Honey why you crying is everything ok?

To say he doesnt still care for Serena would be like saying the sun doesnt rise in the east, she's still one of the very few people close to his heart and as much as he's been trying to avoid her for the sake of his relationship with Blair he could never turn her away when she needed him. Which was why he was seated on a bench in the park just outside school with her crying in his arms.

His heart breaking just a little more with each sob that escaped her, he doesnt have any idea why she was so broken, he was running home from lacrosse practice when he saw her sitting on the bench, knees under her chin as she stared out at nothing. He walked to her cautiosly and didnt even have to look at her face to know something was terribly wrong, it was only when he put his arms around her when the waterworks started and didnt stop.

Their phones beeped and then his started to ring continuously and he figured Gossip Girl must've posted a picture or something of the two of them in the middle of the park with her wrapped up in his arms, face buried in his shoulder and his lips next to her ears tyring to get her to calm down and he can't bring himself to care about how couple like they may look or what people will think or say, what Blair will do to him or what Dan thinks he can try to do. All he cares about is getting her to stop crying so she can tell him what's wrong and maybe he can help her stop being sad because if there's one thing he hates it's seeing her cry.

"Are you going to tell me whats wrong?" he asked after a few minutes when she stopped crying hard and was now just tearing up every now and then in an effort to get her emotions under control. "Can I just walk you home then?" he asked when she shook her head. He frowned when she shook her head one more time. "I was just trying to be nice S," he said a little bitterly, thinking she didnt want to be seen with him but she should know that Gossip Girl already posted them together.

"It's not that," she said pulling away from his embrace and digging in her bag for a tissue. "Thanks," she said when he handed her his handkerchief and saved her the trouble of emptying her bag just to find the tissues. "I just... I really dont want to go home," she said her voice cracking at the end of the sentence and her hands desperatly wiping at the tears forming in her eyes.

Nate gently reached out and took the handkerchief from her and wiped her eyes carefully so he wouldnt hurt her because with the way she wiped her eyes he was sure it would be raw and painful for a while. "Look I'm gonna take you home with me but I need you to tell me what's got you so upset," he said and she bit her lip and turned away from him, tears forming in her red eye's again. "S did Dan do something? Coz I can kick his ass for hurting you."

Serena laughed as she looked up at Nate, sure he'd been in a few fights protecting his friends but he'd never offer to fight with anyone, he always tried to avoid the violence if he could. "Can I just tell you when we get to your place, I really don't want to cry in the middle of the park again," she said shyly clutching his handkerchief in her hand tighter.

"Sure, lets go," he said standing up and helping her to her feet as well. They walked silently to his house not touching at all, sneaking glances when they were sure the other wasnt looking.

When they finally reached his house he opened the door for her and dropped his bag to the floor before taking off his jacket. He motioned for them to go sit on the couches in the next room because going to his room alone with her would be a little awkward. When they got to the other room it wasnt really such a huge surprise to him finding Blair and Chuck waiting for them. Chuck sat on the couch with an amused expression on his face and Blair stood facing them with her arms crossed and her face set, jaw clenched.

"Do I want to know what was happening when the two of you got wrapped up in each other at the park," Blair asked raising an eyebrow and Nate winced. "Honestly Nate when are you going to realise that you are in a relationship with me not Serena so meeting her behind my back is not acceptable!"

"B," Serena tried.

"I dont want to hear from you, you have a boyfriend leave mine alone," Blair said threateningly before turning back to Nate. "If you're going to see her behind my back then at least do it out of Gossip Girls radar."

"Blair this isnt what it looks liike," Nate said finally and Blair glared at him getting ready to retort when Chuck cut in.

"Lets let the blonds explain," Chuck said smoothly watching Serena as she slid onto the couch and nodded her thanks to him.

"Fine, what's going on?" Blair asked, her face still hard as she sits next to Nate and puts her hand on his knee, letting Serena know whats hers.

"I dont know," Nate whispered when Blair turned to him after Serena looked down at her hands and seemed to be gathering her thoughts.

"Serena I know you love makign things dramatic but I'd like to know what's worng somewhere during the course of the next few hours," Chuck said and Nate glared at him.

"I found a letter from my dad," she finally said, tears making their way down her face again.

"Wow," Blair whispered, her face softening a little at the mention of Serena's father, she knew how touchy the topic was for her.

"Yeah, my mom was hiding it, I found it when I was looking for something in her cupboard," Serena said blowing out a breath and trying her hardest to control her emotions.

"What did it say? Did he tell you where he was or why he left?" Blair asked, the best friend in her reaching out to Serena. The boys sat back and watched not having the slightest clue of what to do.

"It said that he never wanted to see me again," Serena said her voice breaking as she looked up at Blair before the dam walls broke again and her tears became uncontrolable.

Blair walked over to hug Serena and spoke to her softly tryign to calm her down, Chuck and Nate sat back in their seats motionless and clueless, they didnt know what to do or how to act now that Serena told them what was wrong so they let Blair handle it and hoped that they weren't supposed to so anythign more than be there.

It took a little while before Serena calmed down enough to talk to them about wanting to find her father and writing him a letter, when she got no response she assumed he didnt recieve it so she tried harder to find him and reach out to him. That letter her mother kept from her maybe to keep her safe was what she needed to stop the obsession with finding her dad and just accepting the fact that he may have fathered her adn Erik but he doesnt want to be part of their lives, neither does he care.

"Look I know we aren't what we used to be but I'm really happy that you guys are here now," Serena said holding Blairs hands and smiling at them.

"What are you going to tell Dan?" Blair asked glancing over to Nate who's eye's were on Serena and Chuck who was also looking at Serena but not as intense as Nate's which made her frown but she held in her jelousy because of what they were discussing.

"I have no idea, how bad are the Gossip Girl updates?" Serena asked looking up to meet Nates eyes.

"They are pretty bad," Chuck said with a smirk and Blair glared at him.

Serena groaned and leaned her head back onto the couch, her head felt so heavy and her eyes were slightly swollen and sore from all the crying she'd been doing, she didnt realise how exhausting this could be. "I'll just have to tell him and hope I dont cry like I did now."

"I could come with you and judge him like you know he'll be doing to you," Blair said and Serena smiled up at her, the smile dropping when Blair sat on the couch next to Nate with her head on his shoulder.

"I think maybe I should just do this by myself," Serena said dropping her head. "I should go home and change or something, gather my thoughts before facing Dan."

"I'll drop you off," Chuck said standing. "My father is disscussing wedding plans with your mother as we speak, I need to talk to him."

"Sometimes I forget that your parents are getting married," Blair told them.

"Dont remind me," Serena muttered and Nate chuckled earning a raised eyebrow from Blair who like Chuck didnt hear what Serena said. "Bye," Serena said walking out and waiting for Chuck to follow.

"Parents aren't even married and already she's the demanding little sister," Chuck said smirking.

"See you later for the game man," Nate said watchign as Chuck walked out and waved his hand to acknowledge that he heard what Nate said.

"What game?" Blair questioned once the door closed.

"Chuck and i are having a tornament on a game of his choice, so I just have to wait till tonight to find out what that game is," Nate said stretching his arms a little.

"But Nate I had plans for us tonight," Blair complained leaning into his just a little.

"You did?" he asked wracking his brain to try to figure out when she gave him this piece of information.

"Of course I did, I thought we could curl up on my bed with a good movie and talk, you know," Blair said and Nate frowned resisting the urge to sigh.

"Didnt we do that yesterday and the day before that?" Nate asked thinking back to the past few days he spent with Blair and Blair alone, he barely had anytime for Chucks and thats why they decided to have a game night when Nate wasnt going to be preoccupied with Blair.

He felt Blair's body tense and he regretted saying that. "Do you not want to spend time with me?"

"No, no I didnt mean it like that, of course I do, I just havent spent time with the guys in a really long time," Nate said and Blair nodded.

"So spending time with your friends is better than spending time with your girlfriend? You had no problem spending time with Serena," Blair shot out at him.

"Blair this is getting ridiculous, even though things happend with us Serena is one of my best friends," Nate said. "I cannot be blamed for caring."

"Urg," Blair said grabbing her bag and leaving. "Jeez Nate all I want is to be put before Serena for once."

Nate stared at the door after she left completely confused, he was talking to her about hanging out with Chuck when all on a sudden she changed the topic to his relationship with Serena and he doesnt even know how that happend. While his mind tried to process everythign that happend with Blair he decided to give her a day to calm down thinking he'd go to her the next day and straighten out whatever was going through her mind.

Once he got over the shock of Blair walking out on him so abruptly his thoughts turned to Serena to everyhting that happend that afternoon to thoughts of the Sheppard weddign the year before, to everyhting he missed about her and he thought maybe there was something wrong with him because he kept thinking about a girl who was not his girlfriend and he hated himself for it.

A/N hey guys sorry for the wait wroting this chapter was a little hard to do, I am a really hyper and happy person like all the time lol so the few days were I'm kinda depressed or calmed down enough to wrote the drama and angst in this story a few and far apart so again i am so sorry for the wait it should be a loittle better next time because I have a good idea on where the next few chapters are going.

I'm sorry again if the ending is stupid and wrong lol I'm so tired but I had to get this out today otherwise you'd have to wait another two weeks or so, please review and tell me whether or not to change it

Thank you soooo so so ,uch to all the people who reviewed you guys are amazing oh and thanks for the support on the new story "Yes is the word" I'll probably write a few more one shots like that coz the fluff and friendship and fun is more my strong point hehe anyway thanks for reading please please please review!

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