Chapter 3: I'll be damned if he stays.
Sitting in English seeing the Aaron kid in front of me just made me want to deck him. Unable to focus I pull out a scrap bit of paper and start fiddling with a song that stuck in my head.
I long for him to hold me When I look within I long for him to serenade When I look inside
Offer his shoulder
Cherish him as a flower
Adore him as an angel
He longs for a defender
A love-inspired prize fighter
A champion
A charmer
A prince so noble like me
Do I see a prince
Smiling back at me
Or do I see a soul that's been swallowed
By selfishness and greed
If I'll ever be a great lover
I must remember this
Love that lasts forever
Is found only in
him
Think of him throughout my days
Know when to buy him flowers
Talk with him for hours
He longs for a lover
A true man of tenderness
A gentleman
A poet
A prince so noble like me
Do I see the signs
That God is changing me
Or do I see a man still led by self
Yearning to be free
If I'll ever be a great lover
I must remember this
Love that lasts forever
Is found only in
him
I reread it a couple of times and decided am not good at song writing well song fiddling, I ripped up the bit of paper and shove it in my jeans pocket. I hear the bell ring "Finally lunch I could try and forget all about Aaron and Kurt." After getting food I carried my tray over to were the other gleeks sat I saw a flash of dirty blond hair and I felt my stomach twist in anger, I force a smile on my face as I sit down "Hey guys!" I say cheerily everyone greets me back I decided to play the dumb card when it comes to Aaron "Oh who's this?" "Oh sorry am Aaron Noel I think your in my English and History class." I smile to him and nod my head "Sweet...are you new or something?" he looks and me with confusing "Uh no we went to middle school together." "Oh.." I take a bite of my hamburger.
"What the hell wrong with Finn, he knows Aaron he's copied his homework many times." "Are you OK Finn?" I ask he looks up to and nods "Yeah but I just heard some upsetting news." I bit my lip "Oh what happened?" "Well this guy from the football team had just told someone how the felt but he had to keep it a secret till he sorted stuff out but the person could not cope being a "dirty little secret". They walked off and left the guy behind after 2nd lesson they had went to find them to find out some other guy had asked them out and they had agreed."I stood up "Excuse me I need to go to the bathroom." "Are you all right Kurt?" Aaron asks me I smile to him and nod and leave the cafeteria.
"Yeah I think I need the loo too I'll be right back." I say standing up jogging to catch up with Kurt. I reach the bathroom to see Kurt fixing his hair "What do you want Finn?" he snaps I feel a little hurt but get closer to him "Why are you going on a date with that Aaron guy?" I ask Kurt turns round to look at me "Because Finn I want to is that such a problem?" "But I thought you liked me?" Kurt lets out a sigh "Look Finn you have a girlfriend that's pregnant she needs you I cant take you away from that and I cant keep our relationship a secret, my dad always says to me dont let people keep you a secret Kurt if they want to do then they dont deserve you...as much as it pains me I cant be with you Finn not with that baby on the way." Kurt brushes past me and walks out the bathroom I feel tears prick my eyes, I rub them to stop any tears from falling.
"It was only lunch time yet I had managed to push Kurt into the arms of another and I would be damned if he stayed there, he loves me not Aaron Noel me Finn Hudson and I loved him back."