Just Say Yes

Disclaimer: I don't own Emmerdale, if I did it would be dedicated to Aarson!

Authors Note: I know I promised that this chapter was going to be the conversation but it was still too long over 3000 words, so I have split it again, but I do promise that the next chapter will be the conversation between Aaron and Jackson. In this chapter I feel as though I have just repeated myself, so I'm sorry about that as I haven't really read back on what I have wrote, so I don't really know. Also this hasn't been beta'd so all mistakes are my own, if you do spot any mistakes please do review and let me know as your input does help. Also this chapter has been uploaded early for Joni who has a bad back and I promised I would upload some fic for her to make her feel better, so I hope you feel better soon Joni. I'll stop rambling on now, so hopefully enjoy. Also please Review because believe me your opinions do matter.

Getting closer to the table Aaron could see that Jackson wasn't even looking at him but rather looking around as though judging where the best place would be to make a quick exit if the situation may arise. Was Jackson even bothered about what they were going to talk about or was he just here because he pitied Aaron or maybe he was just sick of Aaron trying to apologise and get his attention so he decided that maybe this would be the easiest way to shut him up. Aaron knew he was over analysing everything but he couldn't help it, he didn't know what to think anymore, his head was screwed up with everything that had happened in the last few months or even most of his life come to think of it.

Now at the table Jackson was looking at him expectantly, Aaron wondered why and then realised that he was still holding both of the pints. Placing one of the pints in front of Jackson silently, who gave him a nod in response, he place the next pint down next to it. Aaron then debated on where to sit, should he just sit close to Jackson or will that make him look desperate or sit further away from Jackson but wouldn't that make it look like he didn't want to be near him or worse that Jackson disgusted Aaron.

Aaron noticed that Jackson was again giving him a strange look and realised that he had been standing there debating with himself and that he most likely looked like an idiot. He quickly sat down and noticed that he was sitting quite close to Jackson their legs were mere inches apart, at that moment Aaron realised that he didn't feel disgusted by being near Jackson it was actually quite the opposite he felt happy and he had strange feeling at the bottom of his stomach which he knew had nothing to do with nerves but he wasn't really ready to acknowledge it yet.

Wanting to do something other than sitting there saying and doing nothing he took a sip of his pint, hoping that Jackson might a conversation because he had no idea what to say to the man. Putting his pint down he realised that Jackson wasn't going to be starting the conversation and that it was all up to him, he had to start this, he had to be the one who began this and hopefully it would go well and something might happen that could change the icy silences and cold glares that he had received from the builder.

Looking at Jackson he wondered how to start this conversation, how do you start a conversation like this, a conversation based upon what you have been through and why you have done the things that you have done, in a way Aaron was going to be spilling his heart and soul to Jackson and hopefully Jackson was willing to accept it.

Taking a deep breath to calm himself, Aaron began 'well, erm, the reason I ...', Aaron suddenly lost his nerve, he couldn't do this, he couldn't say all of this to Jackson, he would just laugh in his face and see how pathetic he really was. I mean why would someone like Jackson be even remotely interested in him, he was nothing compared to the builder, he had been abandoned enough in his life to know this.

Suddenly Aaron found it difficult to breath, he tried to take a deep breath but it suddenly got caught in his chest, he didn't want Jackson to see him like this to see how weak he really was, how pathetic even. He tried to calm himself down and breath but it just wasn't working, he began to panic more. Aaron then felt someone touching his arm and speaking to him, he believes that they are telling him to calm down and breath, which he knows hes got to do, but with the simple instruction and touch on the arm he suddenly felt the tightening in his chest loosen and he was able to breath once more.

Turning around he was expecting to see Paddy but was surprised to see Jackson there he was still touching his arm and looking at him with a mixture of sympathy, fear and maybe even concern in his eyes.

'You alright?' Jackson inquired concerned.

'Yeah, it was nothin' mumbled Aaron, embarrassed.

'Nothing, Aaron you barely breath, I didn't know what was happening, that's not nothing!' Jackson replied.

'Really, I'm fine, it was just me being weak, like normal' Aaron announced very quietly, so quietly that Jackson had to strain to hear him.

'Aaron, that wasn't you being weak okay, that was you just getting stressed at what's happening right now, that's why I think maybe this isn't the right time for this conversation, maybe we should give it more time' Jackson asked.

'NO! I mean I need to talk about this now, I need to explain, its been driving me crazy, you hating me, if I explain then maybe things can better I mean if you knew some of the stuff that was going on with me you might understand me better, which is what I really want cos I really...' Aaron suddenly stopped himself embarrassed, he just rambled on at Jackson and nearly told him something that he thought he couldn't admit to himself. Had Jackson noticed what he was going to say before he had stopped himself. It looked as though Jackson didn't notice anything or he just wasn't going to say anything.

'Hey, if your determined to talk about it then I'm not going to stop you, cos I know that things aren't right between us and I think that maybe this might be the way forward' Jackson replied.

'So we're going talk about this then?' Aaron wondered.

'Yeah, but its up to you where we start though' Jackson replied, who moved back waiting for Aaron to start.