Day 80, year 850
Dear Captain Levi,
I'm so sorry, I am so very sorry. I have made the wrong choice. Because of me, Petra, Aluo, Eld, Gunther...everyone else is dead. I'm sorry for failing you, I'm sorry for failing the Survey Corps. I'm sorry for failing humanity. I'll never be able to ask for your forgiveness. Right now I'm just a burden, still a useless monster, I'm beginning to think that I should have been killed already, what use am I if the only thing I can do is to watch everyone as they die around me?
I wonder would my team mates be next? Will I be a failure once again?
If only I had acted earlier, if only I made the right choice, if only I had transformed. I would have been able to prevent many deaths. I tried so hard to put my faith in your squad and everyone else but it seems like that it wasn't enough to do anything. I wonder when humanity be able to actually secure a victory against the titans without the loss of so many of our comrades?
Even as my hand shakes and my tears end up staining this letter, I'll continue writing just for the sake of all our dead comrades, my sorry[s] can't bring them back but I'll continue fight for them. Forever. Until my last breath.
I'm very glad however that you were alright, I was so very glad that you came back alive. But being the fucking idiot that I was, I had to make you and Mikasa risk your lives to save me, and for that, I'm once again very sorry Captain. Now your leg is broken, I wish that I was able to be closer to you so I can take care of you.
Goddamit, why am I such a failure? Why can't I do something useful for once?
Please promise me one thing Levi (and yes please let me call you Levi for once). Please don't leave me, I swear I will do anything for you, I swear I'll fight and serve you but please don't leave me.
-From Eren
**is currently crying in a corner, sorry about this ;-;
And the dates are just the date in the whole year so like: day 80 out of 365 days
Sorry for any confusions! Hope you enjoy reading this crap, thank you! And please leave reviews! Arigatou ^^