Chapter 3:
Is strange, feeling this kind of attraction for my ex best friend, the person who has injured and disappointed me the most in my life, the person that always make a fool of me in front of a lot of people the school, besides the fact that I'm a girl just like her
I never was a popular girl, I never used makeup, I never used fashion clothes, and I never had friends because of their money, Neither I liked boys, Pudge always jokes saying that I hide mi attraction to sexy guys like him because of shyness, but I know it isn't true, I stopped deceiving myself years ago and accepted the fact that I'm lesbian
I accept what I'm, however that doesn't mean that I let people know about my sexual inclination, being lesbian is my greatest secret, no one's knows it, not even Rikimaru or Pudge, I fear that if they knew it, they would treat me in a different way, and I don't want people to have more reasons to laugh at me
Since I childhood I was a tomboy, that always make it difficult for me to make female friends, however it was easy for me to make male friends, I used to have a lot of them, more that I could count, I still remember how we used to get together to play baseball or videogames, I loved it
When I was ten years old a new student entered the school, Akasha, at that time she was a good girl , she sat beside me and that is how we met, she became my friend, mi best friend, the first and the only female friend I ever had, I don't remember being more happier in my life
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2 years later, I realized that I liked her in a different way, not just like a friend, and discovered that I was lesbian, but I was scared of her reaction, so I keep it a secret
unfortunately people changes with time, we became teenagers, with all the curiosities, fears and hormonal problems that being one involves, Akasha and Sladar decided that being popular was the most important thing, and being friend of a non popular girl like me was bad for their images, so they stared ignoring me
Others friends like Raigor Stonehoof (earthshaker) and Slark Nightcrawler became rebels, they started to fail at school, to get drunk and to beat weak and younger students
Axe Mogulkhan abandoned the school and joined a gang; nowadays he is the favorite bully of Azgalor Queenofpain, akasha's father
No matter how, I eventually loosed each person I considered a friend, only four of them were and exception: Rikimaru, Pudge, Squee and Spoon
No, I'm not joking about the twins, they can be a pain in the ass, but I know that when I have problem, they are always there for me, as Rikimaru and Pudge had been since I was 3 years old, they never backstab [1] me like Akasha and the others did, and I l know they will never do
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References:
[1]: metaphorically speaking, this Rikimaru doesn't have "Backstab"
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