OMG now it's a LEMON! I blushed furiously writing this scene LOL
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Snowflakes were still falling when they arrived at Gray's house. Gray turned to look at Natsu and gulped. Oh shit, what have I done now? Natsu even looked as confused as I am! "N-Natsu, as you can't be at your place tonight you can stay here for the night." Gray spoke, trying to sound as nonchalant as possible. Natsu, however, didn't seem to mind and nodded. As they walked towards the door, heaven appeared to have played a prank on them causing Gray and Natsu to trip. The pair both pitched forward into the slushy snow and ended up crashing into another pile of snow. Gray was lying on top of Natsu's body, their heads were touching and so were their lips. Gray's eyes widened as he realized what had happened. Fuck . . .. I'm getting hard. Gray stared at Natsu who shared the same shocked expression. Gray stood up, breaking the kiss with Natsu; the front garden of the house became covered in an awkward silence. That f-f-f-felt g-g-g-good, fucking nice, after all these years . . .. I've finally done it.
The silence resided in the zone for several more minutes until Natsu broke it by saying, "I-I-I'm cold." Which at that moment was reasonable judging by the fact they have been laying in the snow for quite a while. Gray watched as Natsu shivered in the snow, curling his arms around himself to search for warmth. Strangely, it was turning him on.
God, Shit, Fuck! What do I do now? He's so beautiful and elegant, how am I supposed to calm myself? Am I really going to do this? I thought I told myself that we're impossible and that I'll give in, why am I thinking like this again! If I do this If I do this . . . . . we'll never be able to be friends again. We might not even talk ever again. He might hate me, he might curse me and he might abhor me. But. If I don't. If I don't . . .. He'll be gone from my grasp forever. I'll never be able to touch him, hold him, caress or love him anymore. Fuck all the future alternatives, this is my last chance, my only chance to be with Natsu and I'm taking it!
With thathe pulled Natsu up from the snow and slammed Natsu's lips with another kiss "If you're cold, let me warm you up. It's okay I'll give you loads of my heat." He gazed at Natsu's face trying to understand what was portrayed on the flawlessly shaped face. Does he hate it? Does he enjoy the sensation I'm feeling? Will these touches send my thoughts to him? Will he understand my emotions and return them or am I just hoping for too much? Gray's advances on Natsu became more forceful as Gray inserted his tongue in the pink haired boys mouth, trying to explore everything about him.
Natsu enjoyed the sensations, but still couldn't help but think, I can't do this, no matter how much I like it. No matter how much I may love to have it I cant. Our paths have already been decided and there's no going back. It's all too late, just too late. I'm getting married tomorrow and that is what will be happening, nothing can be altered no matter how much I want it changed . . . . . "Ah, Ahh s-s-stop it Gray!" Natsu broke the intimate kiss. "We can't do this." he murmured desperately, trying to break free from the warm sensation stemmed from Gray and escape to the cold pile of snow. "You've been my friend for a decade, we can't to this Gray, I don't swing that way!" Natsu could see that his words hurt Gray but he believed that he had no other alternatives and cried, "Please Gray, just let me go, please!"
"I won't! If I let you go now I'll never have the chance to be with you again. This is my final chance, the only chance! I can't let you go, I'm sorry and I know you're going to hate me, maybe you already do. But I love you. I've always kept it inside, I never told anyone about it. It was only when I was going to lose you that I finally had the courage to do something about it. I know that loving you... loving you is just like trying to touch a star; it's impossible yet I can't help but try. Natsu, I can't live my life without you. I'm sorry, I'm sorry but I can't let you go!"
Natsu was stunned by what he had just heard. Gray loves me. Gray's a homosexual, and we might have mutual feelings. Yet-yet everything is too late now. What am I going to do about Lucy? What am I going to do about tomorrow? It's too late, too late to throw away everything and start all over; it's just... just too late. "G-G-Gray please stop, I'm not g-g-ga-Ah-Ahhh!" But Gray's lips once again invaded Natsu's covering up everything Natsu was trying to say. This sensation, I just love it. This heat from his fevered kisses that give my body sweet tingles. This heat that repelled all the coldness of the snowflakes, which covers and falls upon us but I can't, I can't, I can't let myself feel this way.
Gray looked into Natsu's eyes. He could see the translucent, tiny orbs of water dripping from them.
I'm such a bastard; I made the person I love cry. I don't want to hurt him anymore, yet I'm at my limit. I can't restrain these long concealed feelings anymore. Gray moved his hands under Natsu's clothes, caressing his skin gently and entwining them around Natsu's body. He trailed his long slender fingers up the pink haired boys sensitive spine causing soft moans to slip from Natsu's mouth but due to Gray deepening the kiss by slithering his tongue inside Natsu's mouth suppressed the cries. He moved his face to plant kisses on the trail of tears on Natsu's soft cheeks. Then he started nibbling and licking Natsu's earlobe sucking at his pulse point, creating more soft whimpers from Natsu. At the same time his fingers tweaked, caressed and rubbed at Natsu's nipples. Gray could feel his touch taking effect when he felt the slow throbbing sensation of Natsu's slowly hardening member come into contact with his own raging erection. Gray took this chance and pulled off Natsu's vest throwing it in the snowy wasteland. Gray moved his body down Natsu's and used his hands to caress Natsu's hardening bulge. "Are you enjoying this?" Gray whispered out, but Natsu's reply was only the sound of his continuous sobbing. "You're enjoying it aren't you? Your body's more honest. It's already straining your pants." With that, Natsu's teary face blushed frantically, yet he still said nothing. I've hurt.. I've hurt him. I don't want to do this yet I can't stop myself! Is Natsu not rejecting me as much now because he pities me? Whatever the reason is, I just can't stop myself anymore.
Gray used his lips to plant a kiss on Natsu's bulge, causing the arousal in the pants to swell exponentially. He moved his head to Natsu's navel and sucked around it leaving kiss marks. Simultaneously, his hands were slowly slipping down Natsu's perfect abdomen arriving at Natsu's black pants. The pants were then gradually dragged down, leaving Natsu with just his pink boxers with flames patterns on it. With just the boxers left, Gray realized clearly that Natsu isn't totally rejecting him yet Natsu words spoke otherwise pleading. "G-Gray l-l-let me g-g-g-o." The blacked haired boy reply was sincere, astute and decisive. "I've always waited for this moment, this moment when I can touch you, caress you and hold you. There's no way that I'll let you go. I could've taken you to Lucy's but I can't stand the thought of you being with her. Taking you here. Taking you here is my final chance to be with you. And now... now that I have you in my grasp I'm not going to let you go." Staring at Natsu's pure black onyx eyes, Gray realized it contained many emotions that he couldn't figure out. His eyes, they seem melancholic, yet glad and fulfilled. I can't figure him out at all.
Seeing Natsu with just his damp boxers on made his insatiable desires run wild. At first I was only thinking of just holding him, kissing him and caressing him. But now, I want so much more. Damn all the consequences.
With that, Gray pulled Natsu boxers down revealing the pulsating member that had a bead of pre-cum at the tip. "Whoaaaaaa! What the fu-ahh-ahhhh!" Natsu's cries were hushed by Gray's hand, which were gently stroking Natsu's member. Soon the strokes were replaced by a more intense sensation as Gray's lips met Natsu's member and abruptly white cum surged from the tip. Natsu trembled and cried, "This . . . this isn't my fault, it's because you're forcing me . . . . . It's your fault!"
"You're right, it's my fault, and I've always longed for you. And now you're leaving me, what choice do I have? Hate me all you want, even if I'm hated by you, my feelings for you will be the same. Ever since I've realized this feeling, I want nothing else but you, only you!" Gray's tears flowed from his black eyes, shocking Natsu. This caused him to not notice that his boxers had been pulled down. Gray then started to turn Natsu over ignoring his protest "Gray! You shouldn't do this - you're not in the right mind now. You don't know what you're d-doing-ahhh-ahhhh don't touch there no-!" Again, Natsu protests stopped as Gray started licking Natsu's entrance savoring all the sensations he could feel. Gray proceeded to removing his own pants, revealing strained black boxers, which soon were removed as well. Natsu eyes widened as he saw Gray's erection. Fuckk seriously! It's huge! Huge! It's too big it'll never go in. Imagining the scene, Natsu was horrified and pleaded, "Please, Gray, stop! It's too big, it won't go in, and please you must stop!" Gray didn't make any reply to Natsu's inquiries and advanced to placing his index finger into Natsu's entrance.
"Ouchhhh, ahhhh stop it Gray it hurts stop, please!"
"Relax cause if you don't you're going to hurt more than you already are."
"I-I-I feels weird!" Natsu wailed.
"I know, but you're enjoying this aren't you?" Natsu's reply to the question was just periods of sobs. Gray decided that Natsu was fine and proceeded by putting his middle finger into his entrance and thrust them into Natsu continuously. "Damn Natsu, you're tight." Gray's statement was replied only by the startled cries of pleasure. Gray repeated this a few more times before moving his member near the entrance and spoke. "Natsu, if you don't want me to do this say no now, and I'll be gone forever, and you won't ever see me again". Gray knew that he was taking advantage of Natsu's lustful state, which was blocking him from thinking properly, yet Gray still deeply wanted Natsu's consent.
It was as Gray had thought, Natsu didn't speak and Gray proceeded to putting his cock into Natsu's entrance. "It's too big, it's too big, it won't go in!" sniveled Natsu but Gray's reply confused him. "It will, because we have a natural lubricant."
"We do?" Gray's reply was a small smirk as he slowly pushed the head of his cock into Natsu's entrance. Gray's left hand went flat while his right curled into a fist. Natsu realized what was coming and shouted, "Are you serious!" Gray replied with an affirmative, "Ice is a lubricant." followed by joining both hands together and crying out. "Ice-make Geyser." As Gray said that Natsu felt the ecstasy in him as all of Gray's cock was pushed into him. It made them feel as if a surge of electric current rushed through their bodies releasing both of their semen at the same time. The pair stayed in that position for a while until Gray pulled out. I really did it . . .. I raped Natsu- I raped him; it's probably over for us now, but at least... at least once in my life I've got the one I love. He wrapped his arms around Natsu and fell asleep.
Natsu was enthralled by the experience; he had never before in his life felt so fulfilled. It was as if he was completed, as if he was whole again. It's funny to think that they said coldness dissipate your sexual desires. Because even when we were doing it in the ice, with the snow falling around and on us I didn't feel that it was cold at all. I guess... I guess I love Gray. Yet what can I do? I don't hate Lucy; we've been together for so long. How can I just leave her? I love this sensation. I always wanted to have this, yet when I have it I don't think I can sustain it. It's just too late, too late for us, too late for everything. Natsu broke free from Gray's tight hug. He stood up and looked at the calm sleeping face of his once-best friend. Tears started falling endlessly from his eyes. He stood there for a while, clothed him, and left the iced plain.
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