A week has passed since Dimitri came here. I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to ask him so many questions. But I never got the chance. Only one day here and Abe already told him that he needed him to be his guardian. And I can't help the feeling that Abe is holding Dimitri from me.

But today I will finally have a day with him. And I feel the excitement within me. I will finally be able to ask him the things I want to ask. And I am hoping that he will tell me everything I want to know.

'Roza, you ready?' his deep voice asks me and I nod. Smiling to him and trying to get myself back into my wheelchair. Suddenly I feel his arms around me and lift me up. I wrap my arms around his shoulders and for a moment I let my head rest on his shoulder. He puts me in the wheelchair but he doesn't let go immediately.

I look into his eyes and he is only inches away. Feeling the warmth of his breath on my face and smelling his wonderful aftershave. I feel my stomach tighten but before I can do anything he lets go of me and takes a step back. I take a shaky breath and wheel myself out of the room.

He walks a little awkward next to me and doesn't say a word. His hands behind his back and his eyes staring in front of him.

'You want to push me?' I ask him and looks down at me. A little relieved. He nods and then stands behind me. I take my hands of the wheels and let him push me. Normally I would feel angry if anyone wants to push me but something about this feels normal.

'How was working with Abe?' I ask him. He stays silent for a while. I hope he is just thinking and not ignoring me.

'It was… alright.' He says. I wait for more but he doesn't say another thing. I stay silent myself, playing with the hem of my shirt. Not knowing what to say or how to say it. He sets me next to a bench and looks down at me.

'You want to sit here or on the bench?' he asks me, his eyes boring into mine.

'I would love to sit on the bench.' I say and give him a smile. He bends towards me and as his arms goes around me, I wrap my arms around him. He picks me up and sets me back down at the bench. He joins me and sit close next to me.

'Can I ask you something?' I ask him. He chuckles and look at me.

'I think this is the first time that you asked me if you could.' He says with a smile.

'I heard a lot of guardians talking about spirit but can you tell me what they are talking about?' I ask him and he looks a little surprised, like he expected some other questions. He nods and takes a deep breath before he starts talking.

I expect an interesting story but what I didn't expect was that he started talking about me and Lissa. He tells me about his task to bring Lissa and me back to the academy. And how we were struggling with her emotions and that we had a bound. I knew that I could feel her emotions and sometimes was pulled inside of her head but I didn't knew it was called a bound.

He tells us about Victor and how he knew that Lissa was specialized in spirit. A rare and old form of magic. I feel an ache inside of me when he tells me about Victor. What he did to Lissa. I don't want to believe him but I don't have a reason not to. He stops after that but I ask him to tell me further. About Lissa.

He tells me about how we both keep struggling with her powers. When she used to many of them and how I pulled the shadows towards me. How she was tortured by people from a little club because they wanted to use her magic. How she went mad and couldn't stop. That I pulled all the shadows to me and went mad myself.

After that he went quiet for a while with a far of look in his eyes and a smile on his face. I touch his arm and he looks at me again. His smile disappear before he looks away again. He takes another breath and tells further. About the attack at the academy and Lissa's death.

I feel my heart break again and tears on my face. Poor Lissa. I wish she was still here. She wasn't only a friend, she was my sister. I considered her as my only family. Well her, Mason and Eddie. My own chosen family that would never left me. So I thought.

His thumb moves over my cheek, wiping away the tears. I give him a weak smile and lean a little into his touch.

'What kind of relationship did we had?' I ask him and he freezes. He pulls his hand back and sits straight again.

'I used to be your teacher.' He tells me. I raise my brows but he doesn't look at me. He is hiding something.

'And?' I ask him.

'And?' He asks back, now looking at me.

'You were more than just my teacher. If we had been just teacher and student you wouldn't be here.' I state and he gives a small smile.

'We were friends.' He says, not looking at me. I let out a sigh and fold my arms across my chest.

'Tell me the truth, Dimitri. Please.' I tell him. My eyes pleading.

'Alright. We fell in love.' He says. In love? It sounds so strange. How could I have fallen in love with my teacher? Someone who is seven years older than me?

'Did we have a relationship before this happened?' I ask him. My heart starts beating faster and the emotions are running through my mind. Somewhere I am scared that we didn't and somewhere I am scare that we did.

'Things were kind of difficult.' He says. Not really answering my question.

'Did we once have a relationship?' I ask him and he nods. Pain in his eyes.

'What happened?' I ask him. Reaching out and taking his hand into mine.

'I was stupid and I left you after your graduation.' He tells me.

'But you were at the academy and you are here. So we made it up again, right?' I ask him. Hoping that I am somewhere true.

'Can you just tell her?' Abe's voice startling us and we both look up at him. Dimitri shakes his head but I look at Abe with curiousness.

'He was going to propose and knowing you, you would have said yes.' He says and it feels like my heart is breaking again. It is doing that a lot lately. I was going to marry him?

I hope you are still enjoying the story. I know that it isn't very exciting and that I suck at cliffhangers! But I have a couple ideas for this story and I need to work towards those point. In the meantime I'm a little stuck at this story, so ideas would be wonderfull!

Another thing. It's tuesday and tonight is the first semi final of the eurovision song contest! I'm very excited. So tell me if you are going to watch and who do you want to win this contest! I'm seriously hoping that Norway will win! Their song is amazing.
Other nations that I like are Austria, Ireland, Sweden, Hungary and Estonia.