"Oh hello, Shuu, you know what? You'll be a daddy!", "Hisagi Shuuhei, we need to talk. You see, I'm pregnant", "Well I was just thinking Shuu, what if we were to have a sweet little Shuu Junior here?"… Everything seemed not good enough. Or it was me that had too little courage to tell him. Yes, I am pregnant. Yes, I am a man. How is it possible? Unohana says it just so happens that sometimes a male soul that is born to Soul Society may have the ability to conceive. The chances are like 1:1000, so actually quite big,, but there aren't many souls who are really born, so there aren't many that are like me. That's why it's so hard to tell him that I'm such a weirdo.

"Um… Shuuhei…", Kira felt his throat go suddenly dry when he entered Shuuhei's office.

"Yes? Oh it's you Kira. Is it anything important? I'm quite busy", Shuuhei said on one breath, putting some sheets of paper in a cardboard box and closing it. He seemed to be in a hurry.

"Hisagi-fukutaicho!", someone yelled from the outside.

"YES! GIVE ME A MINUTE!", Shuuhei replied, taking the cardboard box with him and leaving the office. Kira was still standing next to the door.

Shuuhei returned, placed a soft kiss on Kira's cheek and said he could stay in his office and wait for him if he wanted. And then he was gone.

Kira exhaled. Inhaled. Exhaled. Inhaled. Calm down, you idiot, calm down. He then sat on one of the armchairs that were placed here for the guests. It was soft and warm. The office smelled like Hisagi… and the sun was already setting. It was such a nice evening…

Kira closed his eyes, relishing in the warmth.

"Izuru?", he heard. He almost jumped. He was still sitting in the armchair in Hisagi's office.

"Oh, Shuuhei… you scared me", he said with a yawn. "Did I fall asleep?"

It was already dark outside, the whole office was quiet.

"Yeah", Shuuhei replied, grinning, "Sorry for having left you here for so long", he added, embracing Kira. "Let's go home."

"Yeah, let's go", Kira replied with a smile and stood up. Too suddenly. The world swirled around him and he could only feel strong arms catching him in mid-air.

"Izuru? Izuru, what's up? Have you been to the 4th? What did they say? Are you all right?", Hisagi kept asking frantically, dragging Kira to lay him on the couch. He kneeled beside him, stroking the blonde's forehead.

"I'm okay, Shuu", Kira said in a low voice when the world stopped spinning. "I just stood up too suddenly…"

"Shall I fetch-…"

"No, don't bother the 4th, I'm all right, I already told you that. Let's go home", Kira tried to sit up, but Shuuhei stopped him.

There was a long period of silence. They looked each other in the eyes, demanding explanation.

"You're worried, huh?", Kira finally asked. He didn't want to admit it even to himself, but there was that slight chance that maybe Hisagi wouldn't accept things the way they were. That he would leave him all alone. That all this wasn't a serious matter, they weren't engaged or anything after all…

"Fuck, of course I'm worried. Kira, what's happening?", Hisagi asked, his voice suddenly stern and demanding.

"Then why are you distancing yourself, Hisagi-sempai? It isn't helping you know", Kira murmured before he stopped himself. He slapped himself mentally for that, but it was too late.

"What… you… Kira! It's you who's distancing yourself now! You're hiding an important matter from me, even though you know I'll try to help! Like I always do!", Shuuhei almost shouted, grabbing Kira's hand and squeezing it so tight that Kira thought he would break his fingers. "I love you, dammit!"

"Shuu…"

"Don't Shuu me now!", Hisagi spat and hugged Kira forcefully, pressing the blonde's face into his chest. Kira clung to his robes. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. It's so difficult. I'm just so worried about you that it drives me mad."

Kira felt tears welling up in his eyes and soaking the front of Hisagi's robe. He was glad his face was hidden. There was no way he would be telling Hisagi now. He was not in the right mood. Hisagi was neither. The brunet let go of his head. "Sorry, I'm such a girl. I'll go to the 4th now. Have a good night", Kira managed a small smile. "And… just give me time, ok?"

With those words, he left, leaving Shuuhei still kneeling beside the couch.