A/N- Sorry it took me so long to get this up, I've been so busy and I am SO sorry! Hope you like my next chapters I'm posting!

Chapter 3- "Here you go, Tsuzuki!" Watari said brightly, handing her a small glass filled with blue potion. "This should have you back to normal in no time!"

Tsuzuki gave him a bright smile, relief evident in her features. "Thanks, Watari! I'm glad I only have to be a girl for a day, and half of it I was asleep anyway so no harm done! Thanks so much!" She quickly downed the potion, glad she had remembered to wear larger clothes so when she changed back they would fit. And she winced as the pain came again, wrapping her arms around her gut before she blacked out briefly, falling to her knees once again. Watari caught her just barely as her head lolled back before he sat her down carefully and grabbed a notebook, taking notes as she changed back into a man.

Tsuzuki groaned as he woke up, blinking blearily.

"It's all good, Tsuzuki! You're back to being a dude! Now it's my turn!" Watari cackled, turning and running off. Tsuzuki blinked again before looking at his hands and sighing in relief when he saw they were back to normal. His hair had shrunk back to what it had been before, which confused Tsuzuki. A side-effect, he assumed. Who knew what Watari put in his potions? They could cause anything to happen, he mused.

He didn't know why he had been so careless when Hisoka had appeared on his doorstep, but he would find out a way to stop him from worrying. He had already been having a bad day when he woke up, Hisoka didn't need to be troubled with his problems when he had just been having a bad day. He was fine. Honest!

He sighed, running a hand through his hair before plastering on a smile and bouncing over to Tatsumi's office.

"Tatsumi!" He cried loudly as he opened the door dramatically. "Watari's going to be using his potion he just made since he changed me back. Just thought I'd let you know we may be dealing with a female Watari for awhile."

"You mean it actually worked? With no side-effects whatsoever?" Tatsumi asked in slight disbelief from over his glasses.

"None that we can see so far, and that's good enough for Watari." Tsuzuki told him happily.

Tatsumi blinked in surprise. "Well then. Putting that fact aside for a moment, are you okay, Tsuzuki? You were quite..." He looked for the correct word. "Freaked out, yesterday. And when did you learn French?"

Tsuzuki grinned sheepishly. "I'm sorry. I was just really surprised and seeing myself look like my sister was a really big shock. And I've always known French. I lived in France for a chunk of my life, and if I'm not mistaken in France it's pretty helpful if you know French." Tsuzuki grinned at him.

"Ah. I didn't know that." Tatsumi said in slight surprise.

"Few people do." Tsuzuki shrugged. "Is there still paperwork to do?" He asked, looking like he was dreading the answer.

"Yes."

"Oh, look at the time-!"

"Here's yours." Tatsumi said with a smirk, handing him a large stack of files. Tsuzuki whimpered as he looked at them with a pout.

"You're evil." Tsuzuki cried out, pointing at Tatsumi accusingly. "Evil with a capital E!"

Tatsumi waved off Tsuzuki's cries as the shinigami left his office. "Yeah yeah yeah. I've heard it all before, Tsuzuki."

Tsuzuki pouted as he sat down at his desk, spreading the folders out over his desk as he scribbled in answers.

Tatsumi picked up the phone as it rang and jumped as Hisoka's voice came over in a deathly calm but obviously irritated tone.

"Where is Tsuzuki?" He asked.

"In his office. Kurosaki, what are-?"

"You have got to be kidding me. He is at work?" Hisoka growled over the line. "I'm going to kill him! I am going to brutally murder him after sending him to a fucking therapist!"

"Kurosaki, what are you going on about?" Tatsumi asked, raising an eyebrow.

"You, Tatsumi, are going to make sure Tsuzuki doesn't leave or teleport out when I get there. Then you are going to make sure no one comes into our office while I am dealing with him. Got it?" Hisoka didn't wait for a reply as he hung up.

Tatsumi blinked before only being mildly surprised when Hisoka teleported into his office. He had a determined look in his eyes as he told Tatsumi, "Go get Tsuzuki and don't say I'm here. We're taking the day off for emotional sickness."

"Kuroaki-"

"Now, Tatsumi. I'm fixing what all of you idiots made worse." Hisoka growled, shoving him out of the office roughly.

Tatsumi, still confused but deciding he wasn't willing to face the younger shinigami's wrath, went to get Tsuzuki.

Tsuzuki obligingly went along and inside, not noticing Hisoka was there until Tatsumi shut the door and locked it.

Tsuzuki blinked in surprise. "Well that was a nasty trick." he murmured with a slight pout on his face. He froze as he saw Hisoka. "Um..." Tsuzuki had a hand over his mouth as he tapped his foot slightly, not sure what he should say.

"You really think that after everything today I'm going to let you go without finding out why you broke down like that?" Hisoka asked him rhetorically, crossing his arms as he leaned against the wall. "Take your time. I have all day."

"I-" Tsuzuki jumped when he felt his mouth shut without his consent. He had just been about to laugh it off, give him a big smile, and say that he was fine. Now why wasn't his mouth working?

Watari, meanwhile, was frowning as he look at his notes, having waited to try the potion. He was now glad about that. If what he read over was correct, it meant he had made the potion not only change your sex, but also made it impossible for you to lie. Whoops. He hoped Tsuzuki wasn't hiding anything big.

Tsuzuki stood there, still trying to make his mouth move to say the words he had always said in these situations.

"Come on, Asato," Hisoka encouraged softly. "Don't you want to get this off your chest?"

'Of course I do,' Tsuzuki thought silently. 'I really do.'

'But you don't deserve it.' The cold voice in the back of his mind told him slyly.

'I know.' He thought with a slight nod, not noticing he had done it for real. 'I don't deserve it. I know. Which is why I won't say anything.'

'You're fine.'

'Yeah. I am.' Tsuzuki thought with a decisive nod.

"I do."

Tsuzuki's eyes widened as he slapped a hand over his mouth and Hisoka carefully keeps his face neutral as he caught Tsuzuki's line of thought.

'Ididn'twanttosaythatw hydidIsaythatwh at'swrongwithmymou thwhydidIsaytha tIdidn'twanttosaythat...' Tsuzuki thought in a panic. 'Sayyou'refineyou'refineTsuzukiyouareTsuzukiyou'refinedon'tthinkotherwiseyou'refine..'

"I really want to tell you." Tsuzuki blurted out, before smacking his face and biting down on his thumb. "And I really want to shut up at the same time and why can't I say what I want to say damn it?" He finally shouted, a slight hysterical note to it.

"It seems Watari's potion had a side effect we didn't count on." Hisoka said after picking up a stray though from Watari who had walked by the office to tell Tatsumi to tell Tsuzuki about said side effect. "You can't lie."

Tsuzuki opens his mouth to say, "I wasn't going to lie!" but what comes out is, "I do that way too often." And he bites his thumb again, not wanting to say that either as he resists the urge to rip out his hair.

"Asato, can you please trust me?" Hisoka asked, almost pleading as he walked over to Tsuzuki, who bit his thumb even harder.

"I do." Tsuzuki said honestly. "I always have."

"Then why can't you tell me this? You know I won't tell anyone. And I can help. I want to help you see how great of a person you are. Can't you give me that much, Asato?"

"It's been a long time since anyone called me by my first name." Tsuzuki said abruptly, looking up from his hands to look at Hisoka. "First names were what good people got to be called by, Luka and Father and Mother always said. And it stuck.

"What people don't know, is that Luka and I were only half-brother and sister. We had the same father, but not mother. Luka's mother died while giving her birth, while my mother lived. My father hated me for that fact."
"He hated that the woman he impregnated lived?" Hisoka asked in slight shock.
"Of course. When the woman he impregnated was his sister, he wanted nothing more then both of us to die. I was his largest mistake."

A/N- Just to clear some things up: Yes, in my story Tsuzuki is the result of a scandalous affair between two siblings. Use that to your imagination all you like, I'm not going to really go into detail about WHY his parents were who they were. It could have been an ongoing thing between them, or maybe just a drunken night. *shrugs* You decide, like I said, I'm not going into detail because Tsuzuki doesn't know. Hope you like the slight twist, I thought it would be a good reason for Tsuzuki's parents to hate him. (he was a representation of their sin, and since they're both crappy people in this fic, they're going to blame Tsuzuki in any way they could and hate him).