Joking

Okay. This one is Beast Boy/Kurt.

I know that Cyborg's the one with body issues on Teen Titans, not Beast Boy. But I wanted to do something from the 'Goof-man Himself' 's point of view. (That's a quote from XME ep 6 – Middleverse).

Maybe later I'll do one with Cyborg/Kurt. I don't know.

Jokes.

Some people would say that I joke to cover up the depression deep inside me. I put on a façade to hide the tender child beneath, perhaps depressed because he looks different from all the others.

Yeah… no.

Okay, sure. There are some times when I'm down. And once or twice I'll admit that I try to hide it from everyone else by cracking jokes.

Thing is, it never seems to work. My team know me better then I know myself. If I'm trying to cover up… for crying out loud there's a girl who can pick up on everyone else's emotions whether she's trying or not.

So, yeah. I don't joke to hide my 'deep insecurities' or whatever else people come up with. Sometimes I may just try not to feel something by falling into the role, but…

Mostly, I joke because it's part of my personality.

What can I say? I'm an optimist.

Okay, I'm a different colour then… well, everyone. But that doesn't mean that I have to be all angsty inside.

Look, I see the funny side of life. If a friend trips, I'll laugh about it instead of fussing that there's a danger of someone actually hurting themselves.

Unless of course my friend does hurt themselves. Whatever everyone thinks, I can be serious. If someone broke a leg or something I'd take them to the hospital. Or the medical ward.

Anyway, I'll laugh. If I try to sit down and find my chair isn't where I thought it was, then I won't sulk or be paranoid and assume someone moved it.

Okay, I probably will assume someone moved it – consider who I live with though, and tell me that's unjustified. But I'll laugh about it.

Some people joke because they think that the world is either funny or terrible. They'd rather smile then cry. I can totally get that. I get why they purposely decide to be optimists.

I didn't actually decide though. It just sorta happened that way.

I think. Okay, there are times when I don't want to laugh but I do anyway. And I do because I consciously think something like 'complaining won't help. It'll just make me look like an idiot. I'd better laugh instead.'.

That so bad, though?

I mean, I'm right. Complaining because something happened isn't going to change it. It'll just make it worse for everyone.

Actually, I think it's better when someone consciously chooses to be an optimist. They're trying to help others, whereas I'm just doing it by happy coincidence.

Plus, there should be some kind of superhero rule – only one 'doom and gloom' person per team. Seriously, one Goth girl is enough.

Not that that's bad. She's actually really nice when you get to know her and all. And she's not as depressing as everyone who doesn't know her seems to think.

But still. If we had to assign stereotypes to everyone on my team, I wouldn't be the gloomy one. And if we want to get stereotypical, then the gloomy one would be taken.

I'd probably be to 'way to chilled' one. Or the 'Goofing off' one. Or just the 'joking' one.

Alright, there are times when being a jokester doesn't pay. Like they don't take you seriously a lot of the time if you are being serious.

But it's just part of who I am. And I'm not changing who I am on the inside. I change the outside part enough.*

On the inside, but, I'm never gonna stop laughing.

*Just a little footnote.

In case you don't understand it, Kurt's changing on the outside is when he wears the hologram every day. Okay?

Beast Boy's changing is pretty obvious.

So… review?