Hola a todos!
This chapter is shorter than the previous two because, If I've added some other details It would become too long! … And I wanted to "close" the first part of my story, with that chapter: in the next one I'll talk about Hans' funeral and other strange and romanced stuff.
I'm so happy to see so many followers and favorites! Thank you all for following this fan fiction! 3
I'm desperately trying to keep untouched the elegant style of writing, but It's very, very, very difficult!
As I've just said, with this chapter I'm going to close the first part ( of many ) of my story: the frozen relationship between Queen Elsa and Anna will have a change … Will It be a good or a bad one? ;)
To write this chapter I listened a lot of epic songs and If you want to listen some of them here's the link:
watch?v=el5FjZe_V8Q&index=50&list=LLaNtkYxqTG-6pIYA05ra2_w
In this chapter I desperately tried to describe the extreme elegance and cuteness of the authoritative Queen Elsa and the strength of Anna Cavendish.
If you'll find some mistakes of grammar, forgive me but I'm trying my best to remove all of them!
What do you think about my fan fiction? How It is? Leave me a comment and I'll be able to understand what changes I can make to improve the plot! ;)
Said that, I wish you a good read!
I was in front of a white door, lost in the middle of nowhere, all around there were bushes of white roses and I could smell their wonderful perfume: It was delicate and inebriate … Was that the gate of the heaven?
I moved some steps towards the closed woody door and I leaned a hand on his inlays: a bloody track of my hand got printed on the surface.
What?
I looked the palm and I noticed my hand was completely dirty of blood: suddenly I started feeling sick for the enormous amount of pain my right side was sending me and I noticed my stomach was completely red …. Red because of the blood … My blood!
I didn't scream. Probably I was dying and I would accept my fate, but there was someone who was calling me, so I turned my head and I saw a blurry shape of a woman, who was running towards me. The light she was emanating was the same of the gate, but hers was warmer and her opened arms reassured me: I understand she would be my real heaven, so I ran towards her but when we hugged, happily, everything fell into the darkness again and a voice started calling my name.
" Miss Cavendish … Miss Cavendish!"
Who's calling me?
" Miss Cavendish please … Open your eyes!"
That authoritative voice … I know who's from … Could she be …?
I slowly opened my eyes and the Queen Elsa's worried face was a couple of inches from my nose: she was gently holding my head between her freezing hands. As I regained she made a little and uncertain smile, but after a second her expression turned blank as always.
Perhaps, under her glacial behaviors, there are some feelings. How can she be so inanimate?
" Well! Now I have to suture your opened wound and disinfect It, before It could get infected! Please … I know It'll burn but try to not move."
I nodded, my eyes were still sparkling but I was completely awake: I took a rapid look around me and I noticed I was into a large bed room.
The Queen arrived after a while with a package full of medical devices and she came closer to me: she grabbed my shirttails from my sides and she gently pulled It up, leaving my stomach completely naked, till she reached my breast and she stopped her climb. I blushed a bit and she seemed hesitant for a while, no one ever saw me half-naked. She took a little cloud of cotton and, after having poured on It a bit of a pink substance, she leaned It on my opened wound. The pain suddenly ran through all my body and a sob escaped from my closed mouth: what was she putting on my skin?
" AAGH!"
My back arched a bit to endure better the pain but she pressed a cold hand on my abdomen to make me climb down: I shivered a bit.
" Miss Cavendish, don't move please! Or It will take more time that It real needs!"
I smiled with sadness, grinning my teeth to endure better the pain.
" I'll try my best, my majesty!"
I had just accepted her challenge and she continued to softly medicate me. I could feel her cold fingers running to and fro the opened line of my wound and I was literary amazed for her rapidity and extreme precision. But suddenly an important question got my blank thoughts …
… H-How I got that injury?
Hans' hopeless eyes were the first thing which came into my mind, as a flash of a lightning into a clear sky, suddenly all the scenes of his death materialized in front of me as a real nightmare … He died because of me, he was out of control and I remembered the madness he put on his unexpected movement. A pain, bigger than the one produced by my opened wound, ran through my veins and as I just felt It, I wasn't capable to restrain: a cold tear appeared on my cheek and died on my half-opened mouth.
… Hans! W-Why did you do that?! How … How could I be able to tell your family the story of your death?! You were my best soldier!
Despite I clenched my fists, a sob escaped from my mouth again and I didn't pay attention If the Queen noticed It: I was a criminal, a person with no hopes, with any chances to have a peaceful life or finding a soul-mate. He believed in me because I was his captain, his guide and … I disappointed him so much for my irresponsibility and my inability that he committed suicide!
Probably the only way to reach my interior peace and save more persons is my death!
My wet eyes got lost on the little white and woody marquetry of the dark blue ceiling, carried by the flow of this thought.
" I've just finished to suture your opened wound, Miss Cavendish! Now you have to stay on the bed for the rest of the day. When you'll be capable to stay on your feet, you'll burn your soldier and then …"
I breathed out the words which ended perfectly her speech.
" Then you'll kill me as agreed, my majesty. Thank you for having nursed me! You are a good person beside your regale roles!"
She observed my smile full of sadness, astonished for a while, but immediately her eyes went serious and blank again, as always.
" I didn't mean this … But It sounded as you wish It. Do you really want to die?"
I started crying against my control.
" Yes!"
Queen Elsa grinned a bit.
" Gidayu! Call please two guards and order them to carry Miss Cavendish to her room. She has to rest!"
The little man nodded and ran out from the room to complete his order: suddenly, a suffocating silence filled the room.
" How coward you are!"
I breathed deeper.
" I'm not a coward, my majesty!"
She smiled living me completely astonished and angry and then she came closer to me: her blue eyes sparkled with challenge and then she grabbed my chin with her cold right hand.
" Yes you are, Miss Cavendish! You are a coward If you think your death will solve everything! Ninety-nine warriors need a good captain who lights the darkness of their roads … But If you want to die … I'll kill you as agreed!"
The two guards suddenly entered in the room with a woody gurney and I went out, living the Queen without her answer and, the last thing I saw, was the sadness printed on her eyes.
The night arrived and the moonlight was calling me: I tried to move from my bed and despite my wound was burning, I was able to reach the window and climb on the proof. I carried with me my blanket and I leaned on the gold shingles to rest, as Queen Elsa told me.
I had a big question to solve and my soul needed an answer. I inspired the perfume of an imminent autumn carried by a cold breeze and I got lost as always on a blue pastel skyline. My eyes ran immediately towards the direction of the village, where my soldiers were and I was sure they were just informed by guards that Hans was died.
Surely half an hour was passed and the full-moon of that night, was sparkling strongly all around the landscape. A lot of stars were on the sky as a waterfall of diamonds on a dark blue towel: a strange energy ran through my body and for the first time, the confusion on my mind seemed to be clearer.
The queen Is right … I'm not so sure that no one will sacrifice himself after my death and Kristoff, surely, Isn't able to carry on his shoulder the weight of such an important role …
I felt a freezing blow of air running behind me and I understood: she had just come to watch over me … As always.
" I told you to rest on your bed! Why are you here Miss Cavendish?"
Her authoritative voice made me smile.
" I just can't miss a call from that place, my majesty! I born into the darkness … The night is my element and the moon is my sun! The moon is so freezing, distant and alone, but It has stars which help It lighting all the night! I'm just hoping to find my star, sooner or later! The star which will make my life less dark!"
I turned my head to watch into her blue eyes and for the first time, I saw her impenetrable mask breaking a bit: she was smiling motherly, my heart missed a beat and my soul felt lightweight for a second.
She breathed deeply.
" I got It!"
Queen Elsa took a sit near me and she decided to stay with me on the proof.
" It's very difficult, Miss Cavendish, being a Queen of an entire Island … Do you know? You have to protect thousands people and you have to do your best to keep them all live! If you are a bad one, your state will fall on a lot of wars and slowly you will see all you work burning and getting destroyed … When I was in difficult, I desired thousand times to die and I could kill myself thousand times too! … But despite you could be free after your death, the state would continue to fall and all your beloved will suffer more! I just couldn't abandon at themselves the people of my island, I had a lot of responsibilities and I had to keep them all alive! I had to give them my best as their Queen! This island needs a good guide … My death would cause more problem then resting alive and fight for finding any solution!"
I was completely astonished in front of her speech: she was able to open my closed eyes, she lighted my dark road and I realized she was my star. I've never felt that sensation of interior peace, nether when Queen Victoria gave me a second possibility: maybe continuing my career as the fourth colonel of my Queen wasn't the right road, maybe my real place, the place where I probably could find my little piece of heaven, was that island. That was the first time this doubt reached my mind … Which is my right place to live in?
I looked into her vivid blue eyes and she leaned her cold hand on my shoulder.
" This is the same for a captain , Miss Cavendish!"
I nodded sure of what I was going to answer her.
" As the captain of this expedition I tried to do my best to keep all my troop alive, but I failed! I've lost one of the most important soldier I've ever had and person I knew … But I have still the life of ninety-nine men on my shoulders and I can't abandon them, even If this will mean dying! I tried to find a solution but I risked to choose the simplest one: the dead! Solutions are always difficult to find and now I've understood what I have to do … I've understood which is my road! Tomorrow I'll burn Hans' body and after his funeral, every kind of choice you'll make on my count, my majesty, I'll be happy! You lighted my dark way as a star, Queen Elsa, and I'll never forget that!"
I smiled and I saw her blushing suddenly: she turned away her head to cover her cheeks shyly and I felt warmer for her extreme cuteness, I was sure of what I was going to do and surely I wasn't regretful about what I've just said.
" I'm not going to kill you Miss Cavendish … I mean, not now nor after the funeral of your friend! I got moved for your solid temperament! You behaved as a good captain when he stabbed you."
I smiled with sadness at her first compliment.
" Thank you my majesty! I-I just did my best to save him, despite he was stronger than me!"
" I'm an orphan too, Miss Cavendish"
I was literary astonished for her unexpected confession she made to change the direction of the speech.
She got lost on the skyline as I was used to do … What was she doing? Was she going to open a bit with me? Why?
She smiled with sadness too, and hugged her perfect legs: she was wearing a white and blue kimono that night and she was elegant as ever.
" My parents were killed by a powerful clan who was resenting our crown, when I was five. I was adopted by a couple of old peasants and the clan Sadanobu arise! When I was ten and I discovered to have powers, I started training myself to control them and at the age of fourteen, I killed all the members of the clan Sadanobu, completing my vengeance and I freed the island from their dictatorship. I was celebrated as the new Queen and the only survived of the clan Tokugawa … And my emperor began! The year after, my adoptive parents died and I was alone. In three years I solved all the problem the dictatorship caused and, when people discovered my powers, they started venerating me! Now we are even, Miss Cavendish!"
I was astonished but I didn't understand the end of his revelation: she surely saw the doubt on my expression so she breathed and looked me.
" The first day we met, Miss Cavendish, you told me about your past and now I told you mine … That's why we're even!"
I nodded but I didn't speak so she did the same and a peaceful silence filled the atmosphere: Queen Elsa turned again towards me to see directly my eyes and we made an eye contact, my heart started beating faster … Why was I feeling so strange?
" Are you afraid of me … Miss Cavendish?"
For the first time she seemed fragile and I saw the reflection of my childhood into her blue eyes.
" I'm a monster too my Queen … How could I be feared by a person who had my same horrible childhood? Since the first day you showed yourself at me, here, where we are sat now, I always saw the same shadows I had, behind your blue eyes! I'm not afraid of you, my majesty, we fought against the same demons … I'm not feared, I'm happy … Happy to have found an ally and a good person as you! You lighted my road Queen Elsa!"
She looked me hesitant with her mouth half-opened, she surely wanted to say something but she wasn't able: her body started shiver a bit and a cold hand leaned on my right cheek and slowly caressed my face. Also Queen Victoria sometimes complimented with me, doing that gesture but I've never felt so good as with the one Queen Elsa gifted me: I accompanied with my head her movement to make the caress during more and I closed my eyes to feel better the feeling of warm … The feeling of peace!
When I opened again my eyes, I saw a diamond tear ran free on the pale side of her face … Was she crying because of me?!
" Oh no … A-Are you crying because of me, my majesty?!"
A big and true smile curved her lips and I admired her beauty in silence, smiling too.
" No Miss Cavendish, don't worry!"
She leaned a kiss on my forehead and, saying goodnight, she disappeared into the darkness of the night.
Astonished, I leaned a shaking hand where she had just kissed me, I immediately blushed and a little sob escaped from my mouth: I had never imagined she was so cute behind her regal rules.
After some minutes, passed looking the horizon, to say goodbye at the moon as the lonely wolf I was, I went to bed and I desperately tried to sleep, but nightmares got me again, as always.