Chapter Three
Jen, Anders, and Zev just got back when she heard what the king did Demrim did two weeks before. That was not the only thing Jen had to deal with Anders told her a few days ago, he called off the engagement and wedding with a weak excuse of he still had feelings for Karl. Plus, it made Jen madder that he and Justice were joined together. Anders watched as Jen got wasted it tore at his heart to see her like this since they got back this was the third day Jen stayed plastered they were at the tavern at Vigil's Keep Jen, and Oghren took shot after shot of strong dwarven whiskey this was fifteen round he was thankful that Fergus took the kids for a week before since Jen was way dealing with dark spawns in deep roads. Anders had a mug of ale he looked over at the table that Jen and Oghren where at next he knew there was throwing dagger few inches above his head and he heard Jen slugging her words "dammit it I missed" and Oghren laughing his ass off it was twelfth one she threw at him every time Anders would look in her direction, Anders heard laughter from one of his fellow wardens Zevran looked up from his drink "See Anders that what you get for breaking her heart. Every one of our brothers knows about you and Jen," Anders started to choke on his ale and began to turn pale when he could breathe Anders looked over at Zev "how many know?" Zev shot him wicked smile "the whole order in Ferelden does" then they felt it there was another warden close they both looked up from their drinks there was warden behind the front door of the tavern.
Jen was so drunk she could not feel her face or every inch of her was numb she just laid her head on the table she felt him, and he was close Jen looked up as the front door opened she saw Alistair in her alcohol soaking mind he had just come back from the dead Jen stood up on legs that were made of jelly she made to him she touched his face" Al, you are alive I am Oooooh sorry the evil king and his pet bitch kill the boys and hurt one of your girls, " and Jen started to cry she just passed put . Alistair just picked her up and went over and sat down with Oghren the dwarf just looked up from behind the wall of the shot glass that was in front of him he looked up to see Alistair in his warden armor " by theeee great ancestors you are alive boy," and place his head down on the table passed out on the table and started to snore Alistair looked around at his fellow wardens then he saw Zev in Warden armor as he came and sat down at the table with them he looked at Zev" Maker she made you a warden too." Zev smile at him "at the time me and Oghren and that mage over there "as Zev nodded his head towards Anders "we were only people Jen could trust, now that number is back down to two people since she had her heart torn out once again he nodded his head towards Anders again. Anders felt the ping of jealousy again he made his mind up he would get Jen back and way from that monster Anders heard Justice in his head "She not worth our time" he closed his eyes and told Justice to stay out it and shut up Anders stood up and went over the table went to pick up Jen unconscious body from Alistair he looked down at Jen opened her eyes and looked up at Anders she started to cry again" why Anders the kids love you, and you had bonded with Jess because you both mages." Jen began to cry Anders and Alistair looked at each other with distrust and jealousy Zev sat back and watched as Anders and Alistair were about ready to have a good old fist fight over Jen he went over and took Jen from Anders" come my warden let's get you to bed " Zev left with Jen out cold in his arms as he shut the door he heard it two men acting like they were two years old and were fighting over their favorite toy Zev looked down at Jen and smile " Maker Jen now there are four people that love you he knew was one, and the other was Nate" this is going to be messy." Zev stopped with Jen in his arms and sat down with her and brought her lips to his and he kissed her.
Jen woke up her head it felt like it was lead she reached over to wake Anders to help with her hangover she touched his side of the bed it was cold then dawn her that he moved back to the barracks after he called off the engagement. Jen could have sworn she saw Alistair last night, but she knew he was gone forever from her life. Jen sat up and started to cry she felt arms around her it was Zev "shh my warden it will be alright, " and Zev just held Jen then they both heard it the sound of Jen children running to her bedroom, sure enough the door opened with loud bang that did not help Jen hangover Jen looked at the kids all four stop and looked at their Uncle Zev holding their mommy she heard Zev "see little one's uncle Zev can help with mom too." Al was the first to say something he climbed on the bed touched his mother face it tore a Jen heart he was just like his father "are you ok mommy?" with his father warm smile Jen grab the boy in a hug "I am fine my little warden" next thing Jen knew she had all fours kids had her in dog pile Zev got up off the bed and looked over at Duncan and Al" remember boys after your lesson today me and Uncle Nate need to see your skills as rogues" as Zev left the room he heard Lynn " "mommy we heard there is new warden here can we meet him before combat lesson?" Zev heard Jen say "sure my little warrior."
Within hour Jen had cleaned herself up, and her and the kids were on their way to the dining hall since Jen was at home she changed into light blue floor length dress that was backless Jen carried Jess because she just took her herbs and she was sleeping on her mother shoulder, and Al was on the same side as his sister Duncan and Lynn were fighting with each other Lynn had a play sword and Duncan had two fake daggers. They were playing fighting the Archdemon Jen smile when she heard Duncan telling his sister "I am rouge like mommy and kicked its ass." Jen stop at the dining hall doors "Duncan that is no way to speak young man" he looked up at his mother "I am sorry my lady" Jen had to smile he was Alistair son him, and Al were both like their father when came to be manners they both were chivalrous like him if he could see his son he would be proud of them. Jen opened the great doors the everyone turned and looked at the Commander they knew if Jess were not asleep they would cheer her name, but all they stood up raised a glass to her. Jen went to first table most morning Anders was not there to help her take of Jess, but he was gone she knew it. Jen took her seat the cook came over put the children plates in front of them and the course the they dug right in she knew Jen would eat later her and Jess could eat together she felt the tears in her eyes because Jen had to break to her little mage that Anders was not going to be part of their lives Jess adored Anders she held back her tears because she knew Jess was kind hearted child she would know if her mother was crying Jen knew Jess need to sleep because her health. Alistair watched as Jen and the kids came in the room he wanted to get up and help her Alistair watched the children eat. Jen sat the table and just held Jess, and she did not eat and just held their sleeping daughter in her arms. Alistair stood up and went to the main table he knew Jen was in deep thought he touched her on the shoulder she looked up him with shock.
Jen felt someone touched her shoulder Jen looked up Alistair was staring down at her he even shaved off the bread. Be for Jen could say anything both the boys and were up and in front of their mother Al had his hand on his real steel, and Duncan was had a couple of forks ready to stab who dare to touch his mother. Alistair never felt that proud before at that moment when his sons jumped up to defend their mother. Alistair steps back and smiled and looked down at his son's "Boys I never been so proud until now." Neither one of his son's drop their weapons they just stared at him that when he heard Jess sweet voice but she was sleepy "Daddy?" Alistair looked at Jess and smiled at her" so daddy mage is awake, is she?" Before Alistair could reach for Jess Al was between his sister and Alistair he snarled at his father" prove it sissy is still half asleep I will not let you touch my sister." Alistair stood back "alright my little rogue here is your proof and rolled up his sleeve, and Alistair had his Grey Warden tattoo on his right arm Al dropped his daggers "Daddy? "Alistair smiled down at his son "Hey kiddo good work you should always be a strong man to make sure the women folk are kept safe. Even they if they kicked Archdemon ass," Alistair looked up Jess' eyes were open, and she was smiling at her father Jess reached for him, and Alistair took her from her mother went back to his table Alistair had three other shadows with him. Jen heard Lynn "daddy you shaved that carpet off your face it looks better. You don't look like Uncle Oghren. Next Jen knew she had warden size plate food in front her and she dug into it.
After breakfast Alistair lost each of his children one by one to his rivals Anders came out of his lab was not happy that Alistair was here and he his Jess in his arms he ran up to the group "there you are my special student" Jess smile at Anders "Papa Anders " Jess reached for Anders he took her in his arms as they walked away Alistair watched as they left Jess looked at Anders "why is your eye black and blue papa?" Anders stopped to make sure the king was looking at him smiled at Jess "Papa got into a fight last night, and he has not had time to heal it." Jess told him to stop and to put her down, Alistair watched as Jess' hands turn green then she touched Anders' eye, and it started to heal, and it wore her out Jess' eyes rolled back into her head and Anders was there to catch the little girl it made his blood boil his daughter was calling another man papa then few feet later Zev came out of the shadows and had toy dagger to Al's neck "see my little assassin if that were real blade you would be de…. Before Zev could finish his sentence Al let a jar drop in instead of Al being under Zev dagger he came out of nowhere was on his back "see I can sneak up on you "Zev smiled at the child "Ha way to go my little assassin" with crack another jar both Al and Zev were gone. Before anyone could say a word there was timber wolf on Duncan's chest licking the child and he was giggling "ok Blackfoot I am coming "the boy got up there was other rival Alistair already knew how Nathaniel Howe felt about Jen because the day before his shame of wedding to Anora a wolf came out of nowhere and it pinned him to a wall a ranger came out of the shadows and had dagger to Alistair throat and he snarled at him " How dare you to call her a whore she should be on that throne not a worthless bastard like you this your first and last warning you stay away from her" with a crack of a jar Nate was gone now that same man was smiling at his son. Nate pulled his hood back he also had on warden rouge armor on Nathaniel picked up the child, and they were gone. By the time they made to end of the walkway there was Oghren had two hand axe on his back and he was in warden thick plate mail he smile he knew it hurt Alistair to watch as his rivals run off with his children he looked at Alistair and sighed "look Alistair everyone around here loves those kids as they were their own well minus Nate, and Zev they want to make browning points with their mother well Jen tired find love with Anders but I know that ended badly for Jen it was much worse because ever since that night she came back from the palace he was making outrageous accusations that two of you were sleeping together again, Anders could not believe she even went to palace that night and stayed all night his jealousy grew after he joined with that fade thing it made worse until he broke off the wedding with her and you saw how shit face she got." Alistair looked over at the dwarf "Maker, please tell me you are not going to run off with my other daughter Oghren?" he walked over and smiled at Alistair "that little girl can kick your ass at the sword and shield Lynn show you father how good you are at that technique." Lynn went into the training ground she pulled her long hair back into a ponytail and went over to weapon stand pulled out a real sword and actual shield that was made for her, and Lynn took her stance Oghren looked up at Alistair "she is your carbon copy of you even the way she holds her shield. Meme Alistair what is one of the rules of combat?" Lynn snarled as Oghren walked around the child Lynn began to speak "warrior duty is to slay anyone but we live by the code of the warrior never attack unarmed man or women, and we take care of defending less we have to lead respectful lives" as Oghren stopped in front of child "excellent what is the second rule? "as Oghren walked around Lynn again" if steal is drawn we are attacked but under code of the warrior we cannot pick the fight we have to end one." Oghren looked at Lynn and turned to Alistair and handed him a sword and shield and he said "heads up" and ran out of the ring as Alistair watched as Oghren left he was hit with shield bash by his three-old daughter and Lynn hit hard it took everything to keep him from falling over. Alistair heart leap as he took on his three old then she turned into her mother with taunts " what the matter old man can't take on a child Uncle Oghren told me you are weak and then he heard the cussing it was not common tongue it was in dwarven he heard Oghren from outside the ring laughing his ass off Oghren watched for two hours he whistled " ok little warrior time to rest them to your studies with your brothers and your sister" Lynn bow to her father and smile real big she was sweaty and cover in dirt next thing Alistair knew Lynn in his arms she told him in his ear" well daddy am I as good as you?" Alistair held Lynn in his arms nodded his head at her she got down and ran off. Hours passed Alistair wonder around the Keep until he came to Jen bedroom door he poked his head inside he felt over joy due the fact Jen had laid down she had all four kids around her sleeping body she was on her side and had Jess in her arms Al was next to his twin Lynn had snug against her mother back, and Duncan was next to his twin. That's when the pain hit Alistair he had not been on his lyrium wine for three weeks he went to lay down Alistair closed his eyes and fell asleep thinking about when Jen got pregnant, and he learned that Jen was pregnant and time after that.
It began after they left the old temple and that stupid maze and they got a small pouch of Andraste ashes for some reason after they left that temple they took on the high dragon after it was dead Alistair was turn on now Jen was covered in head to toe in High dragon blood Alistair wanted to bend Jen over and take her there were three problems, one they were not alone and second there was no place where he could make Jen scream out in pleasure and third was they need to get back to Brother Genitivi Alistair hard-on did not help because with his armor it was almost painful to walk as they made their way back throw the old temple. Neither Jen or Alistair could keep their hands off each other as soon as they left the old run down temple they were standing in Heaven every one of those dragon worshipers were dead Jen looked at the group "go and get the others I think this would be good place to rest I have not slept in real bed in months Alistair and me will stay behind to make sure there are no more dragon people floating around and take your time to make sure Brother Genitivi makes it back to Demrim in one piece." as they were out of sight Alistair moved Jen long hair way from her neck started to kiss her neck and whisper in her ear " Maker I am so turned on right now I could pin you to a wall and take you armor and all, just to fuck you until you can't walk my dear wife," Alistair heard Jen talk with lust " why don't we find a place where you can do that my Templar" Jen started to pick the locks on the houses plus she had to deal with Alistair and his hands were all over her exposed skin and every time Jen bent down to pick the lock Alistair was there kissed on her neck and with lust in his voice about what he was going to do her when they final found a house without a blood-soaked altar. As soon as they found one the lock was picked Jen looked in it did not have blood soak altar in the living room, as the door was closed Alistair was on Jen he pin her to the door and started to kiss her by this time they were not an innocent as they once where Alistair knew how to get Jen out her armor and where to touch her that made her scream his name out in pleasure but right now he just wanted to be inside her Alistair took his leg guards off and untied his pants drop them around his legs then off came his smalls they also drop down to his knees he was lucky Jen was in light armor he just untied her pants with a pulled Jen pants and smalls were thrown somewhere behind him. Alistair felt it when Jen warped her legs around him Alistair knew was at her core because she started to moan and since no one was around it made him go mad in lust he rode her while she was pin to that door and the language he heard made it worst " Yes Alistair fuck me harder by the maker Al fuck me harder" Alistair did what he was told rode her hard and fast he felt her climaxed around him that sent him over the edge he went faster and faster he did not feel his own released until after the fourth time Jen was still lost in their passion. Alistair touched his head to Jen's chest the metal felt cold under his skin since he was cover in sweet and Alistair felt Jen arms around him " honey can you put me down I can't feel my legs," he left her body and set her down Alistair went to pull up his pants he looked over at Jen she was still pantsless and was bent over to get his leg guards he felt himself grow again he went over and bent her over the chair and took her again this went on for days by the time everyone was back in Heaven both them swore and worn out and sleeping . Ten weeks later and they were back their camp it was the middle of the night he heard someone getting sick Alistair rolled over, and Jen was gone he shot up off the bedroll and was out the tent he looked over to see Le had a hold Jen's hair she just got done throwing up she paler under the full moon Alistair ran over two of them Jen looked at him next he knew Jen's eyes rolled into the back of her head Alistair was there to catch his wife and carried her back their tent the next morning Wynne was outside their tent " Alistair I heard that Jen was sick is it all right that I come in and check on her?" Alistair sat up Jen was sleeping next to him pulled his pants on "sure Wynne." The old healer came in the tent Alistair pulled Jen hair away from her sleeping face Wynne sat down next to Jen and place her hand on Jen's forehead she cast her magic down Jen body then she instead some sickness Jen was pregnant not with one but six she could feel six tiny souls inside of Jen Wynne looked over at Alistair she smiled at him" Well I think the two of you broke ever law of nature I don't how this happen" Wynne paused she touched Alistair leg " Jen does not have a bug the only the only cure it will take over eight-half months to get over it, " Alistair raised his eyebrow and was confused again Wynne smiled at him" you are going to be a father, Alistair" then it hit him in the face Alistair looked down at Jen place his hand on Jen's stomach and closed his eyes then he felt the taint in Jen then he felt a strong bond with his children Alistair told himself " wait there is more than one in there" he counted 1,2,3,4,5,6 Alistair was going to be a father to six little people Alistair felt Jen hand on his arm Alistair opened his eyes Jen had worried look on her face he heard her speak " Al why are you so pale." Alistair saw blackness he heard Jen screaming his name as he hit the floor of the tent. A few minutes later Alistair felt Jen running her fingers through his hair he looked up at Jen she was the most beautiful. Jen felt Alistair turned his head she felt him crying and grab her around the waist was thanking the Maker he was given this chance after that day. Alistair did not like the fact that Jen was still fighting, but they both knew she still needs to fight they would pack up move off somewhere. After they set camp for the night some reason Jen wanted cheeses before she got pregnant Jen hated cheese now she wanted it all the time Jen was leading against the rolled-up bedrolls she had huge plate of chesse in front of her Alistair watch Jen eat he crawled over to Jen and put his head on her stomach that was his favorite place to be he fell asleep. a few days later he could hear Jen close by due her all day sickness Wynne and Morrigan both with her they told him it happens to every pregnant woman but since Jen got pregnant her sex drive was now on monstrous she used to moan into his shoulder so no one could hear them but now she would scream out pleasure and now Jen like to use her teeth he had bite marks on his neck Jen never gave them time to heal because at night if he were on watch Jen would come out of the shadows barely in any clothes and pull him into the shadows and show him how horny she was.
Last night was one of those nights Alistair was tired, and somehow he was spent even his manhood hurt he could hear Jen swearing as she was puking up her spin "Maker men are evil he told it to me there was no way it could happen, but here I am puking my spin out and here I am caring his children around I over grown oven," blah "when the name Maker did I eat peas I hate peas." "Bleah" Alistair wished he could help her he heard Shale "Man flesh this is your fault you told her she could not bare any children not that weak female flesh is over there getting sick, caring smaller fleshy people around." she walked away Alistair signed and look at the fire pit. He heard his name "Alistair why are you attached to the children once they are born they will go to priestess to be raised" Alistair just took a drink and spit it out he looked over at Sten "in the name of the Maker why would I do that?' Sten sat down "this place is strange to me under the qun children are raised by collective we don't have parents." Sten stood up he looked over at Jen "let's hope she strong enough to bring in them into the world." And Sten stood up and walked away. Alistair stood up and walked over to women Le was on watch she grab a hold Alistair arm "I think that would not be wise because she wants to cut it off and feed it to you" Alistair signed "Jen needs me", next person he ran into was Zev he was hanging upside down from a tree "that would not be wise my friend." As they both heard Jen" It ok Zev he partly to be blamed for this," Alistair came over and sat down next to Jen she got done drinking a tonic that Wynne gave to help her keep anything down she gave him a weird smile she started to turn green again Jen stood up and went over other spot and began to puke again Jen dropped to her knees " Why Maker did you give women all problems when it comes to babies," Jen began to cry. Next, she knew Alistair was there holding her the tonic would make Jen sleepy she fell asleep in Alistair arms he carried her back to their tent he laid down with her and fell asleep with her.
With few weeks, the Jen and her party of misfits made it to Redcliffe castle, and with Andraste ashes, Eamon was wake everyone was sleep that night but Eamon, Teagan, and Alistair. Alistair sat in Arl study for over hour listen to Eamon reasons why Alistair should take his father throne he talk to Jen about it already earlier because she had stripped out of her armor and she had on a simple gown on she was rubbing the small bump for being almost four and half months pregnant she was still small Alistair heard Jen talk to their children "well my little ones daddy may have to leave us to run this country" Jen felt one of them moving under her skin she sighed and looked out the window next thing Jen knew Alistair was there holding her his arms and his hands went around to bump he put his head on Jen shoulder and spoke " love you and kids are my world if I take the throne you and our children will be at my side you as my queen and the just few more months we are going to deal with late night feedings he turned Jen around and looked down into her blue, green eyes he ran his hand down her face and said " I will never leave you my love" he kissed her he snap back when he heard Eamon said his name " Alistair this not time to let your mind wonder off. We need to find you a good wife" Alistair sighed "done," Eamon did not hear him, but Teagan did hear him Alistair looked up at Teagan show his ring finger and nodded his head before Teagan could say anything Eamon said "we need to factor the fact you are warden we need a woman that could bear your heirs." Alistair sat back in his chair "also already done "Teagan looked at Alistair he raised six fingers up Teagan spilt out his drink which got his brother attention "What Teagan, if you have something to say little brother, tell it "Teagan looked at Eamon "I think Alistair already three moves ahead of us right Alistair?" Alistair stood up "thank Uncle Teagan I am already married been about year ago, now and she already pregnant it seems when we got the ashes to save you Uncle me and Jen inhale some of the ashes it appears to block the taint in our blood so we went little wild and she now caring six heirs to the Ferelden throne." Both Teagan and Eamon looked at Alistair with shock.
So the next day Leliana and make a statement about begin wittiness to the wedding and then they called Wynne into the meeting to testified that Jen was pregnant then Jen had to go into the meeting she was embarrassed because she walked into the room there was table in the middle of the chamber there was midwife and estate surgeon on standby Jen wanted to turn around and leave Alistair was there he took her hand " I won't leave you I promise ok" as she got into the room midwife wanted to push Alistair out of the room the attendant looked over at dark curtain because behind that curtain was Eamon and Teagan she sighed and let Alistair stay with Jen for the examination Alistair watch over Jen while they picked and prodded at her skin. Alistair looked down at Jen she was crying he was there kissing the tear away he told her in her ear "I am sorry love" he got mad at people who were making Jen uncountable and snarled at the two of them "Are two of you ass wipes done picking at my wife body, and I know this not right her or for the babies." The midwife looked at Alistair "when the last time you laid on her? "Alistair looked at the old midwife with shock, and he turned three shades of red" What in the name of the Maker is that any of your business?" Alistair felt Jen hand on his face " it's ok to love they want to make sure" he looked down at Jen he could tell what they were doing was hurting her Alistair looked at both of them "she was my first and I was her first and the last time was when this happen" and placed a loving hand on Jen's bump the midwife had heard enough she stood up grab the surgeon" we have listened enough my lady get up and re-dress my lord help her laid down" as soon as Jen was re-dress Alistair was there, and he carried her back to their rooms as he took her Jen fell asleep in his arms Alistair laid Jen down on the bed and let her sleep he kissed her and left the room he headed to Eamon office to give that old hag piece of his mind Alistair heard the midwife in Eamon office " my lord I would make her stay here under my care because she is caring six of them out of the six if she can carry to term they will be fine but sadly maybe because her and wee one's father are Grey Wardens if she goes into earlier labor she lose three smaller ones or all six I never been any situation like this before, but I would like to send word to my sisters because when wee ones come I know I am going to need more hands to help with birth." Alistair pushed open the door "do what it takes to keep her and my children alive." Midwife jump at the sound of Alistair voice. Alistair lead against the door "So does mean we have the support of soldiers of Redcliffe Eamon stood up "yes your highness." Alistair turned around went to lay down with Jen she was sleeping on her side he stripped out of his clothes and laid down next to Jen out his six children there was one who was day time person because that one was always on the move during the day he fell asleep with one his baby moving around under Jen skin, and they touched Alistair hand. Alistair fell asleep.
Alistair sat up now four years later, and two of his children dead and poor Jess health was poor it was because his will was not strong enough fight the blood mage if he was made a Templar before joining the Grey Warden order he could have saved his children and love of his life. Alistair heard Keep clock chime ten times he looked out the window, and it was dark he saw a shadow in the hall from under his door. Alistair poke his head out the door it was Jen she was old shirt it was so old it was almost see through he left his room and followed Jen to Dining Hall and into the kitchen watched the as Jen started to cook he watched she stop and sighed "unless you want a dagger in the eye to leave Maric." Alistair pushed open the door he stutters "I change it back to Alistair weeks ago," Jen back was towards him she put her hands on the cooking table she gripped the table Alistair heard her ask "why?" Alistair found a stool and sat at the table he sighed " I know you talked to Le" he paused " I wanted to see their faces, and I wanted to tell the whole court that they need to stop pushing bitchness and me to have children because I have children with the women I love" Alistair looked up to see Jen back was to him and she was shaking trying to keep him from seeing her crying Alistair stood up and started to talk again " I still love to this day " Jen stop and whipped around and she had tears running down her face " You never love me then or now" Alistair stood up and started to walk towards he heard Jen say as he got closer" If you loved me why in the name the Maker have you fucked half of the Ferelden nobility and few dozen maids who showed you some skin," Alistair stopped he looked down at the floor then it dawn on him that Jen knew about his behavior he turned red and stutter" Jen they met nothing to me the only one I love is you," he started to walk towards Jen again. Alistair could tell Jen was getting scared he kept talking as he got closer for the first time Jen heard her full name in a long time "Jenifer Marie Cousland Theirin what you and I had and could still have we did something special we are the first Grey Wardens that had children together," as he got closer "Jen, you are still my wife and I love you nothing can change that" Jen felt trapped as Alistair got closer she wanted to run, but her legs would not let her they felt like she had thick dwarven heavy plate boots on and they were glued to the floor. Jen heard Alistair talking to her again " Jen I want to have you back in my arms again. I know I can't change the past please love to give me an other chance," Jen looked up, and she had tears running down her checks" We can never go back to what we had Alistair the damage is too great." Jen started to cry harder next thing Jen knew she was in his strong arms and he was also crying she heard him around her "I know I miss them too, but I will try to fix this I swear this by my warden oath." A Jen strength give out she fell to her knees he still held her tight as he went down with her and just held her he lifted Jen chin to make sure she was looking to his eyes" Jen, I love you, and I am sorry" that made Jen mad she tried to push him away but his grip on her was too tight she was upset she was crying he heard her " Sorry is not going to bring Maric and Bryce back and make Jessica healthy" she started to hit him in the chest he just held her as she hit him in the chest Jen felt something hitting her arms Alistair was crying he looked down at Jen" When I find that mage I will make him pay for what he made me do you and the kids but before I ended his life I will get him to stand in front of the Ferelden court and get him to spill his guts and I will bring former charges against bitchness and him then I will cut him half, and I will tell everyone it's against Chantry law for a man to have two wives since we were married long before me and bitchness "with that said he pulled her chin up and looked down into her eyes " then I will put the right person on the throne." Alistair bent down and kissed Jen he broke the kiss and just held her in his arms Jen felt like a massive weight was lifted off her shoulders she just sat in Alistair arms and just cried until she fell asleep in his arms. Alistair carried Jen back to her rooms he laid her down on the bed cover her up Alistair saw other door cracked he poked his head in the chamber. Alistair saw his children both boys had an arm over their twin sister he went over to Jessica and picked up the little girl and just held her. Alistair laid Jess back down with her twin, and he left the room he went over to Jen's bed bent down and kissed her on the head as he turned his back to leave Alistair felt a hand on his arm he looked over to see Jen leading up on one elbow "stay please." Alistair just nodded his head and sat down on the bed and took off his boots and the rest of his clothes Jen sat up pulled her old shirt off and lay back down. Alistair climbed into bed with Jen he grabbed her just held her. Jen back tattoo felt warm against Alistair chest he fell asleep with her in his arms.