A Cold Awakening
Chapter Three
Walking inside the clinic brought back memories of her past that she had tried to forget, it had seemed as if her life had turned full circle. First the happiness, then the impact of it being cruelly snatched away. Deep down she knew that what she was doing was wrong, Smithy deserved to know but circumstances just couldn't allow for that.
The seats were hard, even though they were made from foam and the material was scratchy but she was too preoccupied to care. From the corner of her eye she saw what appeared to be the back of Smithy, was her mind being cruel to her; dragging up guilt? She saw a pile of magazines next to her so in a bid to disguise her she turned her attentions to the many varieties. Unfortunately it appeared that her efforts were in vain. Smithy had spotted her.
His heart was telling him to go over but his mind knew that Gina would clock on; instead he subconsciously kept one eye on her, seeking out the best moment to leave the conversation. He did not have to wait long before a nurse walked over to Kerry and ushered her down a corridor, taking his chances he duly followed them being careful not to raise suspicion. Just as he was about to take his opportunity to speak to her the nurse noticed him,
"Is everything Ok, if you're looking for where the arson took place its towards the front of the building" She spoke so innocently but Kerry and Smithy both knew otherwise.
"Erm no I was just trying to find the toilet" He replied, while all the time his eyes burned into Kerry.
"Its just on you left" She smiled before opening the adjacent door for Kerry.
Acknowledging her reply he walked into the toilet and waited, while all of the time looking out through the frosted glass. After five minutes a silhouetted figure walked out of the room. It was the nurse. In his mind Smithy knew exactly why Kerry was there but he couldn't admit it to himself, how could she be so stupid?
….
"Kerry?" His voice sounded meek and his tone confused,
Looking up from the grey lino she stared at him, the pill in one hand and the glass of water in the other.
Just his facial expressions suggested he was crushed by what she was about to do and an icy blade hit her in the heart. How could she have been so selfish?
"Im sorry Smithy" Too guilty to look she stared at the same spot as before.
"It…its not late Kerry we can make it work," He begged with her not to go through with it but her face told a different story.
" How can we? What kind of parents would we be?" She spoke, her tone pessimistic.
"Good ones" He pleaded.
"No we wouldn't. I cant keep my knickers on for two seconds, hence why im here and live for work not for a family. This baby would have had a horrible life and its too late Smithy." Not one tear was shed, just bitterness seeping out through her lips.
"It would have love and that's the most important thing and its not to late Kerry please"
"Its way too late Smithy, it was too late before it happened and its certainly too late now. You have to go Smithy. Now" Towards the end her voice became sharper and her volume rose.
It seemed Smithy still didn't understand, but it was about to become clear for the evidence was seeping out.
Clutching her stomach she winced in pain, for it was a feeling she had experienced before.
"Kerry what's going on? Do you want me to get someone?" Still not understanding Kerry knew it was about time to put him straight.
"No. It's too late because I've already taken the pill, im having an abortion. You must go."
Smithy couldn't understand why she was being like this it just wasn't Kerry.
"So I don't get a say at all, you can just take away my chid without even asking me or telling me" His face appeared red and aggressive.
She may have been in pain but Kerry could see that Gina's dictation of hers and Smithy's relationship had overstepped the line.
"Ask Gina, she's the one pulling the strings in this relationship. Think about this baby Smithy, forget about our feelings because they don't matter. Right now there was no way either of us could bring up a child, perhaps we aren't meant to be and Gina's right but im not bringing a child into the world only to find out we aren't. Im sorry" She cried in pain, this time it was more intense.
Walking over to her he softened his voice,
"No im sorry Kerry I shouldn't let her dictate how I should live my life, I love you and I should have told you it long ago but I guess im saying it now."
She smiled through the pain, those three small words she had waited years for had finally been said.
"If you love me then you will understand why I've done this. I had to."
"I know and im sorry for making you feel that you had to. Its Ok now though, give me your hand."
And with that she did…
Ive decided to make this a short fic and that is the end chapter but im planning a spin off and for that you will have to wait and see. But lets celebrate for I have finished my first ever fic and I started writing over a year ago!!!!!!!
