SHATTERED

Disclaimer: I own neither Hak nor Yona

WARNING: emotional fluff

It wasn't just her.

Hak traced the outline of her ears with his thumb as he let his fingers slide through her red locks. She was sleeping peacefully next to him. Close to him.

It wasn't just her who thinks of how she would have to let him go after all of this is done with.

He ponders about it as well. Every time he holds her, every time they share a moment together and every time she felt so close to him, He knew.

She would always still be so far away from him

He would always think about how he would have to let her go someday. How she'll eventually 'set him free'. He thinks of how he won't get to be with her like this as often anymore.

He nuzzled his face on top of her head and breathed her in.

.

God, how he loved her.

.

He'd been reckless. Let his feelings take over. It was dangerous and it was stupid.

She has grown feelings for him. And he blames himself for that he resents the idea, no. But he knew that if it ever comes to that point... if she falls... if she asked...

He planted a kiss on her forehead,

...He would have to break her heart.

and another on the bridge of her nose.

And it would kill him.
She was the princess. He was just... Hak.

It would be better that way. He knew it so.

And that's why he's decided.

He would not tell her the truth.

He would make the right choice.

And he would let her go.

He cupped her cheek as he pulled away

Because princesses shouldn't fall for bodyguards.

"What am I to you, Hak?" He flinched at the sudden question that came out from what he thought was a sleeping princess.

He immediately pulled his hand away but she caught it in hers.

"Hime, I - -"

"What am I... to you, Hak?" Again, she asked as she tilted her head upwards, looking straight at him with her face blush-stained, eyes brimming with confusion. She held his hand tighter and closer to her.

It took him a few seconds before taking a deep breath and gathered up his thoughts. His eyes hid behind his bangs and answered. He would not tell her the truth.

"You... are the princess. Daughter of King Il."

"...And?" Her lavender eyes was fixed on him, searching for an answer. The answer.

"...You are someone I vowed to protect with my life."

"Hak.." disappointment was evident in her voice. His jaw clenched.

"What do you want me to say?" his tone was covered in mild frustration. He pried his hand away from her grip and used it to rake his scalp front to back, unveiling his devious eyes. "Careful, hime. You're starting to make me feel you have special feelings for me". He smiled teasingly while he was dying inside.

It was unfair.

She looked up at him and forced a smile.

"It was just a random thought. Thank you." She sat up and scratched the back of her head apologetically. "I'm pretty tired after today. I'm sure you are too. We should get some sleep." She said, smoothening out the imagined creases on her blanket. "Good night, Hak." She gave him a quick peck on his cheek and turned to her lie with her back facing him.

His body felt numb all over. He saw her silhouette trembling. She's probably crying. The ground might as well swallow him up now.

Minutes passed in silence. Just as he thought she's fallen asleep, she spoke again in a hoarse, cracked voice.

"Hak... you're so much more than just a friend and a body guard to me"

.

that did it.

.

He snaked his arms around her waist and pulled her to his chest.

"I love you, hime."

A/N:

Dun dun duuuuuun!

There. He said it. So yep. That will be the end for this story. No more chapters following this. BUT that doesn't mean no more oneshots from me ;)

I'm more comfortable publishing individual oneshots anyway so… yep.
(BTW, have you checked my other recent upload? The title's "Tension" and that is for those looking for a more… intense fluff than what's offered in this story. And by that I mean it's almost a smut. ALMOST. Not quite and not YET *wink*)

Anyway, thank you so much for taking the time to read this story. Especially for those who reviewed, faved and followed. You guys are the best.

Check out my other Hak/Yona fanfics, you'll most probably enjoy them as well.

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