Disclaimer: Please. I use them only for my own gratification and while I love them, I in no way claim them as my own.

Hi everyone, thank you SO much for your reviews; they're all very encouraging so thank you. I wasn't entirely sure how to go about this (this = writing fanfic) properly so it's good to know you like. Hee, actually, I originally never intended this to be loner than the first chapter. I took a little more time over this chapter.

Daisydeertree: Hee, no I didn't mean that you'd told me I sucked! No I meant that I sucked because I was replying to your first chapter when I had lots more to read. :D And I see about the Lorelai/Lorelei thing. Sorry to be picky like that.

Oh and yes, another thing. Being from New Zealand I do say Mum and not Mom but as they say, when in Rome…

"Mom?" Rory sniffed.

"Rory? God what happened?"

"Nothing, I'm OK."

"Well, OK, but you're crying, that's not usual."

"Mom I just talked to Jess," she wiped her nose and sniffed again, "and he was less than receptive. And I can't decide if I did the right thing and I need you. I need you here, now." She forgot to leave out the pleading tone.

"Well, alright. Where are you?"

"Luke's. Luke's apartment. I'll go home."

"No, no you stay there and have some coffee and I'll come and get you."

"Thank you, Mommy."

"Anytime kiddo, now you sure you'll be OK till I get there?"

"Mm-hmm."

"Bye then." Rory closed her phone and took a deep breath. She wiped her eyes again and stood up. She wanted to wash her face but felt awkward doing so where Jess and Luke did. Then again, she couldn't go downstairs looking like this so she went to the bathroom and turned on the tap. Her throat was dry as she splashed water onto her face. Why had she done this again? She couldn't help but see the irony in what she'd done. Yes she'd prevented Dean from getting hurt all over again but the tiny smidgen of relief she felt about that was eradicated by how she'd now treated Jess. And what about Jess anyway? She'd had no idea he'd react like that. Of course he would have been upset, but to just rush out in a fit of anger like he had…she sighed as she dried her face.

'Gilmore, stop sighing. Life doesn't revolve around you and from what you've just seen, love doesn't seem to either. They'll get better with time, you know that. Come on, you have to at least try to see that you made the right decision.' Her face was numb as she tried to think about it rationally. Failing miserably she looked herself straight in the mirror and began to talk aloud.

"God. Jess, Dean, whoever! I don't care anymore! I'm done with trying to keep people happy. I messed up, I know that, I punish myself for it every day, but I can't go on like this, with the both of them weighing me down. I'm all mopey, I can't concentrate, I don't look people in the eye. But…ugh! I'm so confused!" She rubbed her eyes with one hand and leant on the sink with the other. She needed Lorelai. Taking one last look in the mirror she went to the couch to get her jacket. She was startled by Jess throwing the door open and turned to face him, suddenly apprehensive.

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A/N I seem to have gathered s few Jess-haters to myself when that really was not the intention. I'm not one to favour who she picks really (or any pairing for anything) but I like to see relationships working realistically, that's why she hasn't chosen to be with Jess. If I do like a pairing it'll be because of how realistic the pairing is. Proof of all that is that I *love* Jess/Milo. Really I do. I think he's an awesome character and I shall write Jess POV stories soon, I promise. I do not, however, think that Rory would have gone to him under the circumstances. I cherish all comments though so if you want to read this as anti-Jess, feel free. :)