-1Chapter 2 Responsibilities

Hotch had a feeling it was coming, sending Emily and Penelope after her he looked at the rest of his team. The sad part of all this is that they had already been through this once with him when Haley died only six months ago.

"She wants to see him I don't think this is really going to set in until she does. I'm going to call the police chief. I am hoping it's the hospital we are taking her to not the morgue"

"What about Cate?"

Reid was the first to ask what they were all thinking.

"She is at home with Sara. I didn't get much farther with her before she ran out of the room."

Emily and Penelope knew where to find JJ before even looking. They walked into the ladies room to JJ splashing cold water on her face. There was this disconnected look in her blue eyes that neither of them had seen before.

"Hey sweetie," Garcia started willing her own tears to wait.

"Hey," JJ looked at them with tears starting to form but she refused to let them fall. She looked at Penelope, "Can you and Reid please go stay with Cate? I need to know she is safe with you so I can try to sort this out. You can take my car so you have a car seat just in case."

"Whatever you need sweetie."

Penelope and Emily followed JJ to her office. JJ silently dug through her purse retrieving keys and handing them to Garcia. She said nothing just sat down at her desk staring at the family photo of her, Will, and Cate that had been taken only a few weeks ago.

Garcia pulled Emily out of the room, "She is freaking me out."

Emily put her hand on Penelope's arm, "She is in shock. It hasn't hit her yet. You and Reid take care of Cate and we'll take care of her. We'll meet you at JJ's in a little bit."

"She is going to be ok right?"

Garcia was not good at this part she needed Emily's reassurance and strength.

"We're all going to be there for her. Okay isn't going to come for awhile but it will eventually"

At that Garcia walked away in search of Reid. She found him and Morgan in the bullpen quietly talking.

"How is she doing?" Morgan asked.

"She is numb. I don't think I have ever seen her like this. Reid she wants us to stay with Cate until she comes home."

Reid walked out of the bullpen towards JJ's office. Garcia knew he needed to make sure she was alright before they left. With only Morgan there Garcia's tears fell freely for her friend who was hurting so badly. Morgan just hugged her because that was all he could do.

Emily knelt in front of JJ taking her hands, "Sweetie do you need anything?"

JJ looked at her wanting to break down but she just couldn't yet, "Just don't go."

"I'm not going anywhere, none of us are."

"I need to see him myself because this doesn't feel real. I can't wrap my mind around it."

"I'm pretty sure Hotch is figuring that out right now."

At that point Reid walked in and Emily decided to step out so they could have a moment.

"Hey"

"Hi"

He hugged her tightly because at that point there were no words for what she was going through.

"I can't do this yet," she whispered.

"I know and that's ok."

"Will you go with Garcia to Cate please?"

"Of course, anything you need."

Emily watched as Reid and Garcia got on the elevator as Hotch, Morgan, and Rossi walked towards her.

"We're ready if she is," Rossi said.

"Please tell me we are going to the hospital, I don't think she can handle the morgue," Emily told them.

"We're going to the hospital, the police chief was just about to come here to see her but seeing as she wants to see Will it isn't necessary." Hotch said back to Emily.

"Are we really sure this is a good idea?" Morgan voiced the one thing that they had all been thinking.

"It isn't up to us it is up to her. All we can do is be there to catch her when she falls," Rossi replied silently agreeing with Morgan that this wasn't a good idea.

None of them noticed that JJ had been standing in the doorframe of her office listening to their whole conversation. She couldn't help thinking maybe they were right but it just didn't feel real. She knew she needed to do this not knowing what her reaction would be. Right now she was just numb, she didn't feel strong and confident like she normally did right now she felt weak and vulnerable.

Taking a shaky breath she decided to make herself known, "I'm ready."

They all turned in shock each silently cursing themselves for not noticing that she was there.

"JJ…." Emily started but only to be cut off by her.

"Please can we just go?"

It was more of a statement than a question because JJ walked toward the elevator. They all followed suit with her. As she went to push the elevator button her hands were shaking so badly that she couldn't push it. Morgan reached over pushing the button with one hand while taking her hand in the other. JJ was grateful she didn't like the feeling she was having. When she looked up at Morgan none of them liked what they saw. The light that was normally in her fiery blue eyes was now gone and replaced with this vacant look that none of them had ever seen before.

A/N: Sorry for the inconsistant scenes in the last few chapters everytime I post I learn new things about editing. Thanks for all the story alerts and reviews they help to keep me writing :) The next few chapters will be intense as we see JJ's grief, but you got to get through the tough stuff to get to the happy sometimes...