Find Forgiveness Within You
Disclaimer: I Do Not Own Glee !
A/N: When I first started writing this story, I didn't have Blaine and Rachel in mind, but I loved them so much I ended up making them the stars of this story. Read and Review ! Now, Enjoy !
Chapter 3: You Got To Do What You Got To Do
As the wedding date approaches, Blaine begins to feel the wedding jitters. Rachel shouldn't have come back and make him feel the guilt he's been running from. It was so long ago, so far away, but just the sight of her brought him back to the scared little boy he was. Rachel would never forgive him or love him, but he knew he had to explain.
No matter how many people told him that he wasn't to blame, he knew he was. He still had nightmares about that night; it played in his head all the time. Things might have been different if it hadn't happened. Rachel might have been the girl he was marrying instead of Brittany.
Blaine couldn't sleep the night before his wedding. The conversation he had with earlier that day kept bugging him.
"Rachel, can we talk?"
She looked around to make sure no one was around and then replied, "About what?"
He drew closer to her and looked into her eyes. "Rachel, stop acting and pretending that you don't know what's up and stop pretending that you're okay."
She walked over to the sliding glass door to shut it. "Blaine, let's be honest here. You're the one that's not okay. Why do you keep bothering me when you're getting married tomorrow? What happened that night doesn't matter because I'll always hate you!"
He let out a sigh and fired, "You're so busy hating me that you don't see what you're doing to me. Why bother coming home if you aren't ready to move on with your life?"
"Move on? Let's be clear, moving on isn't an option for me. I can't and won't forget what you did. You ruined us. I came back because Brittany is my best friend."
He reaches out for her, but she moves out of his reach. "Rachel, what is it with you? You won't forgive me even though you don't know what happened. Why won't you let me explain? Is it because you don't want to forgive me?"
Her shoulder slumps and she begins to cry. "Blaine, it'd be so easy to forgive you and move on, but I can't. I came back hoping I could move forward, but it still hurts too much."
"You don't know what happened that night."
She looks up at him with a vicious glare and yells, "I know enough to know that my sister isn't alive because of you!"
The sound of a rock hitting his window dismissed his flashback. The alarm clock on his bed stand lit up 2:44a.m. He walks over to his window and looks down and finds Brittany smiling up at him. He opens up the window.
"Isn't it bad luck for me to see you before the wedding?"
"I was too nervous. Can I come up?"
He smiled softly and nodded. He snuck out his room quietly. Descending his stairs, he avoided all the creaks and went to open the door. When he opened the door, Brittany smiled seductively.
She attacked his lips with her own and jumped onto his waist. He tried to get into the moment, but every time Brittany touched him or kissed him, Rachel popped into his head. He wanted it to be Rachel so badly that he didn't realize that Brittany was crying. She got off of him and walked upstairs to his bedroom.
He ran his hands through his black curly locks and followed her. While mentally cursing himself, he couldn't help, but be glad he didn't do it. Rachel and Blaine were no longer together, but it still felt like cheating. Brittany and Blaine have done it multiple times, but now that Rachel was back in town, it was just wrong.
When he got into his room, Brittany was laying on his king-sized bed, quietly sobbing.
"I know . . . that . . . you still . . . love her." She said between sobs.
He walked over to her and lay beside her, holding her. "Brittany, I love her, but it doesn't change anything. I'm marrying you."
She rolled over to face him and smiled softly. "I'm glad you said that because I have some news!"
He didn't know how to feel but a thousand thoughts floated through his head. "What is it?"
"I'm pregnant." She said nervously.
"What?"
She bit her lower lip nervously and responded. "I missed my period, so, I went to the drug store and got a pregnancy test and it read positive."
Blaine didn't know how to feel. Everything was happening so fast. "Oh my god! I'm going to be a dad."
She smiled and he pulled her into his arms, wishing it was Rachel. He wished he could take back that night. He wished he never went to that party without Rachel. He fell asleep wishing for the impossible, the impossible with Rachel.
Brittany knew she would lose him if he knew the truth. She would find a way to get pregnant even if it meant cheating on Blaine. Rachel would not win this time. This time, she would win Blaine and the happily ever after. No matter what it cost her.