Darn it!
I'm gonna be leaving soon and won't be back for a while...
And I still haven't finished this fic and The very many ways love blooms...
GAH!
I'M SO BUSY I'M GETTING DIZZY!
And a headache...
NOTE: I'm not sure if there's really gonna be any romance... at all.
I am RUSHING to finish, so don't hate me!
Me no in a good mood anyway :I
The day as finally come, I will no longer be suffering or be harassed by anyone. I felt very happy I didn't even care what anyone will do to me, just as long as they won't be in the way of me getting out of here. I didn't know why, by conscious told me I'll regret it, but it was such a little voice I didn't even listen, it's like when you watch a cartoon, sometimes a little angel appears on one shoulder and a little devil on the other, if the person is really bad, there are two devils and one just hit you. They even show it hurts. I drank up all my water and the leftover food, I was stuffed. Well, there goes a mystery I'll never solve, why is everybody treating me like a slave? I don't want to think negative anymore, but then again, suicide is a negative thought... is it? It's for the good purpose, no?
I walked out of my room, this time I wasn't scared. I felt this was like everyday life. Today was the day I'll just smile at Himeka-chan if she insultes me. Also, if Kazune-kun tries to kiss me, I'll just let him, until I can't stand it anymore, of course.
"Karin-chan!"
I turned around, speak of the devil... it was Himeka. She looked, happy? She hugged me, giving me that cute smile she always did. What's wrong with her, did she run out of insults? Or does she know about my plan...?
"Himeka-chan, nice to see you... are you feeling okay?"
"Of course I am, want to go help me cook?"
"I'm kinda busy, how about tomorrow?"
"As if..."
"Alright!"
She skipped down the hallway, I scratched my head, what was that all about? Wasn't she suppose to say I'm a bitch? A whore? A nuisance? Something is wrong here, maybe they do know about my plan! And they are being nice to me either they want me to die or they don't so they can keep using me! I better not jump to any conclusions just yet.
There is always Kazune-kun, Micchi, and Jin. I bet Kazune-kun didn't change, he must be very happy I'm going to be gone.
"Good mourning Karin."
I saw Kazune rubbing his eyes, where's the grabbing? Pushing me? Pulling on my hair? Did they really change back...? No, can't be, I'm just dreaming! Yeah, that's it. I kicked Kazune-kun, maybe now he will go freakish on me.
"Ow! What the hell was that for!?"
"I am losing it!"
I ran back to my room, I bet I left him confused. Who wouldn't? I heard the door open, I stepped out my rom and saw Jin and Micchi. Perfect, maybe I can see if they are also playing a trick on me, I went downstairs and smiled at both of them. I felt a strong impact on my back, I titled my head to see Micchi clinging on, "hello Hanazono-san!"
Jin grabbed my hand and kissed it, are all of them trying to play with my emotions? If they really are acting like this on the day I'm going to die, then they did a pretty good job at it. I hit my head on Micchi chin and slapped Jin's hand, how dare they?! I stomped to my room, I was suppose to feel happy about not seeing them, but I'm just babbling about them changing. I felt like applying lotion for no reason what so ever. Maybe I should leave now, so I won't get hurt then I already am. Right now I can't leave from the entrance because of 'guest,' I looked at the window.
Good enough. I was trying to get my leg through, nothing. I jumped on one foot and pulled, success! And hurt... I fell on my knees, it wasn't grass, but it rocks, the points types too. I really didn't care, I remembered before I left the note on my bed, my legs were bleeding a little bit and I started running. If I get rammed by a car that would also be good enough for me. My mind was filled with many great memories, the day I first met Himeka-chan and Kazune-kun.
Normal P.O.V
"Oi, Karin!" Kazune peeped into Karin's room, it was empty. And by empty doesn't mean by belongings, but by no Karin. He looked around to see a small wrinkle piece of paper. Everyone suddenly popped into her room, they all gathered around Kazune, with a slight bit of the shock written all over their face.
I was soon reaching my destination... I could feel my heart, thump thump... thump thump, I was really having second thoughts. All I was thinking was if everyone changed back into themselves for the awkward kindness, did they?...
Even if they did, what will happen if they try and treat me like garbage again?
Pain, fear, sorrow, regret, I felt it all. I looked up into the beautiful blue sky, will the puffy like clouds come to rescue me? Yeah right, that's only in fairy tails. I sat down on the forest flow, visualizing everything around me, from the trees to the flowers, the the animals to the sound of rushing water. I fell somewhat silly always believing that I could touch the clouds, and it will be a soft white bed or a tasty marshmallow! If I ever was to touch it, it will be nothing and disappear at the very moment.
I am never going to see these things, might as well enjoy the moments, while it still last.
I stood up, I spotted at peculiar flower, a very special one, Forget-me-knots...
I smiled, I took a small handful with me, as if I'm walking to a funeral with flowers in my hands.
I walked slowly for the fact my legs still hurt, but at least no more bleeding, I was now getting closer to the cliff, I stood a little distance from the edge, I looked down. It was a bigger forest, but big sharp rocks were very visible, it must be at least 110 feet or something, I gulped. Am I really crazy enough to do this? I won't feel a thing... right? Maybe I can freeze myself instead, then again. I'm already here, I can't turn back now, they might be looking for me, I'm not really sure if they care. And there is no way I'm going to be living in a forest!
"KARIN!"
"My goddess!"
"Hanazona-san!"
"Karin-chan!"
My name, they are coming. They must be furious, I really can't tell how Himeka-chan feels because when she was angry at me she will either call me bitch, whore, garbage... great, I'm making my self feel bad, oh joy... well. Where ever they are, they are coming, and they are getting closer than ever. I turn my head slightly, the edge of the cliff.
Big pointy rocks...
Big trees...
Forest floor with broken branches...
Could thinking make this situation possibly better? My nervousness made me sweat a little, the lotion I applied felt creamy again. I think I'm ready! I stepped on the very edge of the cliff, I looked down, oddly, I didn't feel scared. I braced myself, ducked a little, and ju-
"STOP KARIN!"
Damn it! They found me, well. It was the only cliff around here, I guess. I couldn't dare turn around, oh what emotions can they possibly feel? I feel like guessing! Anger? Shock? Upset? Or my favorite, nothing at all! I held unto the flowers tighter, sigh... I turned around and faced everybody, I faked a I'm-about-to-cry look. Everyone was panting with their hands on their knees, Kazune was the only one walking towards me, so I stepped back, I almost tripped, suddenly he hugged me. Now, I really was crying. I looked, everyone was smiling at me, their eyes were glittered, were they about to cry?
"Out of all the stupid things you ever did, this..."
I know how humiliating this is for someone as sexist as him, since everyone was watching and listening. My face turn to the shade of pink as cotton candy.
"I love you."
He whispered in my ear, my eyes widened, I was hesitating, I wanted to say something, but nothing came out. I just hope he won't take my silence as a rejection.
"I...I..."
The cliff broke up, the weight must damaged the standards. I thought I was gonna die alone. I opened my eyes and felt no pain still. Was I dead? I opened my eyes to see Kazune holding unto my arm, I guess everybody else was to in shock to even move, I don't blame them. His grip was slipping because of my skin, I should of never put lotion on! Now he was holding unto my hands, I was bound to fall, I felt negative... no way am I going to live.
My hand was freed, I closed my eyes smiling, I felt the air as a bed. Also feeling fluidic in some ways, I felt something hugging me. I opened my eyes again.
"I am willing to die with you, just to stay with you. I truly love you Karin."
Kazune-kun... I hugged him, and awaiting final impact...
Not the ending I plan, I only wanted Karin to fall off...
That sounded so mean!
xD
Well, that's it!
NOTE: Don't ask me about the change, I know it may be confusing but still... WHAT TIME DO I HAVE?! I'm leaving on staurday! I have to finsh a novel by then and I'm only on pg 34! Then I have to write 6 damn pgs about it!
Yes yes, my things are confusing!
I so need anger mangement at this very moment...