A/N Not too sure whether to continue this or not, I don't have any reviews and I think I only have one person who has requested update alerts but I'll see how this next chapter goes and hopefully somebody likes it as much as I enjoy writing it :)
Carly's head swung round to face Spencer whose expression immediately conveyed concern as soon as he saw her tear stained face and bloodshot eyes.
Sam knew she had to say something and in true Sam style she came up with a lie in a heartbeat, "Carly has really bad girl cramps and she's embarrassed to tell you about it, she needs painkillers and a hot water bottle Spencer"
Spencer felt his face burn as he blushed at the thought of his little sister's womanly goings on, "Uh, sure, you should have said so Carly, uhm, I'll go to the store and get you some aspirin and stuff" he said hurriedly as he exited her room. They heard him thump down the stairs and the front door slam.
"Thanks Sam" Carly sounded relieved, "I couldn't have told him then, you know... just like that, I need time to think about this, you know?"
"Sure. Are you going to tell Griffen?" Sam asked, making a conscious effort not to laugh when she mentioned his name. Carly sighed and swept her hair roughly away from her face as she contemplated the question, "I haven't even thought about it Sam, I just... I just have so much on my mind"
"When did you even, you know, have sex with him?" Sam almost sounded embarrassed as she asked the question.
"About 6 weeks ago" Carly started, "I found one of his dumb pee wee babies in the apartment, it must have been from when the air con went down and he brought them all over here...anyway, I went to return it and we began to argue about how it was dusty or something and, well, I don't even know how it happened Sam, we ended up kissing and it got out of hand and, well, you know" Carly felt herself cringe as she thought of the event itself.
"What was it like?" Sam asked in a curious whisper as knowing that it was probably an inappropriate question to be asking at a time like this.
Carly thought about the question for a moment. It hadn't been the fun everyone cracked it up to be, it was painful, awkward and wasn't the steamy romantic vision she had conjured up in her head when she had imagined her first time. In fact it was the polar opposite of that.
"It was so awful that I've been trying to forget about it Sam, it's why I didn't tell you before, I just wanted to pretend like it had never happened, you know, like be a virgin again" Carly admitted, "But now I have a permanent reminder" She could feel the tears welling up in her eyes again as she placed her right hand lightly over her abdomen.
"Did you use protection?" Sam enquired.
Carly let out a laugh of exasperation, "Do you think I'd be in this mess if I had?" she shook her head to herself, "Honestly Sam, I didn't plan to go over to his to do that and it was over before I knew it, I wasn't even sure he had, you know, done it properly".
Sam pulled a face at the thought.
"You can't tell anyone Sam" Carly suddenly pleaded with her friend, her eyes begging as she started at Sam.
"Of course I won't" Sam replied.
It was funny because if it were the other way around, if Sam were pregnant instead of Carly and making a fuss about nobody finding out, Carly would be going crazy, going on about responsibilities and all sorts of sensible pearls of wisdom. But it wasn't the other way around. It was this way around.
The girls sat in silence, Carly tried to think about anything but the baby but her mind always wandered back to it. How was she going to tell Spencer? Griffen? Freddie? DAD? Oh fuck, would dad come home from the submarine? fuck, fuck, fuck...
"I need to get an abortion" Carly suddenly broke the silence, "Nobody would have to know" she continued. She sounded eerily calm about what she was saying but her eyes were wide like an animal in the headlights.
"Are you sure Carly? Don't you think you need to thi.."
"I'm sure Sam" Carly interrupted, "I'm just not ready for this, least of all with Griffen"
Sam looked at Carly and searched for emotion on her face; there was none. "Carly, you can't make a decision like this in a snap like that" Sam found herself lecturing Carly which felt very unnatural.
"I've made up my mind Sam, will you cut school with me and come with me to Planned Parenthood tomorrow if I make an appointment?"
Sam felt a little uncomfortable but decided that she needed to be there to support Carly, no matter what her decision was going to be, "Cut school? Sure, count me in" Sam tried not to sound too excited at the prospect.
"Thanks" Carly said quietly back to Sam.
"Look Carly, I need to go, my mom and I have therapy in a half hour, call or text me if you need to talk though yeah?" Sam stood up and embraced Carly before giving her a sympathetic smile.
Spencer arrived back just as Sam left, "Got your lady essentials" Spencer crowed as he held up a plastic bag in front of himself.
"Huh?" Carly mumbled confused before remembering the lie Sam had told earlier, "Oh yeah, thanks Spence" She took the bag from his hand and looked inside, there was pain killers, various sanitary products , some magazines, candy and a dvd.
"I thought you and your friends could have a night in with a movie since you're not feeling great today" Spencer beamed.
He was so good to her, there was no way she could ever let him down by admitting that the 'women's problems' weren't exactly what he thought and that she had actually made the worst decision of her life and was potentially going to make him an uncle. Instead she pushed the thought to the back of her head and smiled back at him, "Thanks but I think I'm gonna have an early night" she said truthfully, "We have iCarly tomorrow night and I don't want to be sleepy or ill for it"
"Sure kiddo" Spencer said as he left the room.
Carly lay on her bed in the dark staring at the ceiling. She felt like she was somebody else, like this wasn't happening to her, it was happening to some other stupid kid. But it was her. She was the stupid kid. Just another pregnant teen.
A/N: So there we go! Please review, I'd like at least 1 review on this! Before anyone mentions it, I know Freddie hasn't been in the story yet but remember that this first bit has just surrounded a single day so far!