A/N: Loving the reviews! I love you sirs, thank you! And disclaimer: I own NOTHING but Ky and plot line.

Chapter 3: So Many Reasons

It had been two days since she had been taken in and Ky paced back and forth in Fushimi's dorm room, trying to ignore that odd noises coming from his room where he had shut himself up in. No amount of paperwork took the bed creaking and the occasional grunts she was hearing. She growled and strode over to the door, ripping it open.

"Saru! You could at least have the decency to go elsewhere with that type of-" She stopped and gasped at what she saw; this was diffidently not what she had been expecting.

Fushimi was bent forward from the headboard of the bed, leaning from side to side as he gripped the controller in his hands and pressed a button that made the zombie on the tv get hit in the head with an arrow, only to have another coming after his avatar.

"You were…playing video games?" She gaped.

He paused the game and set the controller on the bedside table, giving her an annoyed look.

"Tch, obviously. Why do you care anyway?" He frowned.

"I never imagined that you would play video games. You seem so freaking serious and just…formal." She nodded slowly.

"If you know everything about me you know I like playing video games."

"Well I wasn't planning to go through every last bit of your file."

"What do you mean?"

"Well…uh…how do I explain that?" She put a hand to her chin and came over to sit on the side of the bed, staring at the ground. She stayed like this for a while.

"Any day now Ky. If you don't say something I'm going back to my game. You stopped me on a bad level too, you know." He had just bought this game yesterday, the least he should do is get through level 5. He normally would never let anyone know about his secret liking for the games but he knew she would know anyway. He was only angry she had seen him being unprofessional.

"I know! Okay so, you know how crackers and goldfish don't glow in the dark, right?" She raised a brow.

"Just how stupid to you think I am, brat?"

"No, I mean you know that, correct?"

"Duh."

"Well, you know it but you don't constantly think about it. Nor does it just instantly pop into your mind when thinking about goldfish or crackers because you just…know. But if you walked in and saw a goldfish that was in the dark and you wished it was glowing because of the poor visibility you'd think "I know goldfish don't glow but it amazes me that in this dark lighting it doesn't." right?" She felt she was really explaining this horribly.

"No, I honestly wouldn't. I'd get a damn flashlight, feed the damn fish and do my paperwork. But don't worry; you got your point across. You knew I liked the games but you didn't think about it and you didn't expect to ever see me playing them due to my personality, I understand. Now shut up, you're too noisy." And with that he picked up the controller and resumed playing his game, quickly beating the level.

Ky simply shrugged and went to sit in his office chair a few feet away, spinning in it as she watched him. Well, after she beat him in video games maybe he'd like her more. But then again he never really liked many people, just Yata.

Speaking of which, there was still that to think about. She had wanted so badly to help him and she had been very willing. But she had her reasons and it wasn't just because she was trying to please him. At that moment she went into a flashback.

In the back ally of HOMRA, a year ago summer time:

She had fallen again, hit her head on the dumpster and landed flat on her back with Yata standing over her.

"You really suck at this you know, you gotta try harder!" He helped her up and handed her a baseball cap she used to wear, dirt staining it.

"You're the one who can't explain things correctly! Who the hell says "You go bam then you flip it and then you're sailing!" No one can take direction like that!" She huffed, embarrassed.

"I do. And shut up, you're the one who keeps falling like an idiot. By the way, the reason you keep falling is that." He pointed to the untied shoe lace of her black converse shoes and chuckled.

"You could have told me sooner, man." She knelt down and tied it then stood up and jogged over to join him as he sat on the curb, drinking a soda.

"Figured you knew. And you're welcome. Either way you just need practice and you'll get better. Not as good as me but…" He laughed as he joked and handed her the soda to have a taste, avoiding the elbow she gave him to playfully shove.

"Thanks Yatagarasu." And with that she went to take a sip and pulled the can back from her lips when something blocked the sweet drink from coming to her mouth. A huge cicada sat on the can.

"Disgusting!" She growled and threw the can at the brick wall across from them and it cracked.

Yata "hmph"ed and nodded.

"Yeah, I didn't see that, sorry."

"It's fine, sorry for throwing it."

"It's okay…" Yata was silent after that, his eyes a bit glassy. And of course Ky instantly knew why.

"Tell me about him. Who is he? This…"Saru"?" She furrowed her brow.

"O-Oh right, y-you knew. Well…don't you already know?"

"Not really…since I've never spoken to him I know nothing about him. I only know what you know or are thinking but your feelings are so mixed up I'm finding it incredibly hard to gain access to your files…" Files were what she called 'thoughts' or what people 'knew'.

"You are finding it hard?"

"Yes. And I know why…because you yourself, Yata, find it hard…you don't know what you think about him…and yet at the same time you are pretending you do. So tell me about him." She waited as he sighed and took off his black beanie hat, tossing it to the side and letting his chestnut hair fall in his face.

"Well, he and I were friends since middle school. I remember when I first saw him, alone at lunch and picking out things he didn't like from it. He hated vegetables it looked like. I thought I'd go and sit with him…not like I had anyone else. He seemed pretty unapproachable but he let me sit and I offered to eat his veggies. In return he said he'd drink the milk I didn't like. That's how we became friends…I was...shorter then. And yeah, that was possible. Anyway, I got picked on sometimes and he wouldn't stand for it. He'd beat them or fight them off with a bored expression then drag me off somewhere safe. He'd tend to my wounds or make sure I was okay until I would tell him to back off. He would. Then we'd usually go to my place and play video games or go hang out on the streets.

Our parents never cared that much…anyway one day we were offered a spot in HOMRA after I threw his can of soda from how bad it tasted, kinda like what you just did." He looked over at the abandoned bottle.

"Really? Where is he, I kind of want to meet him? He sounds nice." She smiled.

"He wasn't what you would call a warm person. And you can't, he's not here anymore." Yata frowned, looking away.

"Oh. Is he…?" She bowed her head and Yata gasped, throwing his hands up.

"He's not dead! Trust me, I'd know." He rolled his eyes then.

"Then where is he?"

"He's at Scepter 4 now, third in command. He told me years ago that he had joined it…he'd betrayed HOMRA and done that type of thing! He left. And had the nerve to insult Mr. Mikoto; our pride too!" With that he pulled down the front of his shirt to show HOMRA's insignia on his collarbone, other hand lifting her's to show the symbol she obsessively drew every morning and every night. Even if it wasn't real, it was real enough to him. He had never offered her a spot in HOMRA. No way would he let a girl get the possibility of death. Never let ladies get threatened…that was his motto…Anna was a different story, she wouldn't leave Mikoto. They never had her fight.

"Why did he go?"

"Said he wanted to be more in life that a "gang banger". That bastard. And so I promised to kill him. I'm the only one who should be allowed to do that….I hate him." Yata's aura had grown around him as he told the story, causing Ky to scoot back a bit. But at the same time, she could tell he was lying when he said "hate". He didn't hate this man…far from it…

"Oh. Well…I'm sorry. Do you guys still talk?"

"Sadly…he never goes. He's always here, I feel like he stalks me, suffocates me damn it. There's always some instance where we end up meeting and battling. He just smiles creepily and urges it on until I can't take it anymore! I have to try! Gotta try to keep my promise about the monkey.." Yata was quieter now.

Ky just sat there, finally understanding more. But she liked this "Saru". In a way, she respected him…Never had she heard someone going this far. It was obvious what was going on. To be protective, to want more in life, to still "always be there". "Stalking". It was obvious. And so the more she hung out with Yata the more she learned about Saru, asking different questions, coyly starting conversations. Then one day she had seen it.

A small reflective light on top of a building they were near. It was behind Yata and when he pulled away to check his cell phone she had looked up and for a split second saw a man with cobalt hair and black glasses; pale skin. But that second was fast and as soon as he had appeared he was gone in a blur. She never saw him again. But she knew…she knew who it had to be….there was no other logical explanation…it had to be Saru. And not an hour later Yata came back to the HOMRA bar with a cut on his arm which was causing blood to get on his shirt. Not a lot but enough for Kusanagi to question it. Yata just grumbled something about a "damn bastard monkey" then went to clean up. Coincidence? She didn't think so.

Back in the Present

"Hey brat, did you hear me?" Fushimi was sitting up now, glaring at her.

She gasped, being pulled back to reality.

"H-Huh? Oh yeah, sorry, I was just lost in thought." She rubbed the back of her neck.

"I can tell. I said to go to the bathroom and fix yourself up. Once I beat this boss level we're going to go train."

"But what if the zombies come after us?"

He rolled his eyes.

"You're funny, now go." He pointed.

She half smiled then went to the bathroom and shut the door. She knew perfectly well why she had wanted to help. First, she knew both him and Yata at that point and she knew they could not go on like this. She knew that both wanted more but were hiding behind hate. That was plain…Also, even if she tried to hide it, she deeply respected her superior.

Saru was like no one she had met and she liked that. He had a way of getting things done quickly, he was devoted to his work, and most of all there was that hint of caring that made her look up to him. He was professional, cool-headed, and cared about nothing. But he had helped Anna that one time, a little girl stuck between machinery. He had walked away muttering about the "annoying little girl" then turned, growled, and ran back to help her, using all his strength, wearing himself out, going against the Lieutenant's orders, helping the enemy…doing everything he could to save her. Afterwards he pretended it was nothing. But it was things like this that made Ky respect him and want to be like him. It was pure coincidence that he had picked her but after thinking about his proposal it was her turn to help him and Yata. This was why she had agreed.

"Ready to go?" He called, monotone.

She sighed then came out, standing straighter and nodding once.

"Yes sir."

A/N: Longer chapter, yay! I hope this explained some things. ^^ Also I'm glad a few more people are reading this, its great when that happens! Thanks sirs! Anyway, please review it's only helping and thanks to you sirs that are. I must go write the next chapter so…see you soon! ^^