A/N--Thanks to the people who commented. It really does help me to get chapters written faster. From here on out This will be mostly AU but i will try to keep the big point of season one in my story...minus donna dying, i like her in my story...PLEASE LEAVE A REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK
Chapter 3--All Over me
I see it's too late now
There's something in the way
And I don't know how
I can hear the reaper calling
This boy's already fallen
-Default
Megan, Donna and I drank ourselves stupid last night, and my head definitely wasn't going to let me forget that anytime soon. I roll over to find the source of the annoying noise causing my head to throb harder. Ouch, sun doesn't help much either. I look up from my bed on the floor to see Juice, Opie and Jax cooking breakfast. Megan is sitting on top of the island wrapped in a blanket sipping on a cup of coffee. "Morning doc, got a magic remedy for this hangover I have?"
"Water, Motrin, sleep, and them being quiet. That's all I got. Aren't you the bartender and how the fuck did I end up inside?"
"We came in after a little girl talk, from there it's a bit fuzzy" we both look at Opie, hoping for an answer.
"Don't look at me I picked my wife off the floor and brought you two lushes blankets. I now remember why we don't let Megan over too often" I attempt a smile at Opie's joke, and quickly shoot a pleading look at Jax as he taunts me by shaking a bottle of Motrin around. Asshole.
"Come up and get it if you need one so bad." I next turn to Megan for help.
"Don't look at me, I drank their raw egg concoction, thinking if anybody knew about hangover remedies it would be these three. Turns out they just wanted to see my face when I tasted it." Even I giggle at that, until it sends a searing pain through my head that is.
"It was well worth it though." Juice chimes in. I almost forgot he was here until he spoke, it is so easy to act like nothing has changed around Megan and the boys.
"Still not as great as the phone call I got from my brother during you're diaper incident last week." I raise my head to look at Megan now. Bothe Jax and Opie are laughing at this point.
"Diaper incident?" Do I really want to know? "Can you four at least wait till the Motrin is in my system to be so loud?" This makes them laugh louder, so I finally stand up and walk over to Jax, jumping to reach the Motrin bottle he had raised above his head.
"I forgot how bad your morning breath gets princess" Finally I reach the bottle and grab three. Opie hands me a glass of water and as it the headache starts to minimize the haziness of the night leaves to. The more I remember though the more I wish I didn't though.
"So who is the better kisser Tara, Jax or Opie?" Donna's eyes go big as the question leaves Megan's mouth. "Or my brother?"
"YOU kissed Opie, and Deputy Sheriff Hale?"
"Opie was when I was twelve, and Megan made the four of us play spin the bottle, and Hale was in like the second grade and on the cheek, boy's still had cuties back then." Megan rolls her eyes at me and I am reminded that it is my turn to ask a question. "Megan, who do you think the better kisser is?"
"Oh no Tara, I asked first so you answer first."
"Fine Definitely Jax." They both giggle, I am assuming they had guessed my answer when it was asked of me. "Your turn to answer Megan."
"Well since, I don't kiss David, and Opie's wife is sitting next to me I will say Jax also." Donna laughs a little.
"You don't have to say Jax for my sake I know my husband can kiss." We all laugh now, taking sips out of our wine glasses, we had finished off the Jack while we were next to the swing set, and a box of wine had been the next best thing. "My turn though, Megan, besides your family is there anybody in this town you haven't kissed?"
I take a sip and wait for Megan to answer. "YOU and Unser that's it."
I choke on my wine as she says that I had almost completely forgotten about the senior prom.
"In my defense it was senior prom and the boys dared us."
"True but you allowed it." I roll my eyes at her and she just laughs. "Same Old Tara."
"Are you planning on eating with us Tara, or day dreaming all day?" Jax speaks and it brings me back to the present.
"Yeah, sorry, I was thinking about last night." It's the truth, before our little game of truth or dare I had been destroyed, by a guy who I had know right to care about. But seeing him so angry, and knowing I was the cause of it had hurt. Somewhere in the week I had been home, I had started to let myself care again, and I wasn't sure where that left us. I wasn't sure I wanted to know.
"Don't worry it will get handled." Opie says placing the orange juice on the table. "We can't let some ATF agent scare you off when you just got back, now can we?" I smile and take a pancake from the stack in the center of the table.
"Hey where's Donna?"
"Still in bed, she doesn't handle liquor like you two do." Meg and I roll our eyes, at opie.
The rest of breakfast is filled with playful banter. Juice tells me the diaper story and I give him a small lecture on taking unlabeled pills while yelling at Jax for publicly humiliating one of his brothers. Megan tells me I should go make sure my restraining order is still valid in Charming, and I promise that I will go see her brother later on.
The sheriff's department, is not quite where I expected to run into Jax. Yet here he was along with Clay and Gemma, funny thing is in the hundreds of times I had seen this scenario it was always Gemma trying to bail Jax and Clay out. Today that seemed to be Jax's job. He turns around to see me once he realizes that Hales attention is no longer on him.
"Well Doc, didn't I just see you a few hours ago?"
"Yes, and I would think you were following me, if your mother wasn't behind bars, can I take a picture please?" Jax smiles.
"I actually need your help." I'm not sure if I asked I would be privy to the knowledge so I just nod. "It's nothing big I just need you to re-set a nose"
"Yeah, that's fine, I have to talk to Hale's like I promised, but if you wait outside I will come with you." Jax nods and heads outside. I head up to the desk where David Hale's is sitting.
"Tara Knowles, I heard you were back in town, what can I do for you?" I want to roll my eyes so badly at the stain on David's tie, but I promised Jax I would help him, so I should prolly get straight to the point. Telling him would result in me waiting 20 minutes while he tried to get the stain out. You just have to love the priorities of our local sherrif's department.
"I just have a quick question actually."
"Anything for you Tara." I swear if he starts hitting on me, I might punch him. Megan's brother or not things haven't changed that much since high school and I still would never date him.
"Well I had a restraining order in Chicago, and I wanted to make sure it was still valid in this state."
"Are you afraid this person will come to Charming?"
"Actually I think he may be here already." Hale's looks surprised but attempts to keep his composure. That's when he walks out, the man who ran me out of Chicago, Josh Kohn. I jump at the site of him, part of me wants to run, but where to, I came back because I feel safe here. Charming was my only chance at hiding.
"Tar Tar, you look shocked to see me."
"What are you doing here Josh?" I take a deep breath trying to suppress the panic that is building up inside of me. This can't be happening, suddenly Deputy Hale's says he will be back in a minute. Is he really leaving me alone right now. I can feel I see Clay looking at me through the window. I wish he could be in here right now.
"Arms case led me here it seems your precious biker may be involved."
"I have a Restraining Order for a reason Josh."
"I understand that Tar Tar, but my case takes precedence over the Restraining order." There really is nothing I can do, he has created a scenario that I can't control. Relief flushes over me as I see Hale's purpose for leaving, for once his eavesdropping on Jax and I has paid off. The blonde biker follows him close behind. I gain a little courage at the site of Jax.
"My name is Tara." Jax is almost in earshot and my heart rate is starting to slow back down. "Just stay away please."
"I can't promise that if you insist on consorting with these criminals." He waves his arms to display Gemma, Jax and Clay. "I only have your best interest at heart Tara."
Jax is finally at my side, what took so long. "Tara go outside, while I have a conversation with Agent Kohn."
"Jax…" He interrupts me before I get a chance to finish my statement. He probably knows I would beg him to leave it alone. I hear him mention something about missing pictures as I walk outside.
It only takes ten minutes for Jax to return to his bike. This day is turning out to be a long day. He hands me a helmet, already knowing that I am too stressed to drive myself. I accept it, thinking how much I love that he knows me so well.
"Cherry, right?" The girls nods, and I assume I have the right name. I clean up her nose while prospect stands in the back. "You must have pissed Gemma off pretty bad for her to lose composure like that."
"It's nothing I didn't deserve." The girl shifts uneasily under Prospects gaze. She must like him, but from what I can see on his end of things he is doing his job. That's what they do here, make sure their secrets stay hidden.
That was part of the reason I left, I saw secrets haunt Bobby's wife when I was younger. I saw how this was a life that the men chose and the women came second to. I couldn't handle the lies and deceit that came along with the club.
This girl had been seasoned for this life. She was a sweet butt that much was obvious, but eventually she would become an old lady. She would be the one to carry the burden of her husbands secrets. If she stayed around long enough Gemma would take her under her wing, and teach her how to accept the unacceptable. In the future this broken noise would be a cute story between friends, not an unspoken claim on territory.
"So whose old lady are you?" The girls question brings me out of my thoughts. I wonder where she got the impression that I was an old lady. She must see my confusion because she points to the crow peeking out from under my shirt.
"That was a long time ago." Prospect lets a chuckle slip past his lips. I turn back to him, wondering what is so funny. He gets quiet, and I assume that he doesn't plan on sharing. I roll my eyes and walk past him. Telling him, to call me if the swelling increases. He nods, and moves from the doorway allowing me to pass.
Jax sis leaning over his mothers desk when I get to the office. His eyes meet mine almost immediately as if he feels the same pull I do when he is near me. I can't help but wonder how we got to this place. We weren't always this awkward and silent. Before I left our time was filled with laughter and chemistry.
Now I look at him and wonder where he fits in my life. I wish it could be as simple as doctor and patient, but that was never who we were. We were never quite that simple, all the chemistry in the world couldn't hide the fact that for as in love as we had been we never quite fit. "What is that goofy smile for?" I ask as I notice him staring at me, he walks over from the desk, moving just inches from my face, I can smell the mix of gas and leather and I can't help but breath him in.
"I forgot the look you get on your face when you get lost in your thoughts." He is so close right now that I can barely keep my mind from going into overload. As if he can read my mind he backs up, leaning against the desk now. The absence of his scent in the air tugs at my heart a bit. I am not supposed to care. "Penny for your thoughts."
I smile at the change of his tone, it is easier to talk to him when he is joking. That way I don't feel like my every word is being analyzed for some secret meaning. Then again maybe I am the only one who does that. "I could have handled Kohn you know."
"I know you are perfectly capable Tara, but you shouldn't have to, he shouldn't be here and we both know that. Hale's said that when agent Stahl, The real ATF agent tracking us, checked on him he is supposed to be on vacation. Tara his superiors don't know he's here." How do I even respond to this? So Josh really is here for me, this changes things. Before I could at least pretend that he was here for the club and not me, now though I understood, he wanted me and he wasn't leaving until he got what he came for. "Tara, we are gonna get through this."
He walks back over to me, pulling me into a hug. I don't fight him now, I need him just this one time to make me believe it's okay. He leaves telling juice to stay with me. Juice immediately calls Megan who rushes over to the clubhouse. Once Megan is here Juice allows me and her to talk in the office, standing just outside the closed door.
"What did I do?" Reality is finally hitting me, I allowed Jax to go after Kohn. What if Kohn shoots him. Or worse yet what if he shoots Kohn, that's injuring a federal agent, he has his son to think about. I can't let him do this, not for me, I'm not deserving of this.
"You need to calm down, Jax isn't a jealous 18 year old anymore, he will take care of himself." Megan runs her hands through my hair as she talks. It is actually calming and I close my eyes these last two days have drained me, I need some rest.
Juice must have moved me, because when I come to I am in Jax's room above the club. I only know because of the picture of him and Thomas on the mirror. It was his favorite one of the two of them. I smile as I look at some of his other pictures, one of him and Opie together before prom, and finally one of him sitting on his fathers bike, he was young in the picture and John was right behind him making sure the bike didn't tip.
I walk downstairs to find Jax sitting with Megan and Juice. "What time is it?" Jax limps a bit as he walks to meet me at the stairs.
"Around nine."
"What happened to you, are you alright?" Jax leads me out the door. We find a spot under a tree to sit and talk. The doctor in me comes out as I try to find some way to inspect the wound that is obviously causing him pain.
"Tara, the wound is to high up and I don't feel like talking to that ATF Bitch over an indecent exposure charge." His voice is groggy so I sit in silence waiting for him to tell me what is going on. "Kohn is gone, I watched him leave town a little bit ago." I nod, noticing that he isn't done talking. "I can't help but wonder though, did you come back to town because you knew I would hurt this guy?"
My worry immediately turns to outrage as he sits there questioning my motives, I mean yes I feel safest here, but still to say I used him to get rid of Josh is absurd. "No, I didn't know he would follow me here, I honestly thought this would be done when I left Chicago." He doesn't look at me so I decide I will continue this time. "This doesn't sound like you Jax, it sounds like your mother."
I can see the tears forming in his eyes, and at this moment I would do anything to take back my last comment. I hate to think that I could cause him anymore pain than I already had. He sits with his head in hands for a minute before speaking. "Tara?"
His voice is shaky as he says my name, and I turn to look at him, afraid the tears won't have left his face yet. I am right, his eyes are still watering when he speaks. "stay the night?"
I sigh, this is definitely a mistake, but how can I say no to something I want so much. I once again nod, taking his hand as he leads me to the room I had vacated minutes earlier.