"excited for this thing or what?" Jay joked, laying next to Emma on the ravine vans floor.
Emma just laid there, hair sprawled around her head as she laid on her back, her shirt a little raised by the make out session with Jay and she seemed to of gotten more today then him... it's been wierd, lately he's been all about just pleasing her.
Whatever though.
"Or what." Emma numbly replied.
He chuckled and nodded and then cornered his eyes as her. Should he ask it? He was pretty curious... did she still have feelings for him?
"Gonna be awkward with vampire freak and Bam Bam there too." Jay said and tried to slide a joke in, "When are we gonna find the time to sneak around?"
Emma's heart seemed to pound at the mention of Sean and Ellie. And she means she just felt one awful heavy pound on her heart, like someone had punched it.
She turned her head to Jay, and had to ask, "Why are they going? Thought they were happy." she seen them together, Ellie always smiling like a hopeless idiot like Emma use to when Sean fed her those promises and gave those 'love me' eyes too.
Sean was a real heart throbber...and a damn good heart breaker too.
Jay seemed to frown, noticing how dazed Emma looked as soon as he brought them up. He wondered if Alex even felt that way about him, glowing when she thought of him... pfft, probably not, who was he kidding?
Jay didn't know he wanted to hurt Emma now, or begin to tell Emma this, "They're pretty happy. In love and all that sappy shit." he said.
Emma's dazed eyes slowly turned back to numb.
"Living together.." he drifted, each word grilling into her painfully more and more, "probably doing the dirt." he smirked.
Emma seemed to look as if something popped into her head, and she sat up, tossing her hair to the other side and bit her lip thinking about it before turning and crawling over Jay.
"Oh..." he chuckled, gripping her hips and loved that she was wearing a skirt.
Her stomach turned a bit, feeling his hard on pressed into her middle through his jeans but then whimpered and moaned as he moved her hips to grind against it and feel it.
"You want it, Em?" Jay asked, sitting up a little to whisper in her ear and try to make her say yes.
Emma's eyes looked sad, but she nodded but her hands on his chest? He could feel them shaking.
He slowly nodded back at her, well unbuckling his jeans, and giving her a look as if he cared about her virginity and he'll take it easy on her.
She pulled her shirt off, since being at least use to that with him, but when they finally laid naked, all clothes pealed, she hated the intimacy of it as his hands ran up and down her smooth tanned arms and he gazed over her naked body on top of him with desire.
She just wanted it over with. The guy she planned to lose it to, already lost his, so lets get it over with. EMma felt herself begin to want to cry and shook her head, snapping out of it and told her mind to shut up.
Jay understood she didn't want this, long glances thing.. he just couldn't help but admire her shape and geez..her breasts were perfect. Girl should consider nude modeling..she was not the flat chest she use to be...damn. He got harder, and she felt it between her legs and bit her lip so hard she was so she drew blood and she gripped his shoulders as he positioned her and started to move in.
Emma cried out after she tried hard to grit her teeth and bare it, but it hurt. She cried out, and felt like maybe a bit of the sadness cried out too when she did that cause tears trickled down her eyes.
Jay noticed it, and sat up, knowing these tears were about Sean andnot just losing her virginity, "Shh." he said and wrapped his arms around her waist as she sniffed, and nodded. She appriecated his small attempt at making her feel better. She then nodded at him and wanted him to go as she felt read and he moved, sliding in and out slowly until she didn't want slow and pushed him back down on his back and went a bit harder.. even though it hurt like hell but she did find herself getting off on it.
"Ohhhfuckohfuck." groaned Jay, eyes shut tight and then up, hungerily, watching her guide on top of him. First time and she was even in control.. how funny.
When they collapsed, Jay seemed to of come hard and Emma just panted.. she felt it a bit and as good as it felt, it never came. Jay figured he came before her cause she was so goddamn tight.. maybe he'd get her next time.
"Good?" Jay asked her as she crawled off and seemed to be snuffling again, trying to hide the fact she was crying again. He resisted rolling his eyes. "Em, next time wont hurt as bad."
"I know." Emma insisted, nodding and threw her shirt on.
That wasn't what she was crying about.
Was it bad Jay knew talking about Sean's sex life may of made Emma want to make hers exist? Jay would never say that out loud though and he began to dress too.
Meanwhile, Sean was up all night, not one ounce of sleep. She was out there wasn't she? With him. Sean didn't want to think of it, but he knew Jay wouldn't be staying around Emma long if she wasn't giving him something back..and that made him want to puke.
He turned on his back, and Ellie was passed out beside him. They hadn't even done it... sure they've fooled around but only girl he had sex with was Amy which was right after Emma when he felt like he was losing it, lost her and he completely regretted it.
Sean sighed, trying to close his eyes, but he knew he wouldn't sleep.. this? Plus the nightmares of Rick? He wasn't gonna get any shuteye now.
I know you're fine, but what do I do? I'm awake, and trying
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
While you're sleeping like a babe
Beside him
I'm on the ledge while you're so
God damn polite and composed
And I know you see me,
And you're making it look so easy
What comes and goes,
I'd go without
"Are we all here?" Snake asked, standing on the bus as he followed the last person up.
Craig fell into a bus seat that happened to be also Emma's. They may not talk much anymore but they shared a silent agreement by just looking at another nodding that they would stick together through this.. I mean.. look who the people they were stuck with?
Ellie sat more near the back and she cuddled with her bags and a Sean next to her. As oddly delighted she looked right now, he seemed completely miserable.
"Missing Jay Hogart." the bus driver to Snake
Snake frowned, but nodded when he saw Spinner snooring away near the front. Least he was here.
They waited another 10 minutes til Jay was escorted on the bus by Suave and when Sean got glimpse of him, he tightened his jaw trying to look away and hide his anger.
Jay smirked, catching Emma's eye as he passed but stupid fuckin Manning was sitting down next to her. He noticed Sean though and went to sit in the seat beside him until the bag roughly got put down there. Jay narrowed his eyes to see Sean hinting wildly that he could not sit near.
Looking like a guy not to fuck with today, Jay decided not to touch it and slowly walked back up the bus and just sat near Spinner. What was up Sean's ass?
He couldn't... Jay glanced at Emma, who seemed normal. No, Sean couldn't know or Emma would be acting differently too. So what was it?
"alright, here we go." Snake said and the bus started. He wanted to be the one to go with them, since after all Emma was like his daughter and he promised Spike he'd see her all the way to her new room for the next 6 weeks.
The 6 kids looked dreadful as the bus drove it's way to Henry Institution Hospital.
Well now there's him, I know you're fine, but what do I do?
And now there's me
The secrets you give
And the secrets you keep
And nevertheless
It's never you let
The more that I give
And the less that I get
Don't tell me to fight,
To fight for you
After this long, I shouldn't have to
I know you're fine, but what do I do?
I'm awake, and trying
While you're sleeping like a babe
Beside him
I'm on the ledge while you're so
God damn polite and composed
And I know you see me,
And you're making it look so easy
What comes and goes,
I'd go without
(marianas trench_fallout)