p dir="ltr"strongemWARNING: Attempted /em/strongstrongemsuicide/em/strongstrongem, self harm, broken bones, gore/em/strong/p
p dir="ltr"The next few days went by quickly. Jules hadn't said anything about the other night since it happened, so I guess she thinks it's best to just leave it. Besides, all it had been was another night of insomnia. I had gone to sleep normally. And I say normally because ever since the fire I've been having to push myself to exhaustion to get even the smallest amount of sleep. It had just been unfortunate that night when the nightmare happened./p
p dir="ltr"Anyway, on a somewhat happier note, Jules found what happened to Mason. He was killed. By vampires. Surprise, surprise. She's been slightly moody over the subject, likely because she feels guilty. Jules was the one who sent Mason here in the first place, to try and get the moonstone. Lucky for me though, his nephew is a newly turned curse werewolf and happens to be good looking. Chances are, Jules will convince him to join the pack and he will be one of us./p
p dir="ltr"Mason's murderer is a vampire by the name of Damon Salvatore. Jules has a plan for tonight. For the full moon. She is going to turn, then kill Damon. Bite him, make him hallucinate like hell and he will drop dead, having died a painfully excruciating death./p
p dir="ltr"The plan for me is simple, the plan it has been for a month now. Chain me up and hope for the best. The best being that I don't drop dead as the moon peaks. The best being that I go through excruciating pain that brings several suicidal thoughts to mind as every bone in my body breaks and tries to heal itself./p
p dir="ltr"Control hasn't ever been a problem for me. Ever since that part of me was triggered when I was nine, I latched onto the need of having control over the werewolf part of me. The need to keep myself undiscovered by hunters. The need to get revenge on the Argent that murdered my brother. Cut him in two. When we were nine./p
p dir="ltr"I did get revenge. Though it did give a cruel hand in helping karma and the universe decide my fate. Death. One life in exchange for another. Although I took several that night, they all deserved it. They deserved it for forcing Alec to kill that hunter, so he would trigger his curse. So he would start turning. So every bone in his body would break. So Gerard could call him a threat. So he could cut my brother...in two. All because we existed. All because we were better without having to try./p
p dir="ltr"I got up off the couch and went to the kitchen to get myself a drink. I poured myself a glass of Pepsi and headed back to the couch. On the way a sharp pain shot through my side and I fell to the floor, dropping my drink letting the glass smash. I doubled over, grinding my teeth together to keep myself from screaming as the pain slowly, agonisingly moved through me. As it passed over I smashed my fist into the floor, cutting myself on the glass. I gasped harshly as it carried on and eventually dissipated. I sat up, gasping heavily as I felt tears threaten to fall. I leant back against the wall and pushed away the memories of nightmares that attempted to overwhelm me./p
p dir="ltr"I shook my head in attempt to clear it and slowly stood back up. I cleaned up the mess, though I was barely focused on it. All I could see was the inevitable image of what would happen tonight. As every single bone in my body snapped and splintered, and healed itself again and again. br /br /br /br /p
p dir="ltr"The door slammed shut as Jules stormed inside the apartment. I turned around from my spot on the couch and watched her as she hastily gathered together chains and drinks that had been mixed with wolfsbane, mistletoe and mountain ash. I began to put on my shoes and zipped up my hoodie whilst she waited by the door./p
p dir="ltr""Jules?"/p
p dir="ltr""You all right?" She responded./p
p dir="ltr""Yeah, it's just," I sighed before continuing,"What if something happens to me tonight? What if it goes incredibly wrong and your plan fails, you die and I'm left alone with no one willing to help me?" I asked, my voice shaking as I did./p
p dir="ltr"She took a step towards me and embraced me in a hug./p
p dir="ltr""Beth, nothing will happen to me tonight. I swear on it. I know it won't because I know myself well enough that if something did happen to me, that it would be because I was trying to protect you. Okay? I promise that everything will be fine." She looked me in the eye as she pulled away./p
p dir="ltr"I nodded at her and said "Okay. We should get going."br /br /p
p dir="ltr"Screaming with immeasurable rage I threw myself forward just as Jules finished chaining me up. She sped over to the door to avoid ny attack./p
p dir="ltr""...eth? ...ts okay. ...not ...ing ...urt you." I could barely make out what she was saying. It was all coming back to me./p
p dir="ltr"emI tripped over a branch and fell to the floor before picking myself /ememup/emem and rushing to keep up with Alec. /em/p
p dir="ltr"I struggled against the chains. Twisting my body as I tried to escape. She couldn't keep me here. Can't stay in one place for too long. Hunters will find me if I do./p
p dir="ltr"I heard another agonising scream flee from my mouth as my elbow bent inward. The bone broke through my skin as it splintered. I tried to cover it but the chains stopped me I cowered back as Jules approached me./p
p dir="ltr"emHe stepped out of the shadows and with little time to stop, we both collided /ememwith/emem his legs and landed roughly /ememon/em emthe/emem ground. I pushed myself up and helped Alec /ememup/emem and spun around only to see two /ememmore/emem behind us./em/p
p dir="ltr"I howled in pain as my arm involuntary warped back into place. I collapsed in a heap on the stone cold floor and whimpered as Jules approached me. She glanced down at her hand. I did the same and looked her in the eye. Whispering a quiet, broken "no" when I saw the concoction Deaton had made to help the process I was going through./p
p dir="ltr""I'll leave this here." She said softly as she placed the bottle on the floor. "I'm not going to force you to drink it."/p
p dir="ltr"I gave no reply. I couldn't. Not now. A tsunami of nausea shot through me as a white hot pain pierced my head. I lurched forward as I threw up hot, bitter bile mixed black blood./p
p dir="ltr"I spat out what was left in my mouth and shook my head./p
p dir="ltr"emI was /ememroughly/emem dragged along by my wrist. We came /ememto/emem a /ememstop/emem in a small clearing and /ememI/emem was thrown to the ground./em/p
p dir="ltr"A violent tremor spiked in my leg and my eyes widened as I realised what it meant. I took the short moment to brace myself just as it happened. /p
p dir="ltr"I felt my throat go raw as I screamed. I convulsed as the skin on my knee was split open. I shook with pain as the bones in my legs grew outward and met at the patch of raw flesh that was my knee. They grinded together, screeching as they did. Fighting to break through one another./p
p dir="ltr"Suddenly they retracted. Leaving gaping holes on my leg where they had pierced the skin. I fell onto my back as I felt my leg heal itself./p
p dir="ltr"Breathing heavily I looked around and realised that Jules had left. She was going to avenge Mason./p
p dir="ltr"I moaned as a strange feeling slowly crept into my stomach. The feeling began to grow hotter as it radiated pain through my body. It quickly grew to a searing pain and I clutched my stomach and rocked myself from side to side, so entranced in the slight distraction that I didn't notice my claws reveal themselves./p
p dir="ltr"emHe /ememforced/emem the bat into Alec's hands and shouted at him. /ememOrdering/emem him to kill the unconscious man next to him. He refused. Shook his head. A /ememsob/emem wracked /ememmy/emem body as /ememI/em emfelt/emem a cold blade rest on my /ememneck/emem. "Do it or she dies!" He demanded. /em/p
p dir="ltr"I felt the blood before the pain. I felt it fall between my fingers as I realised what I had just done. I brought my hands up to look at them and stared at the black blood that stained them. I glanced down and watched as my skin slowly knitted itself together again./p
p dir="ltr"Suddenly, I arched my back and howled as I felt my eyes glow a searing yellow. My spine slowly bent inward, small shards of it flying off and embedding themselves in organs as it did so. Then it quickly bent out the other way, splitting my skin as though it was trying to fly free before it slammed down, the two halves harshly bouncing off of each other before returning to their original place as one./p
p dir="ltr"emHe had done what he /ememasked/emem. He /ememhad/emem killed the man. He fell to the ground screaming in pain. I /ememwinced/emem as /ememI/emem felt it flow through me due to /ememour/emem bond. The one with the sword stepped forward and /ememswung/emem it down swiftly. /em/p
p dir="ltr"emI froze as he did. I watched as my /emembrother's/emem lifeless face stared blankly at the dark moon lit sky above us. I watched as his insides slowly /ememslid/emem out and sloshed together in a pile on the ground. /embr /br /br /br /br /p
p dir="ltr"I woke with a start. I must have fallen asleep at some point during the night. I shivered and tried to wrap my arms around me. I winced as I felt the cold steel of the chains tug on my wrists. Jules hadn't come back yet./p
p dir="ltr"She hadn't come back. She could be dead./p
p dir="ltr"No./p
p dir="ltr"Jules probaly got lost. Its a new town. That is a valid reason. Right?/p
p dir="ltr"I jumped as the door opened. I watched Jules as she entered the room and stared at me. I watched her eyes as they examined the blood that stained my skin and vomit that clung to the floor./p
p dir="ltr"She walked towards me and removed the chains without saying a word. When she was finished I looked up at her with teary eyes. I leant into her warm embrace and began sobbing. Faintly I could hear her saying that she was sorry she wasn't there. It didn't matter. She was here now./p