This is just a short chapter. But I need to let you know what's going on with Bella. Next will be Edward's POV and Rosalie's --

BPOV

This is getting ridiculous Rosalie. She's been carrying that damn picture around all week. When I gave it to her I didn't think this was going to happen."

Emmy has been carting Edward's picture around with her everywhere. She keeps it under her pillow at night and in her pocket during the day.

"Well…it's the only thing she has that reminds her on him-It's kinda cute."

Rose had come over to take Emmy for a stroll through the park. She knew I was in desperate need of some me time. We were all leaving for Disney in 5 days, and I had a few things to take care of before we left.

"It's really hard not think to think about him when I see is picture 100 times a day." All I wanted was to get him out of my head for a few hours, and that was proving to be extremely hard.

"Alice and I told you. You don't need to focus on forgetting about him, just allow yourself to become immune to hearing about him or seeing his picture. He is Emmy's father, and since you've basically told her all about him, you can't now refuse to talk about him."

Damn Rosalie Hale and her wisdom.

"I know, I know. It would crush Emmy if I told her to stop asking me about him-even though I don't know the answers to the questions she's asking."

"What does she want to know?"

Thankfully Emmy was upstairs picking out the perfect park outfit and couldn't hear this conversation.

"Everything. What his favorite food is, color, holiday. She literally wants to know it all, and I just don't know."

Just then we hear the pitter patter of little feet coming down the stairs.

Rosalie gave me a look telling me this conversation was far from over.

"Ready to go play in the park little one?" Rosalie excitedly asked Emmy. Emmy nodded her head and grabbed Rose's hand.

"Bye Mommy!" Emmy shouted as they walked out the door.

It had been a week since Emmy's birthday. Since I was officially 'letting Edward go' or whatever this was.

I finished my letter-sealed it in an envelope and addressed it. I sent it out the next day, just as I had always done and walked to my room.

I gave myself one night. One night to cry and that was it. I wasn't going to allow anyone to see me upset-One night to let it all out.

I honestly don't know if I've ever cried that much in my life. Some point during the night I slipped into a coma and didn't wake the next morning until 10am.

Emmy was sitting on my bed with a pile of books and the TV on-just letting me be.

That was the end of my melt down. I wasn't going to allow Emmy to see me upset-there would be too many questions.

As I made breakfast for us I mentally prepared for the questions that were sure to come-and they did. Emmy started the questions about her father over breakfast and hasn't really stopped.

She can be playing in the other room and suddenly she'll come in with a new question. The flood gates have opened-and I don't see an end in sight. I just wish I knew the answers to the questions. It's like the universe is using my daughter to tell me 'you've been in love with someone you don't actually know anything about'. I wish I knew the answers for my daughter as well as myself.

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While Rosalie had Emmy out for the afternoon, I was going to take full advantage of it.

First I was going to my Bikram yoga class, which kept me in shape. I'm not coordinated enough for jogging-so I figured that yoga was safe for me. There's no props used that could somehow be thrown from my hands or any fast movements that could land me in the hospital.

Unfortunately, Emmy I think has inherited my gracefulness. She tends to fall more than the other children I see running around-so I've set a plan in motion to help her out in life-before it gets too bad it take on a life of it's own like for me.

Once a week Emmy and I take a mommy and me yoga class, I figured maybe yoga will calm her movements and won't turn into a spaz like I was at her age.

Alice has also been bugging me to come into her store and try a few things on for our vacation. Apparently my clothes from last summer aren't good enough to wear-she'd threatened to but all my clothes in Goodwill if I didn't, so I was planning on stopping there after yoga.

We were also hoping to catch a glimpse of this of this handsome bear that Rosalie can't stop thinking about. Ever since she's told us about him, Alice and I have been hanging around hoping to see him-but somehow he's managed to only walk by when it's just Rosalie there. He must be well versed in when Rose works and doesn't work…which it kind of stalkerish. Rosalie still hasn't grown the balls to make the first move and talk to him. Which is fine because I haven't made any plans on dating anyone either.

Alice and Jasper on the other hand as decided to stick around New York longer than he was planning on. They were actually really cute together and I could see it in his eyes that he cares for Alice just as much if not more than she does for him.

Rosalie and I had dinner with the tow of them a few nights ago and I got to know Jasper better-and I just loved him. He was brilliant and interesting and really funny. Despite his good looks he was actually shy, but it seems that Alice is just who he needs to bring him out of his shell. And in turn Jasper calms Alice down-which I've never seen happen.

Once Rosalie and stalker boy finally grew some it would be the odd man out-and that terrified me. I didn't want to be stuck where I was-I want to move on, but I'm scared of how Emmy will react. Emmy wants her father and if I brought a man around-how would she react?