A/N: You guys rocks! The other day I opened my mail and there were like a lot of reviews, story alerts, favourite story and stuffs. So thank you so much. You guys seriously made my week! Yay! So, like I promised, this chap is from Edward's POV. I hope you guys enjoy it.

Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot. The rest is Mrs Meyer's. Lucky her.


Chapter 3

Edward's POV

It's a really nice day today. It's one of those days where the sun actually shines brightly in Forks. Bella would've loved a day like today. It's so warm and so lively. She had always mentioned how she hated cold. It doesn't matter now, what she thinks. It doesn't make any difference. Doesn't change the fact that she's gone.

Forever.

He keeps remembering about that day. The day he lost Bella. His Bella. What happened that day always stays in his mind. It's like the memory, his last memory of Bella, are stuck there. It keeps repeating itself, over, and over again in his mind. He doesn't want to remember Bella in that state because it hurts so much. He wanted to remember Bella as a happy-go-lucky, caring, lovely person she is. Before that happened. But it's as if he's got no control of his mind anymore. It's like his mind are trying to punished him for letting that happened. Punishing him by playing that memory again and again and again...

(Flashback)

"What's happening?"

"He's suffocating!"

"The placenta must have detached"

"Get him OUT of me!!"Bella screamed. Her body, streaming with red, twitching and jerking uncontrollably in Edward's arm.

"The morphine-,"Edward growled.

"NO! NOW-!" Another gush of blood chocked off what she was shrieking. He held her head up, trying to clear her mouth so she could breathe again.

"Let the morphine spread!" Edward shouted at Rosalie.

"No time. He's dying!" Rosalie hissed

"She can't breathe. Get her breathing! I've got to get him out before it makes her worse,"

Edward blew air into Bella. He could hear her heart thumping unevenly. Come on, Bella. Keep it going. You promised. Come on. It worked a bit. Her eyes are more focussed now. Her breathing picked up quite roughly and her heart started to thud in rhythm

"Do you hear me, Bella? Keep it going, keep your heart beating! You are not leaving me! You've promised!" Edward yelled at Bella.

"I've almost got him! He's halfway through-," Rosalie was interrupted with Bella's terrifying shriek.

"WHAT DID YOU DO?" Edward yelled at Rosalie. Her heart suddenly beating furiously. Her eyes rolled back blindly. She's turning blue. At a very fast pace.

"I...no..he's s-stuck. I can't get him out." Rosalie looks panic. "He's suffocating. I can barely feel his heart beating,"

"NO! Bella, hang in there. You'll get through this, I promised," Edward whispered at Bella

Edward, what should I do? He's stuck. I'm sure I can get it out if I pull harder but I'm afraid that will kill Bella. She's already lost a lot of blood. She can't afford to lose more.

Edward face hardened. He knows what he has to do. Bella would probably hate him for this but it's the only way that could make her safe. Let him there.

Rosalie looked at him. You sure? I was thinking maybe we can save both- Edward cut her off. Do as I said. There's no time to take risks. Rosalie nodded. Fine. If that's what you want.

Edward turned to Bella. She's getting worse. She was turning purple, her eyes wide and staring at nothing in particular. Edward hoped he had made a right choice. It is true that she'll be better without the baby inside her but what good does it makes if she could get kill when the baby is being pulled out from her.

Edward whispered, "Bella, listen to me. Stay with me. I'm here with you,"

Edward took her hand in his. He started to think he made the right choice. Without Rosalie's effort to getting the baby out from her, in the progress making her bleeding a lot, she looks...calm.

She's stopped flopping and jerking. Her eyes looked more focus as she looks at Edward. Edward looks at her bloodshot eyes and felt a stab of pain in his chest. She wouldn't be in this state if he had been more careful. It's his entire fault that they couldn't save the baby.

Edward felt Bella's hand tightened around him. "You've...always been there...f-for me-e. I...I love y-you. Promise me so-mething," Bella croaked in a broken whisper.

Edward nodded furiously. "I love you too. Whatever you want, I promised."

Bella tried to smile, he could see that. "I wanted you to-," she coughed and gasped in pain. Edward tries to move but Bella's hand prevented him to go anywhere. She shook her head. "No, I wanted y-you to always remembers m-me and l-live for me,"

"What are you talking about? You're going to be fine. I'll make sure of it. I'll-"

Bella tugged his hand, her voice sounded kinda demanded, "Promise me,"

Edward sighed, "Fine. Promised. But you're going to be just-"

Bella smiled and closes her eyes. Edward thought she was just tired but then, he realize. It was silent. Too silent. Took him a second to realize that her heart faltered and not beating anymore.

"No...NO!! Wake up, Bella! You've promised to stay with me. Get up!! You promised" Edward yelled. I promised you we'll get through this. Both of us. Don't make me break my promise. I never break my promises. Ever.

Edward blew more air into her lungs. His hands were on her chest, doing compressions. One, two, three, four. Come on, Bella. You've promised. We promised. He forced more air down Bella's throat and pump her heart. Don't tell me I've made a wrong mistake. I never make a mistake. Never. Don't leave me here alone. Wake up and tell me that I've made a right choice. Come on!

Edward continues to pump her heart. Over and over and over...

(End of Flashback)

I seriously don't know what to do now. I wish that someone could tell me what to do. With her gone, it feels so...empty. I'm nothing without her. Empty. Lifeless. It's killing me, a bit by bit. The only thing that kept me sane is my promise. That useless promise.

Edward snorted and stared at his reflection in the mirror. Look at me. I'm a mess. If this is living, I might as well die. To the hell that promise. It doesn't matter now, doesn't it? He runs his hand through his messy hair. He tore his gaze from his reflection and look at his bed where he can still sense her presence.

He slowly walked towards his bed, his eyes still holding his gaze. He lies down on the bed and inhale deeply. He can still smell her scent. He pulled the comforter closer to him, taking in all her scent. God, I missed you so much. He was holding the covers so tightly till his knuckles went white. If it's even possible.

"It doesn't matter now." He repeated quietly to himself.

"No, it does matter and you know it," a soft, hushed sound came from Edward's doorway.

It doesn't take a mind-reading ability to know whose voice is that. Alice. He could smell her sister from downstairs. Could hear her sister coming in his room. He's just doesn't want to move from his comfortable position.

"What do you want?"

Alice slowly walk across his room to his bed and she sat carefully beside him. Never once she's taken her gaze from Edward. He doesn't need to look at Alice's face to know that she's looking at him with her pity look. Sympathetic kinda look. Not that it matters.

"You know what I want. What all of us want."

Edward doesn't even bother to reply his sister. He's not in the mood for some talking now. Well, now to think about it, he doesn't even have mood to do anything else. Now his life is just sitting in his room moping and only went out of the house to hunt

Alice sighed, "Look, Edward. You can't be like this forever. Just let it go. You have to."

Edward closed his eyes and opened them again. "It's easy for you to say. You probably have forgotten all about her by now."

"Don't you dare say something like that again, Edward. Don't. Do you really think all of us like that she's gone? Do you really think that?" Alice looked at Edward and turned her gaze to the view outside Edward's window. "I lost my best friend. Do you think I like that? Do you think I like seeing you moping around your room every damn day? Well, do you?"

Edward sat up and looked at his sister. "No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't say that. It's just that-"

Alice stood up and interrupted him. "I know that you're hurt. Hurt that she's gone. We all feel the same way. Carlisle, Esme, Jasper, Em, Rose, everyone. But as much as it hurt us, we have to let go. There's nothing you can do now. Bella would've hated to see you this way, you know that."

It hurts to talk about Bella. But Alice knows she has to help Edward get through this. For his sake. For the family's sake. Edward's condition has made all of us worried. Especially Esme and Carlisle. She knows he got to move on. She knows she's got to do something to help Edward.

She had tried to see Edward's future. She had seen his future. It wasn't pretty at all. All she could see is darkness and Edward spending all his time in his room. She could see that he'll never leaves his room, except when he's hungry. It's like he's decided to spend his eternity in this house. She couldn't let it happen. It will destroy him. Destroy the whole family. She couldn't loss another person in her life, not after Bella.

Alice watched Edward's pained expression. She knew that it hurts him that he can't do anything to change this situation. There's no other choice. He has to let go. That is the only way.

Alice slowly rubs his hand. "You have to let her go, Edward."

"I can't do that. I can't just forget about her. She is-"Edward took a deep breath. "-was my life. I just...can't. After all that we've been through. It's not that easy, Al." It still difficult for him to remember Bella in past tense. It was so impossibly hard. He always forgot that she's gone.

Alice noticed his mistake and smile sadly. Sometimes she too makes that same mistake. It's hard for her, for all of us to refer Bella in past tense. But she's trying. Still trying to let go.

"I didn't ask you to forget about Bella, Edward. Forgetting and trying to let go are not the same thing. You need to accept that Bella's gone. Those memories about both of you will never be gone. It will still be in you. Use those memories to help you moving on, Edward."

"But it's so difficult. Those memories will always be there, yes but how can I use them to help myself when all they do is torturing me? All they do is reminds me that she's gone. "

Alice smiled. "You already mentioned the answers, Edward. You know what to do. Just ask yourself and make yourself strong enough, that'll do. "

Edward walked in front of his mirror and he watched his reflection smiled at himself. Alice makes it sound so easy. He doesn't even know if he can make it happen. Don't know if he can let go. Don't know if he even has the strength.

As if she could read his mind, Alice went standing beside him and touched his reflection. "I missed that smile, Edward. We all missed you. Just try. I know you can do it. I have faith in you. If you can't do it for yourself, then do it for Esme. For Carlisle. For Em, Jas, Rose and me. For Bella."

His family. He forgotten about his family. Those people who always had his back. The ones that accepted him for who he are. The ones who always help him no matter what it takes. He looked at Alice's reflection. Now he realised that he has make his family worried. Worried about his state. How selfish of him to make all of them suffers with him. Yes, he'll try. Try for the sake of his family. He loved them dearly and he doesn't want to push them from him. He doesn't want to be alone.

He had lost Bella and it hurts him. It's like a part of him is gone. But now he realise that he could fill that part with his family. Not that anyone can ever take Bella's place, no, but his family can fill a part of that place. Of course, there will be a part in him that will always be empty. A part that not even his family can fill.

He'll try to move on. For his family. They care about him and the least he could do for them is taking care of himself and show them that he can move on. it will be difficult, yes, but he's sure that his family will be there to help him.

"How can you be so sure that I can let go?"

Alice beamed. She knows he already changed his mind. She knows Edward too well. "Well, I'm the psychic, remember?"

Edward smiled at Alice. How lucky he is to have his family. He knows that whatever happens, his family will be right beside of him.

"You have my back, bro. Always. Oh, and by the way, it's about to rain soon. So, you might want to start trying to...you know. Now it's a really good time."

Edward nodded. He loves the rain. He likes to walk in the rain. It's really refreshing and makes he feel calm, peaceful even if he just stands there in the rain. It has been a while since he relaxing in the rain. The last time he did that was with Bella. Edward can feel his heart tightened at this particular memory. He tries to fight that feeling. He still remembers it like it was just yesterday.

(Flashback)

It was a night before Bella's birthday. They were just finished eating their dinner, well, Bella did. Bella wanted to walk home. She has always loved walking and the weather was quite good earlier that night, so Edward agreed. They walked and talked while watching the stars. It was magnificent.

They were halfway there when suddenly the rain poured. They laughed and started to run. At a normal human speed, of course. Being as clumsy as Bella is, she slipped and Edward managed to catch her before she falls. Bella laughed and she kissed him. Edward wasn't expecting that, not that he minded, so that gesture had shocked him and he lost his grip. Both of them fall together onto the grass, Edward was on top of Bella.

"Are you alright?" Edward looking worriedly at Bella, afraid that she hurts herself.

"No, you silly. And I got you to thank for." She giggled and kissed Edward again.

"As much as I love this position that we're in, I liked to remind you that it's raining."

"I know," Bella smiled at him and she leaned onto Edward. "But it doesn't matter. As long as you're here with me, I won't care even if it's raining fire,"

"Raining fire?" Edward stared at Bella. "Is there such thing as raining fire?"

Edward's expression was so serious that Bella laughed. She shook her head. "Just forgot I ever say that."

"But-, "

"Just shut up and kiss me,"

Edward was more than happy to oblige her wish although he still unsatisfied about the raining fire thing. They kiss, laugh and just lying there beside each other. It feels like heaven. They stayed there for hours. The next day, Bella celebrates her birthday with high fever.

(End of Flashback)

Edward snapped back from his memory just to find Alice staring at his wall, her eyes are blank. It is obvious that she's seeing something at that moment.

"Alice?"

Alice blinked and turned to Edward. "Oh, yes. Sorry, where were we?"

"We weren't talking about anything. By the way, what did you saw?"

"What do you mean? I did not see anything. At all." The way Alice said it makes Edward narrowed his eyes. She sounded too light and cheerful. It is more than enough for him to feel suspicious. He tried to read Alice's mind. What he read from her mind had scarred him for his eternity, he decided. Alice's definitely hiding something. That's the only reasonable reasons for why she's thinking about Jasper and her doing...inappropriate know, the kind of things that outsider shouldn't even know.

Edward looked at Alice's innocent face. "What are you hiding from me?"

Alice's eyes widened. "What? I'm not hiding anything. Why did you say that? You know I won't hide anything from you,"

"Seriously, Alice. If that's the case, then why is your mind filled with you and Jasper doing things that I shouldn't see at all? In a rather graphic way too," Edward raised his eyebrows.

"Are you saying that you're invading my mind? How dare you? FYI, it is my mind, and I will think anything I want to." Alice crossed her arms across her chest.

"Alice?"

"Yea?" Alice smiled brightly at him.

"Don't change the subject. This is not about me invading your private, perverted mind. You know I'm a mind reader, so live with it. What did you saw just now?"

"Nothing." Alice looked at Edward with a serious face. "Seriously. Nothing." Alice tried really hard to keep her face blank but as hard as she tried, she couldn't resists her big smile off her face.

Edward raised his eyebrows. Alice laughed. "Okay, okay. Fine. I saw something in your future. "

"I figure that much." Edward smirks at Alice.

Alice ignores Edward and continues," Do you want to hear this or not?"

"Alright, alright. So you saw something. Which is...?"

Alice started to drag her feet towards the doorway. "Well, you'll have to find out yourselves and in order to do that; you'll have to go out more often,"

"Hey, not fair. I am ready to go out more often. It will happen sooner or later so you just might as well tell me about it,"

"Nope, no way. You'll have to find it out yourself,"

Edward groaned, "Do I have another choice?"

By then, Alice is already standing at his door. "Yes, you do have other choices but you'll do what I asked you to do. I know it because I'm the psychic, remember?"

Edward rolled his eyes. How can such a little thing like her can be hugely irritating? He tried to read Alice's mind for the last time and still, he's greeted with the same graphic pictures.

"Uggh, Alice. Seriously, it's disgusting,"

Alice laughed and stuck her tongue toward Edward before leaving his room.

Edward was left all alone again in his room. He looked outside his window. The sun is still shinning so brightly that he couldn't even see any clouds near it. It'll rain soon. That's what Alice has said. He convinces it will happen. Everything Alice said came true. He'll never bet against Alice. That's what Bella always said, too. Edward shuts his eyes tightly. This has got to stop. I have to try for my family.

He knows what he needs to do. He needs to get out and try to figure out what Alice has seen just now. Edward smiled at himself. At last, something I actually looking forward to. For the first time in a long time, he actually has a happy feeling about this.

A/N: So? Lemme know what do you think.