out a small laugh, "thief."
"So what? I need it," she moaned, leaning against the wall as she closed her eyes and took a sip of her coffee, before dunking the biscuit and eating it.
"Eww."
"What?" She asked, looking up.
"Why did you just dunk your biscuit in your drink?"
"Oh it's a British thing I learnt it from…" she stopped in her tracks, Robin had done it the first time she had given him some tea and it had grossed her out, but she had tried it and now really liked it. "Someone special to me." She stated.
"Well, if you like it, who am I to judge?" he laughed, pouring himself a drink.
"People in England do it, trust me," she sighed, a watery smile coming upon her face, she was doing it to feel close to Robin, because she missed him; although he was there, he wasn't really there.
"Mills, is that mine?"
Regina looked up, oh shit, she was caught, Zelena had caught her.
"Regina run," Archie chuckled as he whispered to her.
"Zelena."
"Are you eating my biscuits? So it's you, you're the biscuit thief." Zelena walked up to her and glared at her.
"It's a biscuit, get over it." Regina stood up and rolled her eyes, "maybe if you shared once in awhile."
"When do you ever share anything you bitch?"
"Whoa, okay, I'll replace the biscuits." She scoffed, raising her hands, "calm down would you."
"I can't believe you."
Regina didn't have time for this, she knew that Zelena was purposely trying to start and argument and she wasn't going to even humour her with fighting back, not when she was in this mood. "I'm just going to go."
"Oh yeah, that's it, run away from it Regina."
Regina just laughed to herself at how pathetic Zelena was being and opened the door, before walking out and heading back to her own room. She walked in and had a funny feeling that she was being watched, "hello?" She carefully shut the door behind her.
"Miss Mills are you free to talk?"
A grin formed on her face as she saw who it was, he was sat in her chair, with his feet on her desk. "Well Mr Locksley, what is it that you wish to talk to me about?"
"How much I miss you."
"Hmm, I know," she nodded, letting out a defeated sigh, before walking over to him, "hey, out of my seat."
He laughed and stood up, allowing her to sit down and just perching on her desk, "I just wanted to be able to look at you closer," he sighed.
"Well, here I am."
"Yes and how beautiful you are." He grinned.
"I just got told off for stealing another teacher's biscuit." She chuckled, looking up at him, they hadn't talked one to one in two weeks and there was nothing preventing them from just talking with one another, it wasn't against the law as long as they didn't touch each other, it was okay for them to talk, but the taking made it harder not to touch.
"Ooh, Zelena?"
"Yeah, bitch."
"She really is, I had her for a lecture earlier this week."
"Urgh, poor you," she pouted and took a sip of the coffee that was in her hand, "want some?" She asked, knowing that they liked it the same way.
"Go on then," he nodded, taking the mug from her, "this is the closest I'm going to get to your lips for a while." He sipped from the exact point she had, liking at the lipstick mark she had left around the rim.
"Robin," she giggled, shaking her head, leaning back in her chair.
"Sorry milady," he handed it back to her and she copied his action on the mug.
"Mmm," she grinned, before sighing. "I really miss you."
"Tell me about it, I am literally counting down the days."
"You've got a lot of bloody counting to do, we're only two weeks into the semester, with god knows how many to go." She huffed, "I should hope that you are going to be my highest achieving student," she taunted, biting her bottom lip.
"Well, I can try," he chuckled, standing and grabbing his bag, "I've got to go now, I organised a study session."
"Oh, okay."
"Love you."
"Love you too," she replied as she offered him a weak smile.
"Oh and Regina..."
"What?" She asked, watching him as he stood at the door.
"Smile more, it suits you."
She laughed and shook her head, "get out."
"There it is," he nodded, winking at her, before he shut the door and disappeared.
She could do this, she could wait for him, but like him she would be counting down the days until they could finally be together again; she just hoped that those days went quickly, but she had a terrible feeling that they would do the exact opposite.
So do you think they can resist each other for a whole year?! Hmm. Let me know what you thought. ;) xxx
I have news, the new chapter of 'She's the boss' will be going up at some point this week, I haven't decided when, but it's going to be soon! If you haven't read it already, then what are you waiting for? Haha. ;) Anyway, feel free to check it out. Thank you all for reading! Much love. :) xxx
