JUNE 1989
Jasper came at 7am, as usual.
I was in the floor of the basement, without much of my clothes on.
He took me and placed me on the bed. Then, he took the knife with blood out of my hands. Yes, I had the idea of killing my self, but I couldn't
He took some clothes from the trunk, and went out for me to change clothes.
Dear Diary June 10 1989
I can't take my life, I just can't, and I was very scared
The days after, he took care of me, he didn't said a word, maybe that was what frustrated me more.
- Please talk to me – I said him a day – please.
- Ok – he breath – can you give me an advice?
- Yes.
- Look, I like someone.
- And what's the problem?
- What do I do?
- Tell her how you fell.
- But she is like my friend, and I don't want to loose her friendship.
- And what if she felt the same as you – didn't know why talking about this hurted me that much.
- That's impossible.
- There's nothing impossible.
Oh, I will have to learn to take my own advices "There's nothing impossible".
- You know what, forget it.
- Oh, ok.
- I will like to know…what happened?
- I…James, he abused of me – I start to cry.
- Oh.
Dear Diary. July 20 1989
Today was Jasper birthday.
I'm really confused, I don't know what to do but I'm in love with him. I want the best for him.
- What happened with the girl?
- It's difficult to say it.
- Why?
- Because I think, I'm being very clear of how I feel for her.
- But maybe, she doesn't realize what you feel.
- Oh, that's true.
Dear Diary. July 21 1989
Oh, he is a great guy, why she doesn't pay attention to him.
AUGUST.
- I'm tired of being here.
- I was thinking…
- Yes?
- I was thinking of going to the police and said where we are.
- Will you?
- Yes - I was already crying.- So I will go the first week of September, that would be in one week.
- Thanks.
Dear Diary. August 29 1989
I can't believe it, in only a few days I will have my freedom again.
OCTOBER.
That morning of October 3rd, Jasper didn't come.
At 12:40 police arrive, they saved me, and took me home.
On that day of October, I saw my family again.
I had changed a lot, my hair was very long, and my skin was whiter.
Christopher, James, and Eric, were in jail.
Dear Diary. October 06 1989
I don't know anything about Jasper since October 2nd.
I'm back with my family; my mom and dad are taking care of my must of the day, life if I was a little girl.
My sister, she is now 14, her hair is brown, she is really beautiful, we will be the best sisters from now on.
I'm happy of being home.
- Ali, someone's on the door looking for you – said my mom.
- Ok, I'm down in a minute.
When I went down my mom was talking with someone.
- And what are you planning to do from now on?
- I will go to school, and then to the university. – That voice, ¡was Jasper's voice!
- ¡Jazz!
We talked the rest of the day, my mom, she was fascinated with him.
Then my mom went out, to bring home my sister, Emma, from school, so Jasper and I stayed talking.
- And finally, what happen with the girl?
- I'm going to tell her how I feel.
- That's good, but why that drastic change of mind?
- Because, is possible I don't see her anymore.
- Oh and when will you tell her?
- Now – he breath –Ali…I…I love you – my tears started to come out of my eyes, he closed his eyes – I know it's impossible for you to love me, but I have to tell you how I fell, because maybe I will never see you again – he opened his eyes.
-Jazz, I…I love you too, I never told you because I want you to be happy even if it wasn't with me-
He hugged me and then he gave me a kiss on my cheek while he said:
-I love you, I loved you yesterday, I love you now, and I'll love you tomorrow, and for the rest of my life, forever and ever.
Jasper and I finished school and university, he studied international business, now he is working, and I graduated as business administrator.
We are engaged and we will marry in 10 weeks.
I'm really lucky, who will think he would be my hero, my love, my life.