When David came to the next morning, he first became aware of a warm body pressed against the front of his body. For a split second, he was very confused as to where he was. Then he recognized Abby's bedroom. This had been a very bad idea. She was warm and soft and pressed against him. Her hair smelled of her shampoo and she was sound asleep in his arms.
He carefully stroked her hair and side. She didn't stir. She had looked exhausted last night. No doubt she needed the sleep. He got up to use the bathroom and when he came back to bed the movement of the mattress woke her up. He found himself staring at her blue eyes.
"Hi" she said shyly.
"Hi" he replied.
She turned onto her back. He was looking at her face, not saying anything. She looked better, but still pale. At least she had gotten some sleep. They had slept for almost nine hours. He wasn't sure if there was an invitation in her eyes or not, but he moved his hand on her stomach. He slowly caressed her stomach and side and pressed his mouth against her neck. Her breath hitched. He moved his hand a bit lower. Her silk shorts were loose and he slipped his hand in them slowly, giving her all the time to back out. She squeezed his shoulder. He took that as an invitation and slipped his hand even slower, into her panties. She was warm and relaxed.
He rubbed her clit and felt his erection straining against his pajama pants. He wanted to be in her. He wanted to claim her as his right away. Instead, he entered her using only one finger. She was wet for him and she was ready. He entered his finger and withdrew slowly, rubbing her in that place that he knew would make her go crazy with need. He kept entering and withdrawing until she was tense beneath him.
"David, I ah… I…" she whispered, not quite being able to say what she wanted to say.
"You what Abby?" he teased, knowing very well that she wanted him inside her.
She looked deep into his eyes.
"I want you David" she said, holding his gaze.
David eased her pajama bottoms off and stripped off his own pants and t-shirt. He wanted her perhaps as badly as she wanted him. He entered her slowly, drawing out the pleasure of the joining. She was warm and wet and all woman under him.
It didn't take long before he felt her contracting underneath him. She had been close when he entered her and it hadn't taken many strokes for him to bring her to her climax. She was soft and relaxed under him and gazing straight into his eyes when he exploded inside her. He collapsed on the bed on top of her. After a moment, he rolled onto his side right next to her. He wrapped his right arm around her waist and held her close. He felt his heart rate slowing down and relaxed next to her. This was the moment in which he was supposed to get up, shower and leave, but he didn't want to. After a while, he felt her breathing starting to become even and deep and he realized that Abby had fallen asleep again. Very soon sleep claimed him too.
When she woke up next, she wiggled out from under his arm and took off the top she was still wearing. She walked into the shower, wanting to stop the intimacy between them. This wasn't good. This was against their unspoken rules. They had not had sex in a bed since their break up and they had certainly not slept in the same bed. This was too intimate.
She let the warm water pound against her back and turned around the wash her hair. She felt her nipples get hard from the water drops. Her breasts seemed to be hyper sensitive today and her nipples were sore to the touch. She jumped slightly when she felt David slide his hands around her waist from behind. He hadn't said a word. His fingers worked their magic on her clit and soon she was panting hard. Her nipples ached and she wanted him inside her again. She didn't remember the last time she had felt this starved for sex, and they had already been together once this morning.
"Oh god I need you David" she was able to say. He switched the shower off and took her hand. He spread a large thick bath towel on her bed to protect the bed sheets from getting entirely wet and sat down on the edge. She straddled him and took him in her inch by inch. From that position, it was easy for her to determine the rhythm. His stomach was in just the right angle to rub against her clit and she felt the climax building fast. He could feel it too in the way her body was tensing up. Just as she was about to come he lifted her off him and laid her down on the bed on her back. Her skin looked so pale against her wet hair. She had never looked more beautiful to him than at that moment, panting with need of him. He entered her and rapidly brought them both to a climax.
Afterwards he rolled onto his side and lightly brushed her nipples. He was surprised to see them tightening right away.
"I'm a bit sore there right now" she explained and took his hand in hers to avoid him touching her breasts again.
"Sorry, I didn't realize" he said. If there was one thing he never wanted to do it was to physically hurt Abby. She had had enough of that during her marriage and he didn't want to remind her of his ex husband in any way.
They showered and Abby dressed in jeans and a t-shirt since she didn't expect to go out that day. She could see David eyeing her body after their second shower while she was dressing.
"I think you've lost weight Abby" he said quietly.
"I haven't had time to eat lately. I've been too exhausted on most days to even think of food" she explained. Come to think of it she couldn't even remember when she had last had breakfast or a decent lunch. She hadn't had much of an appetite lately. Right now she was wondering why David was still here.
"I'll make you pancakes for breakfast" he suggested.
"I… sure, that would be nice David" she said, wondering what was going on. This was definitely not a part of their sex-only-agreement.
He made his way to the kitchen and took out the necessary ingredients. Abby watched him pouring the dough onto the frying pan and set the table for two. It almost felt like one of their weekend mornings when they had been together. She felt a bubbling happiness inside her. He was still here. He hadn't left and he was making her pancakes. She pressed herself against his back and circled her arms around his waist. She nuzzled his neck. He turned around and she kissed him on the lips. She did it quickly so as not to lose her nerve. She poured all the happiness and love and tenderness she felt for this amazing man into that kiss. He broke it abruptly.
"Abby…" he said covering his face with his hand. "I'm sorry I can't do this."
She just looked at his chocolate brown eyes, not comprehending what he meant.
"Abby I can't be like this with you anymore. I can't be intimate like this. I just… I can't. I need to go. It's better that I go and that we don't do this anymore. Don't get me wrong, the sex is amazing. It always has been but I can't do this anymore. I can't love you and I can't be in a relationship with you" he was babbling now.
Abby felt the happiness inside her shrivel and die. She didn't know why he had showed up at her doorstep last night asking to stay over at her place. She didn't know why he had wanted to sleep next to her and then bring her to two amazing climaxes this morning. She didn't understand anything except the love that she felt for David. She felt tears welling in her eyes. She didn't know what to say. She was sad and angry at the same time.
"You should go" she said in a very quiet voice. "You should go and please do not come here again. I want to be free of you. I want to have a life again. I want to go out with a man and not think of you when I am with him. I want to eat full meals without feeling sick to my stomach for knowing you hate me so much, yet can't stay away from me because of the sex. I just want this thing between us to end" she finished in a strangled voice. She didn't know where this strength was coming from to say all these things. The tears were running down her cheeks now. She felt like they were breaking up all over again. It was time to end it. She couldn't focus on anything with this semi-relationship with David hanging over her head all the time.
"I never wanted to hurt you Abby" he said quietly.
"Well you have. And as long as there is this… this… whatever this is between us you will continue to hurt me. I really want this pain to end" she got out between sobs.
"I wish I could find it in my heart to forgive you. I've tried. I really have, but it's hard to forgive the person you loved, who took advantage of that love to destroy you completely. That's what you did Abby. You used the fact that I had feelings for you to come to my apartment and steal the card. Afterwards you kept lying to me about it. That's what hurt the most" he continued.
"I know David. I hate myself for it. I really do. I hate myself for causing you such pain. I didn't realize at the time how the disappearance of the card would destroy you"
David was angry now. How could she not have known? It had been such a high profile case. She knew what it when he made a fool of himself in front of TV cameras. Sure she must have known that it would mean the end of his career. She was lying again.
"Don't lie to my Abby. You knew what taking that card would mean to my career."
"No David, I truly didn't realize what the implications would be" she was still sobbing. "The only thing I can say is that I'm sorry, and if I could go back and undo it, I would. I'd undo it in a heartbeat. But what is done is done and I lied because I wanted to be with you so badly. I didn't want to lose you. In the end I lost you anyways, and that will follow me forever."
"I'll go. As much as I want you physically, I just can't be in a relationship with you again after what you did to me. And I won't bother you again for the sex" he seemed like he wanted to say something more but he left it at that. He picked up his car keys from the kitchen counter and closed the door behind him. Just like that, he was gone.