THe great an mysterus ways of the kachinking much are left to be learnded anew by somone as studius as me i think not because idont even want to learn howa toe uthinize a cut properly i say now what do i do with this little depressed boy who will not eat anything no matter how hard i try to get him to i try to trick him into eating it by saying it has no carbs when its really just a pile of sugar i think hes catching on beuase he is starting to look like he is dead how can i kindly say its now makking you look better its making you look worse i knwow you are afraid of being fat but that has nothing to do with the fact that anerexia is a serus isssue i mean look at the cover of any magazine and none of the moddles are acutaly suffearaing from anerexia (in china they may be but i dont live their so i wont say anything) in essense what im trying to say is dont not eat its worse then over eating at everymeal i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) you wanna look fina hot but thats not gunna happen with you looking like this OK? just give it up eat somthiong you little cute fuck ok i just want you to eat healthy for a full bi-week just one bi-week if you do i will tell you why i still talk to you ? k k coolio bro bro cool(it may be because you are fucing adoriable but its not ljike your readin this so it dose not matter anyways so in the end of my tiny meaningless life i knew nothhing more then the fact that i should not exist in a place wher you do exis without me i just wann a apoligize for everthing i have ever done to you and ever will do yo you and that this is just my way of saying thants for everything but it will turn ot just fine if you leave me alone ok ok i dont even rememver what this is about anyome but i dont care imma just keep wrighting till i fall the hell asleep ok mate ok ok i think i wanna finna a nut ok dose that sound good to you or is it just good for me ok its just good for me i feal you but i dont wanna deal with you today or anyother) this is just a fakness of who i am and who i will become in the future i dont relly undersand what is wron with me but i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) how much this all means to you in the long run and i say that all i do in life is free without the knoolege that what i want to undersand is just always out of reach and i get what you are saying in the future and in the past but i dont wanna really dwell on anything much to long because if we do well i never know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) when we will get out of here ok ok sounds pretty food i wanna say but i have no idea after all all i say is invvalid anyways so i wanna use somthing you often dont use witch is the understanding of how i use the constant personal pressure that i plave ontop myself as a way to impove over time and that if i were not to do that i probably would turn out better een if i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) it at the time all i ever have know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) is pain from the time i was bron to the tim i will die i will undestand better than most the feeling of never wanting to exist at all and why that can be am amazing feeling but at the same time just a peice of shit that you want to throw away forever but this has no hold over who i will become it is just somthing lingering in the backgound of who i am and where i will go into the fure so that when i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that the knoledge is somthing more than just a brutal acceptance of who i would become then i would have never even tried to make it this far into a place that i never wanted to go to in the first place even tho i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that i am coping with somthing that has just been sitting here for the lonest of while i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) why i have never done this kind of thing before it helps if you memorize the keys that you will touch often or not but all i want to say mom is that you have scared me fore a long time and i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if i will ever recover from you ways of sabotaughing me as nothing more than "a way to open op thougts and creativity and pull me away from the pain of being with the man that i fell in love with such a long time ago and i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if i ever can get past this but trust me buckeruu if you dont understand where i will go in the future you wil not be somthing to hold yourself back go fly away from me as fast as your wings can possibly take you i want to understand why i dont geta treats anyomore why i dont get anything from you kids or your father" and i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) why she said this but i can tell you that it hurt more than the felling of having a blade penertrate my skin so over that last several years i have been growing a collection that no one should ever have a collection of cuts and burns and self influenced scabs breaks and other things causing my hands to be covered in micrute scars on almost everysinge part of them the most recent being a group of three on my lefty hand that shine vigorusly while i type this under the powerfull light of my lamp i can see on these hands all that will exist and all that may beome false over time so that when my freinds look back at my life they will know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that it was one life put into no onese hands but my own and that even when i knwo wnothing nerw in my lifre can ever affect me in the way that my past has i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that in the future i will have a new past that could make or rebreak me from the begging once again heartbreak is nothing compared to the breaking of a distirbed heart this is what i want to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) upon this storymy night it has been 22 minutes since i started it is now 1:08 in the morning but i dont want to sleep i have not felt this open since after i was born i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) not of a place that i will go nor to a place that i will understand everything that i shall know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) for whence a night has started it cannot end till a man or alien as stood above his fears of all around him talking hime [me] away from where i would ever go and i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what would make me want to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) but an adventure this late at night would just scare me in a place withpout fright i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) where i want to go i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) where i have been i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) where i shall go beore this tim has ended i want to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) all to happen i want to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what is after even tho i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) i cant i want to understant what will happen i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) yes i do i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what will happen after i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what will happen to me will it just be quite is their more what do i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) the questions are compounding i just want to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what i after life i want to understand why i dont get this antymore what i dont get you why dont you get me anyore you once did why cant you just reson with me that i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) more i just want to shre with you nothing more i wanted to kno how you will deliver with what you haveknow(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) i want you to understand that you arnt chopped liver i want to get to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what i havent know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) i want to get to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what i never will i want to understand what i truly do and carnt what is after all of this i want to comprehend i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that i cantand that is a shame but i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) not fore me in the end i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) for what i do i maty just end it without ever getting it that being the true understanding of how honest i am i want to belive you but i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if i can i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) hat i should trust in you i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that i should but i dont think that i could even if notothing more i would like to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that we are no more i wouild like to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) how we have beomre i would like to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) everafter everafter it is just a time and just a place where i should understand where i am where i am i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that freinds and family would miss me dearly but i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if i can keep back the ride of not know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate)ing i just want to understand it beeen w awhild comong what will hapen to we afeter the balacness has done me in i cant thnk of a rime in my head and it is annoying me plenty and i want to understant everthing withought the end i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if i will try again i need to know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) if my conicuness will continue on or will i keep on thinking ever on ever on i w and to knwow as soon as day break i want o understand that shillings are nothing but a pee break i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that he who is not know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) (god) may be watching from above so i am sorry father for i have sinne i have never know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) what to begin i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that you are true just yo begin but i dont know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) ehre mu talk will end so i must try again now i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) i am truly rambling hopfully these are never found so that i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that your secret is safe with me once again once again ok whence more beast begone from my head no more cuts broses or breaks from yo today to evers end i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that i want to and i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) you body will compliy as everything dose when you beat it promptly i want to speak with you my freind about how i speak i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) that this cant be posted it hold to much in my deeps so i will hjold it within my files and notes and i should delete those photos of trina paradise like rn ok bye by diary? idk but it felt nice for a hour and 20 minutes i hace typed it is now time for a break from this endless plight i do know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) who how much i truly am and i know(i know that i know nothing and that the world is a lie and everything that i do is a lie so if you think im right im wrong and if im wrong then i will always be wrong so just dont read this just do somting better with your life like ummm i do no know erm eat a chocolate) nothing of everything i began