Chapter 3: Confessions- Nessie's POV

After we left Jake didn't take me home like I thought he would. Instead we went to a park. It was a nice park about 20 miles or so from home. I could walk there easily if I wanted to. Once we were there Jake took me to a pair of swings that over looked a little stream. I smiled and then I heard him sigh.

"Renesmee, your parents told me that when the time was right I could tell you the whole story. Well all of what I was a part of, without asking them permission first. I'm sure you have no idea what I'm talking about but please just listen it will all make since in the end." I nodded and he continued.

"I'm sure your parents will fill you in on what I don't know later but please, please remember that the reason we kept these things from you is so you could make your own choices. Also if we told you one thing we would have to tell you the other. That is why you are going to find out now. I know it sounds confusing but it will make since soon I promise." I was shocked my family had kept things from me. How bad could they be to have kept them from me for this long?

Jake continued, "A long time ago when your mom was human some things happened. It was your mom's 18th birthday and Alice through her a party. As your mom was opening one of her gifts she got a paper cut. I guess Jasper was thirsty or something because he tried to attack your mom. Your dad had to protect her and she ended up getting a huge gash in her arm and needing stitches. Carlisle was the only one who could stay in the room with her and even your dad had to leave."

"Your dad went off feeling all guilty. He thought Bella would have a better life with him out of the picture so he left." My eyes got huge. My dad actually left my mom? Jake seeing my reaction went on. "He did it to protect her. He thought she could actually lead a normal life. I know; I know it was a stupid move but it happened. Can I go on now?" I just nodded at a loss for words.

"Anyway your mom was really messed up when he left. She didn't really eat; she didn't have friends anymore because she had stopped talking to them. She had nightmares. She would wake up screaming Ness. It was bad. For months she wouldn't talk to anyone not even Charlie."

"I don't know some of this stuff so you'll have to ask your mom why she came to me but for whatever reason she did." Jake was looking straight forward and so was I so he couldn't see the tears that where coming down my face. How could my dad have done that to my mom? How could he be so stupid? Jake went on, "I fixed up a pair of motorbikes for her for whatever reason she wanted to ride them. I didn't just fix the bikes though I started to heal her too. She wasn't in as much pain when she was with me and I could make her smile when no one else could. She used to say I was her own personal sun. That things weren't that bad when she was with me."

"I ended up falling in love with her." That hurt, that hurt really bad. The tears feel harder. "I hated your dad too. I didn't know how he could be so stupid and just walk away from your mom. When he came back, after your mom went to rescue him from the Volturi I couldn't believe she just took him back like that. I knew she was in love with me too, she just didn't know it." How much longer could I cry this hard and in silence?

He went on to my dismay, "I'll try to start wrapping things up and make a long story short. Me and your dad we were kind of fighting over your mom. Eventually I got her to kiss me and that's when she realized she was in love with me too." I had heard enough I stood up to leave and that's when Jake finally looked at me.

"Awh Ness," he said trying to embrace me but I side stepped and wouldn't let him touch me.

"I've heard enough," I said and started to walk away as the tears fell even harder.

"But not everything," he whispered looking a little hurt but right now I could care less.

"Tell to me another time Jacob," I yelled and started walking for the woods. As I walked I said, "You better not even think of following me home or coming to my house later! Don't call me or the rest of my family if you haven't heard from me by 3 tomorrow then you can come over but until then you better leave me alone damn it," I yelled.

Then I was off. I ran as fast as I possibly could. It was times like these I wished I was a full vampire. The running helped kind of numb me though. As soon as I got home however I was a mess.

I walked into the living room and a completely broke down. I was in pain a lot of pain I couldn't believe Jake had loved my mom. That my dad and Jake would fight over her! I was shaking violently letting the tremors roll through me. How many more tears could I produce? How much longer could I cry? I didn't even know the whole story. Gosh, I was a mess! That's when I heard the noise outside.

I jumped up from my position on the floor and looked outside. I was mortified! I saw a big wolf standing outside. I ran outside with a tear stained face. Was he here to hurt me even more? Did he want to explain himself? I suddenly realized I just didn't care. I told him to not call or come here. I told him that for a reason I needed to be alone didn't he get that?Jake walked into the woods in his wolf from and came back out in human form with some sweatpants on.

"Ness please listen to me," he begged but I wasn't having any of it.

"Jake I told you not to come here! I'm hurt I'm sure you can see that but I need to be alone," I screeched.

"Renesmee sweetie, please listen to be," he said in a soft voice.

"Not now, just not now okay. I promise I'll talk to you later. Please leave," I whispered.

This time he actually listened to me. He walked away as he was walking away he said, "I'll be here at twelve o'clock."

As soon as he was gone I ran straight for my room and started pulling off my clothes. I changed into some sturdy shorts, tank top, and tennis shoes. I through my hair up into a ponytail and started throwing clothes into a suitcase. I packed a back pack with about $10,000 cash, my IPod, phone, and any chargers I would need and I bolted down the stairs.

I found a pen and paper and wrote a letter my family would find.

Dear Mom and Dad,

I really need to figure some things out right now and I would rather appreciate it if you didn't look for me. I'm a big girl and can make my own discussion and you know I won't hesitate to call if I am in trouble and need you. I'll text you everyday to let you know I'm okay. You can call if you would like but the chances of me answering are slim so I wouldn't even bother. Don't try to talk me into coming back home because I will come back when I'm ready. I'm honestly having an emotional breaking down right now and I'm not going to be going through it in front of my mind reading father and emotion feeling Uncle. So please just leave me be. If I need anything I will call or get a hold of you in some way I promise. I just can't be here right now. It hurts too much and I'm the only one in the house. I'll be perfectly safe where I am going I promise. I'll give you a warning before I come back but PLEASE I beg of you let me be. I'll be back sooner that way. I love you all so, so much and please know I'm not doing this to hurt you. I'm doing this because it is what I need to do.

I'll see you later,

Xoxo Renesmee xoxo

P.S. PLEASE don't be mad. Don't be mad at me, yourself, Jake, or anybody. Xoxo

After I wrote that tear stained letter I cried even harder as I left for the airport. I got in my truck and left. Jake was coming tomorrow at twelve probably earlier but I would all ready be long gone. I left my home behind me and cried harder because I didn't know when I would be back, but I knew I had to leave.

I had to leave it all behind me to save my sanity. On the car ride to the airport I was debating on going to see the Amazon Coven or if I should go see Nahuel and his aunt. I decided on the Amazon coven I hadn't seen Zafrina for 3 years when she came to visit. I would visit her. I always had fun with her and I was amazed by them. They had stopped hunting humans long ago and where now proud vegetarians. If I still feel like visiting Nahuel I thought, I'll just visit him before I come back.

I went into the airport, but the first ticket to leave and boarded in 1st class. It was going to be a long tear filled night. How many tears can one person produce I thought to myself and was thankful that only a hand full of others where in first class with me. If I were them I would gladly go sit in coach because they are going to hear me cry all night.

As I thought this we started going down the runway. I buckled up and sat back. We lifted off the ground and I was officially leaving home for who knows how long.