Disclaimer - i own nothing. writing just for fun. n yeah i have probs spelt some names wrong...sorry : forgive me?

SPENCERS POV.

so earlier was rather freaky. i have no idea what the hell happened though who cares anymore? this might be the drink talking but I'm going to a party tonight to meet someone hot and wanting to have a little fun cause that's what being Young is about! about having fun NOT falling inlove and settling down ''SPENCER C'MON WE'RE LEAVING NOW'' Andy shouts over to me. luckily his friend Denny showed up and is driving us since he isn't drinking or doing drugs tonight. so we all get in the car and make our way ofcourse Andy hands me a joint, now it would be rude of me to say no. well that's what i think ''hey is it two toke pass yeah?'' i say looking round at everyone they all laugh ''Spence who cares now just take what you need and pass it on to whoever you think is hottest in this car'' Denny laughs i take a few more draws making them deep and inhaling it til i have no choice but to exhale that's when i look round and see that everyones so stoned they forget i even have it so hey what the hell ill finish it off.

we pull up to the house the party's at and i get out the car...by that i mean i Fall out and Andy falls right after me, getting up would be easier if we could stop laughing for five minutes so we crawl abit before Denny being the gentleman he is, helps me up ''thanks i don't think i coulda done it alone'' i smile at him, he's not that bad looking tall, blond hair, toned body and green eyes. ''no problem babe. a chick like you shouldn't be down on the ground with the likes of Andy'' he laughs i give him a little smile and make my way in, looking for Kayla if i could remember what it was like to really have a best friend i would say she was mine. now a days anyways.''Spence'' i hear a familiar voice shout over the music '' I'm so glad your here'' the smaller girl smile ''Kayla its a party course i would be here spesh with you here'' i wink back at her, omg what the fuck did i just flirt with with Ashley's little sister? ''well i had a feeling you couldn't keep away from me for to long'' she winks back ok are we flirting? or am i just to stoned to know the difference ''you look hot BTW'' she adds ''thanks you look damn fine yourself'' i can tell shes had a couple drinks already by her hazey eyed expression.

as the night goes on me and Kayla play many drinking games with Aidan and some people from school or at least i think they are at our school, wait at least i think they are people. OK I'm worrying myself now. i really need to stop smoking weed and drinking all day cause i can not remember how i even got here or if my legs are even still attached. i grab Kayla ''c'mon i wanna go out for a smoke'' i say brushing my lips against her ear ''um...sure...oooookiee'' she says falling on her ass. i lean down next to her ''a lil to much vodka hunni?'' i laugh she burst into fits of laughter as do i ''give me your hand and help me up'' so i do only to be pulled over next to her ''good wheres Denny when i need him'' i say trying to stop laughing. ''ok ok ok Spence we will either haaaaavvvee to crawll or...get up'' she states so we both pull ourselves up and make our way outside ''god that was a trip'' i smile at her, she was really hot and the whole me and ash thing is done and dusted, she said she didn't like me as more than a best friend so why would she care if i was rather attracted to Kayla? ''gah what the fuck is wrong with this damn fag'' i shout cause I'm puffing but getting nowhere Kayla starts laughing like shes just saw the funniest thing ever ''Spence you've lit the wrong end''

''fuck why didn't you tell me before'' i say looking at my now wrecked fag.

after a while we head in. what happened in those moments is blank to me. like alot of Tonight actually but hey the nights still young. its only...like 11 or something. as soon as we get in I'm dragged to the dance floor by Kayla ''lets dance woman'' shes smiles but I'm abit shocked considering its a slow song and i really am having a great time with her. i know i shouldn't be but i am. if I'm honest weither its the drugs and booze or just being here with Kayla i haven't thought about Ashley all night.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah…

i rest my arms on her shoulders and give her a small smile. i feel her hands on my hips and we start to sway very slowly to the music. it feels so calming. i look into her eyes but look away before it becomes obv that I'm attracted to her.

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I
Collide

i feel her pull me closer and her hands hold me tighter, i rest my head on her shoulder. i open my eyes to see Aidan watching us. a look of dis-belief on his face. cant two friends dance without rumor's starting?

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression

But I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I
Collide

i shake it off and just focus on the moment. i don't want to forget it as its the first time i have completely shut Ashley out of my mind. i hold Kayla as tight as i can and feel her move her hands so they were touching bare skin on my back, yes she has put her hands up the back on my top slightly and i DONT want to stop her.

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

''Spence'' she whispers i my ear. i felt her lips gently brush my ear and i couldn't help but gasp ''yeah'' i say lifting my head off her shoulder so I'm looking right into her eyes ''I'm having a really good time tonight...with you'' she smiles abit. i could tell shes was nervous but so am i! i mean its Ashley's little sister! ''I'm having a awesome night to'' i say back.

Well even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find you and I collide
Finally find you and I collide
You finally find you and I collide

suddenly it feels like my heads spinning. she seems to be getting closer. her lips seem to be getting closer to mine. til i feel my lips being pressed against hers. i dunno why but i want this. i want to kiss her back. i lick her bottom lip slightly to gain entrance and she grants it. i feel my tongue against hers. eventually we pull away and just gaze at each other. trying to take in what just happened. when suddenly where brought out our moment by a voice we both know ''WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON HERE EXACTLY?'' Ashley shouted walking in between us.