Pushing the glass double doors open Emily sighed deeply, she was carrying her own purse, her ready bag, JJ's files and purse – needless to say she had her hands full. Not to mention a mind full all ready – she carefully moved down the isles of the desks of her co workers – just praying that she wouldn't drop anything – that was all she needed today – was someone making a sorry ass crack about her clumsiness. Let's just say that the poor person wouldn't know what hit 'em when she got through with them. They would think twice before messing with her again. Emily just didn't 'want to have to deal with that today.

She made it to her desk without losing her balance – or her losing her hold on her load. She set the files with JJ's purse on her desk, than she allowed her to go bag to drop at the right side of her chair – she pushed it slightly forward with her foot – so it would be out of the way underneath her desk. Her purse came off her right shoulder than. She sighed in relief as she felt the physical load off of her body.

"Man, Em, I think you are going a little over board .. I mean two purses and your ready bag?" Morgan said with a low whistle. "My two sisters don't even need that much stuff – and they are as girly as they come."

Emily shot Morgan a dark look.

Morgan's right eye brow rose high on his forehead. He knew that look. That was the Emily Prentiss's 'don't mess with me, and if you do than look out' look. What got into her today? Perhaps she hadn't had a good lay in a while. Hmmm …. when was the last time Emily Prentiss had a good fuck? A twinkle entered his eyes – he had it figured out. He would make it his personal mission to get Emily laid … and soon. He began to go over in his minds which guy friend of his did he know whom could do the job. "Sorry Emily, didn't realize you didn't have your coffee this morning." He said with a shrug.

Emily sighed, "I'm sorry Derek. I just had a rough morning is all." She shook her head as she gathered up the files and JJ's purse. She tried to smile at her friend and co worker – but knew by Derek's expression that she hadn't succeeded. She turned and started her walk towards JJ's office.

Emily walked up the stairs and passed the open door to Hotch's office, she saw him sitting at his desk going over files. His expression was tensed and dark. Per usual. She would stop in on him – on the way back from JJ's office. Perhaps she could find a way to ease some of his tension.

She stopped at JJ's closed door – the door that firmly said 'Keep Out!' She felt her heart break as she felt the pain that her friend – the woman whom had completely stolen her heart and soul – was going through. All due to that bastard Tobias. If it hadn't been for him; than her beautiful JJ would be fine. She took a few shallow breaths and raised her hand and knocked – not to loud – but not too softly. Just the right sound for the office. For JJ.

"Come in." JJ's toneless voice said.

Emily steeled herself to remain calm and professional. But it was hard too do, when all she wanted to do was rush inside – grab JJ and never let go. But she got control of herself as she opened the door. "I brought the files and your purse back to you." She said with a smile as she walked over to the desk and laid the things on top of it.

"Thank you." JJ simply said locking eyes with her – but than she quickly swifted her eyes away from her. Emily's heart broke and she had to fight so hard inside not to let out a cry.

"JJ -" Emily began in a soft voice.

"I have a lot of work to do – before the meeting." JJ said quickly breaking in, her eyes turned to hers but than quickly left Emily's face, she looked down at her desk – at the file – the file that she had finally chosen for her team. "I have to get information ready; so you guys know what you are going to be up against."

"I understand." Emily said in a firm and professional voice. "I'll leave you at it than."

"Close the door on your way out." JJ said not looking up.

Tears stung the back of her eyes and Emily knew that she had to get out of there – before she broke down. With one last look at JJ's bowed head – she turned and left the office; closing the door softly behind her.

JJ's hands began to shake on the paper she was holding – that one soft click of the door was her un doing. She wanted to jump up and rush after Emily – too gather Emily into her arms and never let go. To finally tell Emily Prentiss how much she loved and needed her – all of her. But than her self doubt and self loathing over came her once more – and she knew that she could never do that. Emily wouldn't understand – Emily wouldn't feel the same way about her – Emily would turn away in disgust and take her friendship away. No Emily must never find out how much she loved her.

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"I can't keep going on this way, Aaron – I just can't." Spencer looked into Aaron's eyes with tears in his own.

"Baby." Aaron whispered. He sighed at the look on his lover's face. "What can we do? We can't let the world know – otherwise our jobs are gone. I'll be transferred or fired – or you would be transferred. We would never be able to see each other – be with each other." He put a hand on his lover's shoulder, "I can't bare losing you, Spence, my very own beautiful Spencer Reid."

"But I love you Aaron, and I want the entire world to know. Not just Hayley and Jack. Which by the way I'm glad for. At least Hayley understands how things stand with you. With us." Spencer said softly. "But I hate this secretly that we have to live with the rest of the world. With the rest of the team."

"Emily knows." Aaron said.

Spencer right eye lifted, "I'm not surprised." His frown deepen, "But she's not enough, Aar – I want the entire world to know of my love for you."

"We'll find a way Spencer – we'll find a way to let the world know of our love – and still be able to stay together. I can't lose you." Aaron said tears rolling down his checks.

"I can't lose you, I won't be able to go on." Aaron whispered as he stared down at the file – not seeing the file – but Spencer Reid's beautiful face.

"Hotch." A soft voice said from across the room.

He looked up and sighed as he saw a downcast Emily at his door. "Hello Emily." He sighed as he leaned back against his chair. "What can I do for you?"

"Nothing." She sighed as she leaned harder against the closed door. "What can I do for you? You seem stressed and out of it. More so than usual."

"I'm fine." Aaron said in a firm strict voice.

"No you are not." Emily said with a slight smirk, but than she frowned deeply. "Trouble between you and Spencer?"

"Nothing that we can't work out for our selves." Aaron said. He stood to his feet and walked over and leaned against the wall next to Emily – close to her – so their shoulders could touch one and another. "Something is the matter with you Emily – something that doesn't have anything to do with work."

"Nothing that I can't work out for myself." Emily said in the exact tone that Aaron had used just moments before.

"Liar." Aaron said. His hand reached underneath his arm to squeeze her arm. "I know that you don't think this is the time or place to unload – but know that I'm always there for you."

"It's nothing that I can't handle on my own, Aaron." Emily tried to pull away from this moment – but his hand tighten on her arm, and his essence kept forcing the way into her shell – swiping away all the walls that she had built up around herself.

Knock Knock

The two agents quickly moved away from each other and the door. Emily put her face back in the impassive professional expression she used at work – and she saw that Aaron did the same.

The door opened and JJ entered, Emily's heart raced at the mere sight of the woman whom she loved more than life itself.

JJ quickly looked at Emily than turned her eyes on Hotch, "I'm ready for the briefing, Sir." She said in a toneless voice – her face was set in a BAU mask.

"Thank you JJ." Hotch nodded. He watched as she took one last quick look at Emily – than left his office closing the door behind her. The door felt like it was the end of something. He turned his eyes onto Emily's and read Emily's soul clearly. "It's going to work out, Emily, once she knows how you feel about her -"

"She'll never find out." Emily said in a dead voice.

Aaron moved forward and wrapped his arms around Emily and pulled her into a hug.

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JJ's felt her heart and soul die at the scene that was happing in Hotch's office. There was Emily with Aaron's arms around her. Her head was on his chest and her eyes were closed – his head was on the right side of her shoulder blade.

It was perfectly clear on whom Emily wanted to be with – was with. It wasn't her. It would never be her. She stiffen her back and shoulders – well she was just fine with that. At least she knew where she stood finally. No more dreaming for her – it was firm reality from here on out.

She turned and walked towards the conference room where the rest of her team – minus Hotch and Emily were waiting for her. She would be a firm master of her emotions through the meeting – no one – especially Emily would ever know that her heart had just been broken.

END CHAPTER THREE