Chapter 3: Adulthood and past struggles.
One grayish cloudy and yet rainy day. Clerkenwell was back at home noticing the place was cleaned up like what Craig Morrsey said he do for him at his apartment. First thing Clerkenwell does, he starts to packing up his mothers and Father's belongings crying with tears streaming down his cheeks, knowing his Mother is gone. Only things of his Mother's that he kept and couldn't part with was pictures of her, her journals, and her family pictures. For his Father's things he kept clothes for himself, his pocket watch and more Clerkenwell needed. Clerkenwell did want to leave the picture downwards of His Mother with his old Bastard dad. But something was telling him to look at it. So Clerkenwell took the picture and looked at the picture of his parents who was happy in the picture. His Mother in a long flowery white wedding gown, then his father with the suit Clerkenwell's mother gave him. He was wearing his Father's old wedding tux suit. Clerkenwell in anger of his dad, he doesn't put the picture back downwards but puts it in a empty dresser drawer of his mother's never to looking at that ass hole of a Father's face ever again. Clerkenwell continues to cleaning out his Mother's room in Boxes and put the kept stuff in her room still there. Thinking to himself now. "I don't know why this keeps happening to me." He stops thinking and looks outside seeing it was still cloudy he picks up the boxes of His Mother's belongings, His Father's belongings, Then his Kid stuff and takes them into her use to be car and packs up the car tight.
Clerkenwell now getting in the car and starts it up. He starts to get out of his drive way and goes to a clothing store to give his Mother's stuff and clothes a new home. "Someone else less fortunate might of needed this stuff more than I do." Clerkenwell Thought to himself. He parks the car and unloads the car of boxes in the store giving the boxes to the worker and walking out of the store. Clekrenwell then unlocks the car and starts up the car. He then leaves the parking lot driving back home to still keep busy. Clekrenwell gets the car parked and starts to lock up the car, He soon starts to walk to the house and unlocks the front door and steps in. Clerkenwell looking around see's the chair his Father use to sit in and out of anger more, He picks up the chair and throws it out the back door. Clerkenwell now gets started back up stairs and fixes his Mother's room into his own room. His old room will be for guests whenever he has someone to visit him, Family Relatives or perhaps some Friends? Who knows? Just a room for anyone. Clerkenwell got his stuff and packed up his clothes in dresser drawers, on one of the dressers he puts his Mother's picture on one of the dressers, on the other dresser used to been his Father's He puts His belongings and his use to be Father's belongings on it that he kept. Now what Clerkenwell needs is to buy a book shelf for his family photo albums and His Mother's Journals and he is all set up. A knock on the door was heard.
Clerkenwell now goes downstairs to see who was knocking at his front door. He see's through his peep hole and sees its a man wearing all black work suit. pressed, prim and proper looking gentleman. Clerkenwell then opens the door. "Um. what can I do you for sir?" Asked Clerkenwell. "Well You see sir. I am hear to tell you of your Mother's will to you. She left you a lot mr. Clerkenwell." Answered the young gentleman. "Oh then please come in and take a seat please." Said Clerkenwell sincerely while shutting the front door. The young Gentleman sits on the sofa and Clerkenwell Sits in his Mother's chair. "Now Clerkenwell? Your Mother has left you everything in the house, Her insurance money, Her car, and everything in the house is yours." The young gentleman says smiling kindly. "Oh okay then." Answered Clerkenwell with a frown almost about to cry. "I am still sorry for your loss Clerkenwell. But we now set up her funeral arrangements like she wanted too in her will. so you don't have to handle or deal with that. Also Do you want body guards to Your Mother's Funeral?" Says and asked the young gentleman. "Yes I want Body Guards there. I don't want to see my Bastard of a Father or That Nosy Rosey out of my Mother's funeral too." Says Clerkenwell Sternly. "You got it sir. I think this is all I needed Clerkenwell Sir. Thank you for your time." Says the Young Gentleman "Your welcome and thank you as well for your time too." Said Clerkenwell with a smile so kind.
As soon as Clerkenwell Opened the door for the Gentleman that leaves. Clerkenwell Waves nicely good bye and shuts the front door and locks it again. Clerkenwell Goes in the Kitchen and making dinner and some tea. Clerkenwell goes ahead and makes baked Chicken, homemade mash potatoes and Corn. The Dinner was done and he takes a plate out and makes himself a plate of dinner that night. Clerkenwell Starts to eat and sip on his tea, A Clash of Lightning was heard from outside, it starts to rain outside. Clerkenwell Never minded the rain, He loved the rain how it pitter pattered on the roof and hearing the rain slide down the rain gutters. Making a calm and relaxing sound for him to sleep to when a child and still to this day as a adult. Clerkenwell smiled listening to the rain, After he got done with his dinner. He cleaned up his dishes and neatly putting them away, Then he put away his left overs in the fridge. Clerkenwell went upstairs into the bathroom stripped his clothes off taking himself a shower, He got out of the shower and then head into his Mother's room and got ready for bed. Now turning out the lights and laying down in His Mother's bed he starts to hear the pitter patter of rain on roof and rain going down the gutters and off to sleep soundly.
Next Day Clerkenwell Hears the alarm clock of His, He Taps it to letting it stop jingling of its two golden bells on it. Clerkenwell Gets up and gets ready for his Mother's Funeral. Brushing His hair, straightening up his red tie and another suit his Father had in the closet that was a grayish Black color. puts on the hat his Mother bought him. Clerkenwell Then goes downstairs into the kitchen and Makes eggs and toast for himself, then makes a ice cold glass of Orange Juice for him. Clerkenwell Takes the food and drink to the table and then starts to eat his breakfast and drinks his orange juice. Soon after he got done. He heads back upstairs into bathroom and brushes his teeth next, Then goes back downstairs after he got done and unlocks the front door to head him self out to the Funeral.
Clerkenwell Then goes outside and unlocks the drivers side door and goes in it, Gets the car started and goes out of the drive way with the car. "Well Clerkenwell today is it Your own Mother's Funeral." Clerkenwell says to himself sighing. "He drives to the funeral home and parks in the parking lot. Relatives, friends and his coworkers was there with the two big Body guards. The Body guards stops him for his name. "Yes my name is Clerkenwell." Says Clerkenwell frowning. "Well I be..." One of the body guards says shocked. "Butch...This is Clerkenwell The kid we actually bullied in the past." Says The Body guard. "Why Billy it is. We are Body guarding for the guy who we use to bully." Said Butch Shocked. "Wow. You guys are taller than me and sure grew up!" says Clerkenwell with a smile. "Its been years!" replied Clerkenwell "We are sorry for your loss and sorry for the way we bullied you back then Clerkenwell." Said both Butch and Billy at same time. "It's okay guys but may I go in for my Mother's Funeral service it is about to start." Said Clerkenwell still smiling politely as he could to them. "Oh yes! gosh! Yes you may! Right this way!" says butch while Billy Lets Clerkenwell inside. Clerkenwell then looks at his Mother looking like she is resting and starts to cry. A Lady puts her hand on his shoulder, He looks over at her. "Hello Clerkenwell. I am sorry for your loss of your Mother." She says frowning. "Thanks. its fine. I know she is in a better place where she will never hurt any more." Clerkenwell sniffed and wiped his tears while talking to the Lady. "It's me Priscella." She smiles. "Oh wow. You look beautiful now and back then too Priscella." Clerkenwell says with a smile still wiping his tears from his face. Priscella Smiles and giggles. "Thank you and you look handsome now and from back then too." Priscella smiles while blushing. The funeral service about to start and people had to take their seats. Priscella sits by Clerkenwell and his family member all sat close to the front rows and on the front rows. The preacher speaks "Good evening to all. As we gather here today to say our fair wells and good byes to A Mother, A Friend, A Sister, and A Aunt. May the Lord Take her to The Great Golden Gates Of Heaven where she can be at peace and see others who has left us on the other side to greet, love and care for her there." Clerkenwell cries and hurting deep now. Priscella puts a arm around his shoulder and hugs him. The Peacher gets done and Clerkenwell was the first one in line to tell his Mother good bye. "Good bye Mother and I love you. we will meet again soon." Says clerkenwell Crying hard. After all the people went outside. Clerkenwell and three his uncles, and two of his cousins was Paw Bears carrying her caskets to the hearse. They put the casket in and Clerkenwell along with his Mother's sister's and Brother's rode in the limo while rest drove their cars to the grave site. Clerkenwell gets out of the limo with his family members and stands there crying hard as the preacher talked. His uncle and aunt puts both hands on clerkenwells shoulders to rub on or to just pat on while Clerkenwell cried. As soon as Clerkenwell's Mother's casket was lowered in the ground. Clerkenwell took a fist of dirt and put it on her casket as the Aunts and uncles did that was her sisters and Brothers.
As Soon as the funeral was done he goes to the Nightclub where His Mother wanted the reception to take place. Where She got to see Her Son Clerkenwell perform his first performance when she was ill. Clerkenwell, family members and friends all taken seats. Clerkenwell took his same spot where he cried at and where he took his first drinks of wine, Scotch, and whiskey at. But he hears a familiar Voice, not from his relatives, friends or coworkers he worked with at the joint. but it was from his past, His Haunting past... Clerkenwell drinks his whiskey shot and glances down the bar. Sitting there at the end of the bar was his no good, dead beat father who left him when eight years old. Clerkenwell gets up and walks to his father. "Ello Sir remember me?" Clerkenwell asks trying to not get angry. "No I don't know you at all sir. But you are kinda blocking my moves on this Doll I am trying to score with." Said His Father annoyed. "I AM YOUR FUCKING SON! THE CHIP OFF THE OLE BLOCK!" Says Clerkenwell pissed as hell. "Clerkenwell? it's really you?" Asked Clerkenwell's Father "YES YOU ASS HOLE! THE SON YOU LEFT AT THE AGE EIGHT YEARS OLD! THE SON YOU LEFT AFTER YOU ARGUED AT MY MOTHER AND NEVER CAME BACK! THE SON YOU NEVER DONE NOTHING FOR IN HIS WHOLE LIFE OF LIVING!" Clerkenwell yelled tearing up. "Wheres your mum?" Clerkenwell's Father asked "Shes gone father... she passed away...also she left me everything cause I was the man of the fucking house compared to you!" His Father Gets up anger. "Listen here you little piece of shit... I left cause..." After Clerkenwell's father has a chance to finish that sentence Clerkenwell cuts it off. "CAUSE YOU WERE A DRUNK, A CHEATER AND A LOW DOWN NO BODY THAT NEVER GOT A JOB TO SUPPORT HIS DAMN FAMILY! WELL MUM WAS BETTER OFF BEING GREAT AS A SINGLE PARENT THAN BEING STUCK WITH A LAZY ASS HOLE LIKE YOU!" Yelled Clerkenwell. Clerkenwell's Father Grabs a hold of Clerkenwell's throat hoisting him in air. Clerkenwell Grabs a wine bottle and smaches it over his Father's head. Causing Clerkenwell's Father to let got of him throat and on the ground. Clerkenwell sees his Father get up and go after him one more time, Clerkenwell then takes his own fist, bundles it up and revs it up and socks His Father in the face. Soon as his Father is knocked down on the floor, Clerkenwell picks up the smashed bottle to his Fathers face with the other hand around his throat. Now Talking into his Father's ear. "Now don't you ever come into this town, my work place, my house, OR my life ever again...or I will tare you up Father dearest... Clerkenwell says angry and stern. His Father nods and Clerkenwell lets him get up slowly and get out The Nightclub. Clerkenwell Breathing hard in anger sits back down on his bar stool and orders a whiskey while others got done seeing Clerkenwell and his Father's fight not saying a word to him and let him cool off. "Kid. I never seen you like that before." Craig laughs. "Mr. Morrsey he was a ass hole and needed it from me on years to come." Clerkenwell said while still angry. Butch and billy comes up to him next. "Clerkenwell. I never seen a guy fight like that before. how did you get to fight so good?" Asked Butch. "My mother. My Mother had enough of my Father hitting her and she taught me how to fight next." Clerkenwell explains. Butch and Billy looked shocked and just in complete awe. "Now excuse me guys I like to go back home. I had a rough day today handling My Father and handling My Mother's Funeral." Says Clerkenwell Paying for the wine bottle he broke and paying for his two whiskey shots. "Okay bye." Billy and Butch said while waving good bye. "Bye kid." Said Craig Morrsey. Clerkenwell says good bye to all and hugs all his family relatives.
Clerkenwell gets in his car and drive to a near by lumber place and buys some new locks and door handles that came with keys with them. He even bought a book shelf for sale in the lumber place. putting all in the car. he goes back in the car and drives to gas station and pays the person to fill up his car and wash it and then drives back home. Places the car in park, gets out and locks the car doors and unlocks the front door. He then goes inside and replaces the door knobs and locks to the house, locks all them up for the night. Clerkenwell Then goes upstairs and gets ready for bed, fixes the book shelf in His new room. Goes back downstairs in the kitchen, reheats and eats left overs from last nights dinner with some left over tea in the fridge. Cleans up his dishes after he eats and finishes his tea, and throws out the bones in the trash can. Clerkenwell then shuts off all the lights, goes upstairs ,goes into his room. Shuts off the lights, goes to lay down under the covers of the bed and goes to sleep.