It had been a long shift Derek decided going into the elevator. He missed his house, his room, his bed. He missed Meredith. His Meredith. He let out some of the much needed stress with a sigh as he made his way out the lobby of Seattle Grace Hospital and into the parking lot. He didn't think he could make a 30 minute drive from the hospital to his land without at least a half hour nap. But he needed to. He wanted to lay next to Meredith to sleep to be able to hold her while she slept. It been 3 days. Days without laying in his bed. Yeah he got a nap of 20 minutes between the burn victim and the infant that had fallen out of the car chair. But he hadn't been in his bed for 3 full days. More the his irritation he hadn't slept with Meredith either. And making love. God he could remember the last time he'd made love to his wife. The last time they've been able to get together for some time left them with a very fast, very pleasureless encounter about a week ago.
Driving into the main road he thought more optimistic. This would all be over in a couple of weeks. This was the season of new interns, people doing stupid brainless stunts. The endless paper work that came in with each and every one of the new staff members of the hospital. In a couple of weeks he would take a weekend off and let Sloan or Hinton cover for him. They needed this, the weekend getaway to some remote inn where it was calm. And no interruptions for sex. Lots and lots of sex. Besides it would be nice the last time the had gotten away before taking the responsibilities of his new job was for their honeymoon. And well he wanted to do something romantic for Meredith. She needed it.
Derek smiled at the thought of how strong Meredith was. Of all that had happened a year ago and he couldn't help but still feel guilty. Guilty about what he did and of all the pain that it had caused Meredith. He tried he really did to make her happy. He gave her the status she needed and the house with the cars and the love. But he knew that she needed attention. The attention of her husband, the man she had married 3 years ago. Meredith had been awesome when tragedy had struck their married life last year. He had been an idiot. Soon, soon it would be time to get away and show his strong breathtaking Meredith how much she meant to him.
Even when they had their downs Meredith was always the one giving in. For a girl that had been so closed to love 4 years ago she had transformed into this easy to get along with wife. Not that Derek missed the fight that lasted days but he missed the way those fights showed she cared. Obviously he knew deep did she cared. Or at least he wanted to believe that. After all that happened 5 years wasn't enough time to live and make everything up to each other. They needed forever. But Derek knew. He knew Meredith was running out of patience or love. He hoped to god it was patience and not love because without Meredith Derek was lost.