Everything in my life has been nothing you could understand
My every move was judged and watched
My every emotion had to be kept in check
Not even allowed my mother's embrace.
Yet how could you ever understand?
You never experienced what I have.
Your life is something that I consider a childhood fantasy
Living in the sun, freedom your only guide to decision
The ability to let out every bit of your feelings
You were even allowed to weep on your parents' shoulders.
How could I ever think you could understand my pain?
Your experiences are nothing like mine.
That is the clearest difference between you and me.
I will never see your world as a reality
And my world is a nightmare that couldn't happen to you.
Yet you can not bear to see my face so stoic
Nor can I, even if I don't show it, bare your tears.
So maybe for a little while I can let my self go?
Just a little…just to see you smile.
Even if we can't understand each others world.
Even if you were free while I was bound.
Even if you could weep and scream to your content while I never could.
And even if your family showed their emotion like mine never could…
I want to see you smile.
So I will let go little by little…so I can see you smile.