ooo i didnt know how to do this before hahah. well what do you think so far, please review because it feels like im writing to nobody but i can see 83 of you lovely people have read it so one of you must have some thing to say :)


"Jen, its ok, it's just a dream." Josh says to me as I sob uncontrollably into his chest. "shhh, its ok, you'll be ok" he says. I look out of the window and see we are almost landing, "do you want to talk about it?" he asks me, but instead of replying I just shake my head, that was still resting on his chest. "ok then do you want a drink?" again I just shake my head as the flight attendant came past. he didn't say anything for the rest of the flight and I didn't make any attempt to move or make any sort of convosation.

As we collected our bags from the carousel Josh started to make small talk. "Listen Jen, your dad, he's going to be ok you know, he's a fighter, a survivor just like you" he says but im not sure if its true or he's just trying to reassure me. "Can we just go to the hospital now please?" I say trying to hide the anger in my voice unsuccessfully but if Josh heard it he didn't show it. "ok, yeah, the car is outside waiting ."He says as he grabs the bags from my hands.

As we pull up to the hospital, I walk up to the front desk and they lead me down what must be a million hallways, a maze that's never-ending, with Josh hot on my heels. I just want to get there as fast as I can to see my father. As the nurse leads me into the room, my mother jumps up, hugs me tight and trys to explain what happened but I can barely hear her. I sit down by his bedside, my mother and Josh talking outside. "I might not have told you this enough times, but I love you, you were always the one who made me stronger when i felt like quitting, the one who made me happy when I was down , you know all the shit that ive been through and yet you still don't judge me. I love you, please don't leave me, i want you to be there when I have kids, I want you to be at EVERY movie première and I want you to be by my side if I win any more awards and get drunk celebrating if I do." I said to him my eyes full of tears but I held them back, I had to be strong, for my father. As soon as the first tear falls from my face, my mom comes into the room and hugs me as if she might never let go. At that point as if by some telepathic communication we have as mother and daughter we both know he's not going to come around that prehaps this time next week we will be arranging his funeral. Just as I make eye contact with Josh I hear a beeping noise beside me and I know he's gone.


please review, hope you liked this chapter, i know its kinda short but i thought it was a good place to end it.