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*Happy p.o.v.*
I was looking over at my bathroom door thinking about the scene that unfolded not even an hour ago between me and Savannah. I am hoping that she doesn't start that shit up again I almost lost it today, I could never hurt a woman but that's me and when the killer comes out and I lose complete control I don't know what would happen and I didn't need that shit. It's a good thing Clay is here for her then I won't need to deal with her. I can tell Clay or Jax about her drug habit and they can deal with her. No…I couldn't do that I know what Clay would do but maybe it was for the better. I rubbed my hand over my face in frustration and reached out for my smokes. I don't know why she was bothering me so much. But no one talks to me that way ever, the only person to get away with that shit is ma and she isn't her. It took everything I had to bring in the killer inside me earlier. The moment she left the room with Kozik I took the opportunity to go into my room with the first sweet butt that came close to me. I lit up my smoke and waited for her to get out of the bathroom and do the same thing they all try to do. She strode out of the bathroom towards my bed and as she reached me she tried to lean onto the bed, sliding her hand up my chest. Before she got completely laid down, I turned to face her, glaring her down and barked, "What the fuck do you think you're doing? Get outta here."
She smacked my chest calling me a jerk before she pushed herself up out of the bed grabbing her clothes and left. Might as well go check on the troublemaker see how she is making out. I reached over and stubbed out my smoke then got dressed and headed for the door. I was locking my door when I heard Jax yell at me down the hall. "Hey man have you seen Savannah? Clay is looking for her, Ma is on the phone and wants to talk to her about next week?"
I perked my head up at this, she should be out there with everyone else. I walked down the hallway pushing myself past Jax to see a full on party going on but no sign of her. There was only one thing she could be doing and I was stupid enough not to watch her. I should've known she would take the first opportunity she could. "Fuck!" I muttered to no one in particular and stormed my way outside running into Koz as I reached the door.
I grabbed him by his shirt and pinned him to the wall outside. "Where is she!"
"Whoa man who?"
"Savannah!"
"I don't know last time I saw her was half an hour ago when she left church with Clay. She was in here about twenty minutes ago and I watched her go outside. She took out a smoke I just figured she was going out for a smoke? Is she missing?"
I shoved him away from me. I was so stupid to think that she could be left alone for two minutes. I hopped on my bike hoping that I would catch her before she got to her next fix.
*End of Happy p.o.v*
I loved this spot, on the bridge above the river. It is deadly quite out here and you were just far enough out, that you were just outside of the town to your right and to the left was a small forest. Most people you saw out here were biking or running so there wasn't too many people around. I always came here to clear my mind and after today I needed it. Ring Ring my phone started going off in my pocket and I looked down at it, it was Happy. I pushed the end button and turned it on silent. I hopped onto the wall of the bridge and dangled my feet over the water and continued to watch the water "Hey beautiful." Someone called beside me, it was Tyler
Tyler was someone I had known for years. Way before I knew Mike or anyone else or did anything else. He was the stoner in high school, he has short hair that he normally has in a faux hawk and grey eyes and tattoos everywhere. Being a drug dealer was a side hobby for him, he was a tattoo artist and besides doing my own tattoos he was starting to teach me in his spare time. He was like a brother to me and I knew I could trust him. "Hey yourself."
He came up and hugged me from behind and bent down to my purse slipping the drugs in and the cash out before he stood up and eyed me warily. "I heard some shit went down between SAMTAC and Mike. Were you there?"
"Yes I was and I found something out, "I took a deep breath because I knew the moment I said it out loud I was admitting that it was true, "the president of SAMCRO in the Charming charter is my dad."
"What? I thought-"
"Yeah I know, that's what I thought to. My mom lied to me and now as of next week I won't be here anymore."
"Really? I'll miss you and so will the others you know that?"
I nodded my head and looked down at the water, trying not to let my distress show. I felt his hands on my hips as he pushed me around and pulled me off the wall to hug me tight. He whispered in my ear, his face in my hair, "I'm sorry I know you don't have a choice. How about we head back to my place we can hang out there, party for one more time have some fun? I'm just parked over there."
I looked over at his 1992 Nissan gtr that he got from his dad a year ago. I took my phone out and looked down to see I had four missed calls from Happy and about a dozen messages that said something along the lines of where the fuck was I? He better not catch me with or doing drugs? excreta excreta…that just infuriated me more. He wasn't anyone important in my life so who the hell was he to think he had the right to barge into my life and control it. But oddly enough it still felt wrong to do this to him. As I was looking at the phone I saw him call again and after I forwarded him to voice mail, he finally left one. I grabbed my bag from the ground and said, "Yeah why the hell not, have some good old fun with the group one last time. I just gotta get this and I'll be there."
He nodded his head and I started to listen to Happy's voice mail. "I don't know where you are or what the fuck you think you are doing but when I find you, you better have a god damn good reason for disappearing. Everyone is wondering where you are so get the fuck back here, Tacoma is not that big little girl and neither are the places you would go hang out so if your hiding I would hide far away because I will find you. Then you can tell Clay yourself why you're not here and why I have been looking for you all night. Answer me now and I'll forget this happened...Call me."
Not only did Happy sound one hundred percent pissed he actually managed to scare me over the phone. I looked back at Tyler who was waiting impatiently at the car and then back at my phone. "You know what, I'm sorry I forgot I had somewhere to be, I'm supposed to be back at the clubhouse with Clay and I should go back."
"Want a ride?"
"No I have someone coming to get me. Thank you for coming out here though. I will talk to you before I leave I'm sorry."
"No worries I understand have a good one beautiful."
I walked back to the wall and leaned up against it and took a deep breath before I called him. I heard him growl from the other line when he picked up "Where. Are. You."
"The bridge just outside of town."
"Five minutes." Then he hung up.
As I was waiting for him I took out the needles and drugs I had just bought and place it all on the wall. I leaned back and lit up a smoke as I waited for him. I could hear the roar of his bike from miles away and I watched him park it, putting out my smoke. I could see how much I truly had pissed him off and I swear I could see a glimmer of worry in his eyes but I was more scared at the moment then willing to find out if that was true. I debated about running but I needed to do this now or he wouldn't understand. I wasn't sure why it was important that he knew but it was. As he got off his bike he stomped over to me and as he got closer his eyes traveled to the drugs on the wall. I could see the flare from this morning come back something in him was changing. He picked up a bag and threw it at my chest and pointed at the rest, "What the hell did I tell you about this shit huh? What did I say would happen if you touched this again? This is why you left? To get your next fix I thought you could be better than that! But I was wrong you are a no good fucking junkie that deserves to have been left in that disease infested house I found you in. We're going back and you're going to tell Clay everything so that I don't have to deal with your childish behavior anymore. Your mother must be so fucking ashamed because I don't even know you and I'm ashamed to have your name attached to the club."
I could feel the anger rising in me with every word he spat at me, but I choked down the outburst that was threatening to come out, I felt the tears fall at his last couple sentences but I wiped them with my hand and pushed the drugs and needles off the bridge. He looked at me shocked, like he expected something else to happen and I bent down and grabbed the bag he threw at me and opened it. I started at it for a moment, I wanted it sure, and I was addicted of course it ate at me to do this. But he was right I am ashamed and my mother probably is rolling around in her grave at everything I've done since she passed. I couldn't be doing this anymore, so I dumped the bag. I bent over and grabbed my bag and looked at him. His anger turned into confusion and I finally spoke up, "I'm sorry. This is my first step to quitting and I will quit and within the next couple days it going to get bad but I'm going to get through it, whether you help me or not. I'm done. I wanted you to be here when I made this first step. And for your information I haven't talked to my mother in two years, she's dead. Now could you take me back to the clubhouse I am feeling rather tired and I don't want to be outside anymore."
I didn't wait for his reply I just walked past him to go to the bike. He grabbed my wrist as I passed him and said, "Listen-"
"No, just take me back please. I'm fine, "I looked back at him and sarcastically added, "Sir."
He looked astonished but let go and walked back to the bike with me. My wrist was burning from where he held it, not a hurtful one but a good one. It was going to be a long ride back and an even longer ride throughout the week. When we got back I was harassed by the members on where we had disappeared to but I lied and said I needed some girl products and food and left to go to bed. Happy started to follow me but when I looked back at him, he knew that he wasn't welcome and had to leave me alone.
